#INSPIRE

True Happiness + THANK YOU!!!

Today was my final day in programming, and I feel the best I have in years! I feel like I'm finally free from the depressing prison that I was put in for several years. It feels amazing.

Sure, I'm going to miss the awesome people that I met there, but to fully heal, you sometimes have to learn to move on.

I feel like I can finally breathe again after years of drowning in aggravated waters. I don't feel like a transparent shadow of my peers. I don't hate myself.

I don't hate myself.

I actually don't hate myself.

I've hated myself for so long; I've wanted to disappear for as long as I can remember. I finally want to live my life.

I think I've found true happiness

And god, does it feel great!

I'd like to thank my parents, my friends, all of the amazing people I met in programming, my therapists, my ex boyfriend, my haters, my demons, myself, and you. Yes, you.

I don't think that people realize that they are making a difference most of the time. By leaving a comment, voting on this piece of trash, following me, or even just taking time out of your day to read even a WORD out of this. It's meant the WORLD to me. You all have absolutely changed my life, and I'm eternally grateful.

Thank you for just absolutely being awesome.

Since your awesome, let me give you the biggest piece of advice anyone could give you;
The next time that you feel anxious, unloved, or you just overall hate yourself (like I did) just remember that your brain is the biggest liar you'll ever meet. Also, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I wish someone would have told me that, instead of constantly asking if I'm okay.

My depression and anxiety didn't just disappear, however. It's still there, and always will be. However, now I finally have a fighting chance against these demons in my head. It's amazing.

This is not the end of #INSPIRE, just the end of the darkest part of my life. I'll still update guys! I don't know what else to say, so I'll just end the chapter here.

Thank you.