#INSPIRE

Can't

I can't do it anymore. I can't do it.

My mind is racing, my depression is tearing me apart.

I can't do it anymore, I can't do it anymore.

God, I wish it would all just stop. It won't. It keeps telling me everything I hate about myself.

You're so fat.

You're such a slut. Grow up.

You're so dramatic, no wonder everyone hates you.

You can't tell anyone any of your real problems, because then they will all leave you.

I know these things aren't logically true, but to my emotions, they are.

I wish my brain would stop being an emotional, emo teenager already.

I'm supposed to be past this. I'm supposed to be better! I'm taking medication, going to therapy, rebuilding bridges...

Why can't I just be happy?

I tell myself, "Today is going to be a good day!"

It always turns to shit.

When I say, "Today is going to be a shitty day!"

It always turns to shit.

I try. I try so hard to just stay strong. I try so hard not to cry myself to sleep every night. I try so hard, sometimes I cry out of frustration and exhaustion.

Sometimes, everything becomes too much, and you feel as if what you're doing is not enough.

Then, you feel like YOU aren't enough.

My brain torments me every day, announcing the same hateful things. Over and over. Every single day.

No matter how many antidepressants I take, or how much therapy I go to, it's still there.

And god, does it still hurt.

But, I keep fighting. I don't exactly know why. I guess I feel like if I can't help myself, I might as well use that to help other people, and then eventually help myself as well.

Here's some advice:

1.) Words hurt sometimes. You just need to move forward with your life.

2.) The past is gone, the future is ahead, the present is a gift.

3.) Everything has been okay before, it will be okay again.

4.) People sucks a lot of the time. Some people just aren't worth it. If they treat you like shit, flip them off and get on with your life.

5.) Live life as you would if you had nothing to lose.

6.) It's okay to be afraid. Sometimes, fear can be our best motivator.

7.) Humor is one of the best medicines out there.

8.) If your friend is crying, make a that's what she said joke. Works every time.

Anyways, everything sucks if you let it. SUCK ON T H A T LIFE!!!

Blergh I'm gonna go call my friend back now. Thanks for reading this trash.