#INSPIRE

I Just Need Time

I'm in love with my best friend.

There. I said it.

She's straight.

It kills me inside, knowing I'm probably gonna have to just deal with this, or else I'll make her uncomfortable.

I just can't keep lying to myself anymore.

I just need time.

We dated for a day, actually, then she said she didn't want to anymore, because she's straight. She also wanted to stay single until high school.

By then, someone else will probably take her.

I just need time.

I'm probably not gonna post this, simply because I know she'll be upset, and she'll try to comment. I know she'll only be trying to help.

I'm probably gonna have to deal with this without telling anyone, without anyone helping me out.

I'm gonna have to deal with this on my own.

I'm okay with that.

I just need time.

If I DO post this, I just hope she doesn't comment anything saying how sorry she is. There's no point in being sorry.

"You can't FORCE someone to love you."~Dipper Pines-Gravity Falls

I can't change her sexuality either.

It's going to take a while, but I will get better. I know I'll get through this.

I just need time.

Not long paragraphs from her. Not a long talk saying the same things over and over again.

I just need time.

It's already been a few weeks. It's taking longer than it should, I know.

I just need time.

I just need time.

Please give me more time...

To her,

If you ARE reading this, please no long paragraphs saying how sorry you are. You've given me a lot of those. I just felt that SOMEONE else will feel my struggle, and see this. I might actually be able to help someone.

Please don't be worried about me. I'm doing okay. I just need time to heal. All I need you to do, is just be there. So when I have a mental breakdown, I have someone to talk to.

To the rest of you,

PEACE!~