All We Have (Book 2)

26

Colson

My heart is about to jump out of my chest. It wasn't supposed to happen like this. This wasn't supposed to be happening at all!

"Colson!" Jane cried.

"It's going to be ok Jane. I'm right here." I said grabbing her hand.

She was taking shallow breaths but she was still some what responsive. I took that as a good sign. My mind was still racing. My chest is tightening. I've never had a panic attack before in my life so I can only imagine that this is what it feels like. I can't panic, not now. I have to remain positive.

"Colson!" She chocks out as they race her down the hall.

"Colson, I'm scared!" She cries

"It's ok baby. I'm here. I promise everything is going to be ok." I try to reassure her.

I took her hand into mine only to have it ripped away again.

"We're sorry sir but you have to move and let us do our job." The nurse said as they rushed her into the OR.

I can't believe this is happening and I can't help but think that this is all my fault. If it wasn't for me this wouldn't have happened and they would be ok. I punched the wall and fell to the floor.

Slim and Ashleigh approached me and walked me to the waiting area. I was about to totally lose my shit. Until I noticed Casie's presences. She ran up to me and hugged my legs.

"Daddy, its gonna be ok. Their gonna be ok, won't they?" Casie asked

"Yeah their gonna be ok baby." I said hugging her tightly as tears rolled down my face.

I don't know who I was trying to convince more me or Casie. I had to believe that they were going to be ok.
God, I hope I'm right.

"Mr.Baker." Detective Jones spoke

I quickly wiped the tears away and jumped out of my seat ready to fight.

"How the hell did Gina get released!?" I yelled.

"Calm down Mr.Baker and let me explain, please." He pled with me.

The guys rushed over and created some distance between the detective and I. I was about 3 seconds away from ripping him apart.

"Calm down! My wife and my children are in there fighting for their lives and you want me to calm down!?" I spat

"Listen, there was a mistake. There was another woman in the jail with the same name and we released the wrong woman by mistake. By the time we figured it out she was in the wind." He stated.

"Then why in the hell were we not notified? How could you let something like this happen? My wife and unborn children may die and it's your departments fault. You've got blood on your hands!" I shot back.

I was so mad that I hadn't realized that I had started crying again. Ashleigh asked the detective to speak with her privately and the guys tried to calm me down. My mom came by shortly after and took Casie back to her hotel.

This all literally happened within the blink of an eye. One minute everything was great and the next it was a catastrophe. One of the nurse's brought me Jane's things. She handed me her purse and I saw something sticking out of it. It was a card with a sonogram inside it:

Happy birthday to the best dad in the world! Love your son and daughter's ❤

I took a closer look at the sonogram and it revealed that the twins were a boy and girl. I felt my heart breaking into a million pieces.

We all sat there for what seemed like hours before the doctor came out to talk to us.

"Mr. Baker I'm Dr. Martin, I'm doing everything I can to try to save your wife and the twins. But things aren't looking good. If it comes down to it. Who do you want us to save? Your wife or the twins?" The doctor asked.

The question he was asking just didn't register. How could I even be capable of making a decision like that?

"Mr. Baker, who do we save? Your wife or the babies?" He asked again

I didn't know how to answer. I want to save all 3 of them. I wanted to tell him to save my wife but I knew that's not what Jane would've wanted.

"Mr.Baker?"

As I was trying to process the news Slim placed his hand on my shoulder.

"The twins, my wife would want you to save the twins." I chocked out

The doctor rushed off and went back into the OR. Damnit! Why was this happening? That fucking bitch Gina did this to us. If I could get my hands on her right now I would squeeze the life out of her. I would kill her over and over again if it meant my wife and children would be safe.

This is all my fault. I should've did more to protect them. I was supposed to keep them safe. I shouldn't have let my guard down. I shouldn't have let go of the security team when we got back home. If they were still here Jane wouldn't have went back by herself. She would've had someone there to protect her. What kind of husband and father am I if I let my family down like this.

"Damnit!" I yelled.

My life was falling apart and I was trying to get control of myself.

"Twins?" Dub said trying to take in the information.

"Yeah, uh, we were waiting to surprise you guys. I guess Jane wanted to do it tonight. That's why she went back to the house. She left the sonogram at home." I said trying my best to fight back the tears.

I started thinking about what would happen if I lost Jane or what if we lost one or both of the twins? I tried to push that thought as far away from my mind as possible. I started thinking about happier times.

Like when me and Jane got back together. We went on a second mini honeymoon in the mountains. The whole weekend we stayed in bed. We couldn't keep our hands off each other. When we weren't making love, we were just talking and laughing. Just like we did when we first got together.

Ashleigh tried to put my mind at easy by telling me when she had gotten in touch with one of her friends who was an attorney. She would be helping us with a law suite against the police department for their negligence.

We sat there and they tried their best to keep me calm. But all of that went right out the window when the OR doors swung open and they came out pushing two incubator's. We all stood up and ran into the hallway.

"We're taking the twins down to the NICU." One of the nurse's informed me as they wheeled them away.

When I realized what had happened I fell to my knees and sobbed. The twins made it and Jane was gone. My wife was gone!