Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter three

I rush to the door and open it slowly.

"Hey" Yoongi says holding up a takeaway cup of coffee and few packets of sugar.

Without saying anything I jump on him, hugging him tightly until he hugs me back.

"I missed you, you idiot" I whisper into his ear almost crying of happiness"
"Well you're an idiot too you idiot, I've missed you more" he says hugging me so tightly I can barely breathe.

I tap him on the back and he lets me go.

It's almost like a romantic reunion but, without the romantic kissing and the aggressive touching.
I look into his eyes and smile. He's almost crying, I can see the little pools of water on his water line.

So much for Agust D and Suga, fierce rapper of BTS and the whole of the rapping scene.

"I thought I wasn't going to see you until the fanmeet" I say whacking him playfully on the arm.

"I know, it's just I haven't seen you in so long. I didn't even tell Jin, Namjoon knows I'm here but he said he wants to see you separately" he says trying to hide his eyes.

"Why didn't you tell him, I haven't spoke to him in ages-does he even know I'm coming tomorrow" I say starting to get frustrated.

"He knows, he's been moping about because he can't speak to you, his stupid phone isn't working and he thought he had upset you" Yoongi says trying to defend him.

I smile in triumph and motion Yoongi to come in. The door closers and rest my head on the wood and sigh. Yoongi looks at me with a concerned face.

"What's wrong? You're not PMSing are you?" he says hinting towards my stomach.

"What? No- no" I roll my eyes, "It's just I'm going to have to make more awkward conversation with more of your staff members and with the rest of the boys and-"

"Jin said that you don't have to, we were talking about it yesterday- but he did say that at the fan meet he's going to come to you infront of all the fans"

I pause and look back at him, in shock.

"What the- what are you thinking are you idiots he's the oldest he should know all the fans would litterally kill me you don't know what fangirls and fanboys are capable of they'd kill me-never mind the scandals and the rumours and I have a job in the public, I'd get recognised" I say starting to almost panic.

"No, we'd just say you're a friend, Namjoon and everyone says it's a great idea. We want to show how much trust we have in the army, so we're gonna do this" he says reassuring me.

I scoff and shake my head, "This is a bad idea"

-knj-

"Happy birthday!" All the members shout into the microphone, I keep quiet. I'd rather tell her myself.
I watch as she giggles and covers her face. I love her. I'm not sure in what way, but I know I do.

"Well thank you" she says back to us. Almost elegantly, she flips stray hairs out of her view.

I've been notice these things more now,- the way she flips her hair, the way she gets embarrassed so quickly.

I hardly even know her anymore though. It's not real. No matter how many cute things I see she does, she never tells the truth.

I know it all though, I have to hear it from the other two. The other two people who know much more about her even though I'm the one who introduced them.

She barely knows me. I used to be honest with her about the girls I saw. But then I kept using it as almost a release. A release from my feelings from her.

But some, like her, want to be around me because of my personality. I get many people saying I'm different than what I show on stage or on interviews or on videos that the others make. Not in a bad way. It's just I can always show how I feel or who I really am without people being surprised, especially now it's been so long.

"So we'll see you later at the fan-meet?" She says happily, snapping me from my thoughts.

"Obviously it's our fan meet" Jungkook laughs, "how does it feel to know your less than 900 meters away from us?" Jungkook says modestly, I glare at him briefly before looking back at Y/N

"Not that great, it's cold and I'm surrounded by crying fans"

She turns the camera and shows us the long line of fans she that are sitting huddled up in the cold like penguins.

"Where's Holly?" I ask finally confused by the other girls space being filled with a bag.

"She's gone to get preparations, it'd be nice if you guys let us in, it's not as if we're some random people" she says pulling the blanket closer to her.

"Wait who are you on the phone to?" A person says next to her. Her eyes widen and she drops the phone into her lap.

"What do you thinks happening?" Jimin says concerned.

"Its probably just a fan next to her" Jin says reassuring the rest of the group.

"Well? Who is it? It sounds like Namjoon oppa" the fan says raising her voice. We go deadly silent.

"I heard that Namjoon oppa had a friend who came to his shows in this town" I cringe at the fact they keep using oppa.

"It's obviously not" she says laughing, "That is the most mismatched rumour I've ever heard- that's worse than the rumour than the Suran and Yoongi rumour" Yoongi scoffs loudly and Y/N pauses talking.
"I'm on the phone to my boyfriend if you must know- he's one of the staff members inside" she says quickly, almost proudly.

"Well it sounds like him" the fan says rudely.

Y/N pulls the camera back up to her face and smiles weakly.
"I'll have to go now, it seems me being on the phone to you is causing a problem" she says rolling her eyes.

"Well see you later," Hoseok says smiling, "And you'll see your boyfriend later as well" he laughs doing love hearts with both hands.

"Bye!" Everyone waves and she puts the phone down.

"What is your problem" Jin suddenly says glaring at me.

"What"

"Your glaring at everyone that talks to her, especially the younger boys" he says louder.

"What?" Jimin says confused.
"He was glaring at you and Jungkook, and especially Hoseok, he looked like he wanted to kill Hoseok"

"I don't-I didn't" I say denying it.

"You may not realise but I care about her too- but this is equally as important, if not more, this is your career your messing with here. I get that you like her but you can't be getting all stroppy with us, we are apart of your income and your life, you can't screw us over for a girl" he shouts.

"I'm not going to, I don't know why your thinking like this" I say looking at him dead in the eyes.
"I just don't want this to go any further, not until after this year"

"I'm the leader here, I'm the one who has a say in my life" I say starting to get annoyed.

"If you're the leader than act like one, act responsible for your own fucking group" he spits getting even angrier than me. I take a deep breath and look away from the rarely angry Jin.

He's right. I shouldn't be getting pissed at the others for being nice to her. I should be happy there getting along. I should be caring for her rather than getting pissed at her for having friends.

This is a mess.