Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter thirtyone

"Y/N" I say smiling as she enters the room.
"Where's the food?" Taehyung says laughing.
"I've got it" Namjoon says smiling.
she walks in and sits down next to me and leans on my arm.
"Yoongi?" she says quietly.
"Yeah?" He says looking at her.
"Can we talk for a moment?"
He nods and walks out of the room,    Y/N follows slowly. Theres something wrong.
I stand up abruptly and the boys look at me.
"Jimin, I wouldn't" Namjoon says sighing.
I roll my eyes and follow them down the hall. Like I'm going to listen to him right now.
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"People have been taking pictures, there pictures all over the internet, I think I have to go home" she says looking at me.
I look into her eyes and smile. I can tell shes really upset about all this.
"You don't have to go home" I say smiling reassuringly.
I won't let her go home because of this.
"I don't think I deal with the backlash of staying with you guys"
"It'll settle" I say shaking my head.
"Yoongi, we both know it won't"
I look at her eyes. This isn't how it's supposed to be, she's supposed to be happy and excited to be with us.
I'm not supposed to be here consoling her whilst she cries about how horrible people are.
"I can't let you go, you've only just come here and I can't let you go" I say smiling, "This is the only time I'm going to be selfish with you, but I'm not letting you go, no matter how hard this is, I'm not letting you go"
She looks up at me and sniffs.
"I don't know what to do anymore, Namjoon confessed that he likes me earler" she says smiling slightly.
That took him long enough.
"See? You can't leave" I say smiling.
"That's not the point, I've gone from being a normal person, living in a normal flat with a normal job and a normal social life to being someone a large group of people hate just because I'm living with you guys, and now Jimin and Namjoon like me, I'm just trying to live my life" She says frustrated.
I roll my eyes and look at her.
"You knew this wouldn't be easy, no one ever promised a happy ever after, this is what happens when you choose to live your life the way you have, I'm not trying to change your mind or force you to stay" I pause and look at her, "No one but you can change this, the boys will say that they can, but we both know that'll stir up more rumours, you can either keep going out with Namjoon and Jimin and create more situations for misunderstandinds, or you can stop- or leave" I say rubbing my head.
She looks at me and sighs. Maybe I shouldn't of said that? Was that too much? I know for a fact this isn't the best idea.
"I'm going to have to choose between staying and not being having any relationships or leave and hurt them"
"I dont want you to leave, but I don't want you to be unhappy" I starting to get upset. I don't want to have to wait another 2 years before I see her again.
"I- I think I have to leave, not the country but i can't stay in this house whilst this is happening" she says quietly.
"Do you have any money for a hotel?"
"I think so, I'll sort something out" she says looking at the ground.
Should I let her go?

"What are you going to say to the others?" I say curiously.
"I think it would be best if I didn't tell them, or I just say I'm going for a walk" she says nodding.
"I don't think they'd fall for that" i say laughing slightly.
I hear someone laugh quietly at the door, I look at Y/N. I don't think she heard it. I look at the door slightly and meet eyes with Jimin. I sigh and motion for him to go before looking back at Y/N who's still looking at the floor.
"How long will you be gone for?"
"A night or two, I need to pack some spare clothes"
"Go and do that now, I'll sort the boys out" I say reluctantly.

She nods and we leave the room. Jimins gone, I wonder how long he was standing there for.
I watch as she enters Jimins room and closes the door quietly.
I walk into the front room and sit on the couch. Why'd she have to talk to me of all people?
"What was that about?" Jungkook says curiously.
I pause and look at for a second. What am I supposed to say now?
"Y/N wanted me to go to the postal office and pick up a package her friend sent, but I said I wouldn't because I'm drunk" I say smirking proudly.
"You seem much more sober now though?" Taehyung says looking at me.
"Talking with Y/N always refreshes me" I say exergating my words.
He laughs slightly and continues eating.

Y/N come back with a rucksack and I nod at her.
"Remember, its down the street and then too the left" I say pointing to her.
She smiles and walks to the door.
"Don't be too long" Namjoon says disinterested.

I look at him closely, I hear the door open and close. He looks at me and smiles.
"She's going to a hotel, theres no point waiting up for her" Jimin says from the other couch.
"I already guessed that" Taehyung says taking a bite of food.
"Me too, who takes an overnight bag to a post office, also no post office is open right now" He says laughing and pointing at me.
I laugh slightly, I mean that was a pretty bad excuse.

Its so cold, why didn't I bring my jumper.
I hug myself and carry on walking. there's got to be a hotel around here somewhere.
"What are you doing out here?" I hear someone say behind me.
I turn slowly and see jin standing with his arms crossed looking at me sternly.
"I'm going for a walk, why are you out here? The boys waited for you to come back?" I say smiling.
"Where are you going?" he says rasing his eyebrows and ignoring my question
"For a walk" I say laughing nervously, "What about you?"
"Whats happened?" he says sighing.
"I'm just going to a hotel for tonight, I need a break from staying in Jimins bed" I say shrugging.
"Really? Ok, well if you need anything call me, make sure you get somewhere soon, its getting cold" he says poitning to my bare arms.
He turns around and continues walking down the street. Why is their so many secrets between the boys?

"Didn't even offer me his coat" I say scoffing.
I walk for somemore until i see a hotel, it looks fancy, and expensive. I look at the entrance and sigh, it looks warm at least. I make my way to the entrance and step through the doors.

The lobby is big and white, its almost like a hotel you'd see on a kdrama.
I walk over to the reception desk and pull out my purse.
"One single room please, just for tonight" I say politely to the receptionist.
"Can I have a name please?" He says smiling.
"Y/F/N" i say politely.
"That will be ₩98,562 please"
I pause in shock. That much? For one room?
"Is that the cheapest room?" I say quietly.
"Yes, I am afraid all other rooms have been booked"
I sigh and pull out the money, that's the whole weeks money gone.
He nods and goes to get the key, I rest my arm on the desk and sigh.
He comes back and hands me the key and a receipt.
"Have a nice stay" He says politely.
I nod and walk over to the elevator, hopefully after nights rest I'll feel better.