Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter fourty

Whoops looks like it took 40 chapters before I started the romance between the two main characters welp.

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"Shut up you idiot" Yoongi says before the sounds of shattering glass echo through the house.

I sigh and take a deep breath before stepping into the boys line of view.
"Yoongi" I scream angrily.
He turns around and drops his mouth slightly.
"Yo-you" He says in disbelief.
I walk towards him and start hitting his chest weakly.
"What are you doing? Why are you drinking like this?"
"Y- Y/N?" He chokes out.
"What are you doing?" I say resting my head on his chest and hitting him one last time.

"Is it really you?" He says quietly.
"I missed you so much" I shout out still crying.
"I- I" He says quietly.
He wraps his arms around me and starts sobbing uncontrollably.
"You were gone for over a year" he cries out loudly.
"I'm sorry" I say crying.
He stops crying and lets ago of me before stumbling/storming off to his room.

I sniff and wipe my eyes before looking at the other 2 boys in the room.

"Hello" Taehyung says supprised.
"Hey" I say wiping my eyes again.
"Long time no see stranger" He says smiling sweetly.
"You too" I say sighing.

He smiles at me and looks at Hoseok.
Hobi stands up and walks over to me before stopping a foot away from me.

"You said you'd come and see us" He says disappointed.
"I'm sorry" I say quietly.
"I waited for you to text me or anyone saying you were coming down" He says sighing.
I look at the ground and sniff, still upset from seeing Yoongi.

"Can I have a hug?" He says cheerily, totally changing his tone.
I look up and smile at him before hugging him tightly.
"Namjoon and Jin are at the studio, they should be back soon" Hobi says letting go of me.

"Wheres Jimin?" I say hopefully.
"Ah- Jimin has a guest at the moment" Hoseok says carefully.
My mouth drops slightly and I look at Jungkook.
"You sai-"
"I didn't know" he says defensively.
"You didn't expect for him to not see anyone over the whole year you were gone, did you?" Hoseok says frowning.
"I- I don't know, how long have they been together?" I say quietly.
"Their not together, Jimin just picks up random girls every so often, its been going on for about a month now" Hoseok says half heartedly.

"Go in there" Taehyung says simply.
"Don't tell her to do that" Jungkook says hitting his arm.
"She won't believe it until she sees it with her own eyes" Taehyung says kindly.

I bite my lip and walk towards Jimins door, stopping just outside.
I can't hear anything from inside.
Is that good or bad?
I put my hand on the door knob and turn it slowly before quickly opening the door.

I look over the bed and see Jimin cradling a girl in his arms.
In the same place he used to cradle me.
I stare at his arms, the way there ever so gently holding the girl close to his body.

I finally look at his face sleeping, the light from the hallway shines through the open door and onto his face, causing him to wake up.
He opens his eyes looks at my sad face, not half as pretty as the girl he just fucked.
For some reason a tear falls down my face, I cant tell whether its because I'm being overly emotional or I'm upset about Jimin.
"Y/N?" He practically shouts before removing his arms from the girl.
I smile weakly at him before turning around and walking out into the hallway, closing the door behind me.

I walk into the bathroom and half slam the door behind me.
I can't believe he wou-

No, I've been gone for over a year, what was I expecting?

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"You need to leave, now" I say trying to hurry the girl in my bed to leave.
"Why?" She says putting her clothes back on.

"Why not? I don't know? Just go" I say pushing her out of my room and through the house to the front door, "I'm so sorry about this" I say quickly before shutting the front door behind her.

"Y/N is back by the way" Hoseok says as I walk into the front room.

I don't say anything. their isn't anything to say, I don't even know why I'm so nervous, she left us, not the other way around.

I walk into the wall way and stop outside the bathroom, where else would she be than here?
I open the door and walk in.

"Why didn't you lock the door Y/N?" I say sighing.
I close the door and rest my head against it.
"I wanted you to come in and find me" She says quietly.
"I missed your voice" I say quietly.
"I missed your voice as well" She says softly.
I stand up properly and turn to her.

She looks different, more fraile and damaged.
"Why did you leave?" I say walking towards her.
She doesn't answer and stairs the ground instead.

I sigh and sit down next to her, I'm sure this has been difficult for her as well.
I put my arm around her and hug her weakly.

"I'm glad your back" I say sighing.
"I'm sorry" She says quietly.
Tears start to form in my eyes, I don't even know why- It's not my fault she left.

We sit in silence for a while, I don't want to let her go. If I let her go she might leave again, but I know we can't just sit here.
I eventually remove my arms and sniff a little.

She looks into my eyes and smiles.
"Why did you leave?" I repeat.
"I thought it would be for the best" She says quietly.

"I know Namjoon told you to go Y/N, but he didn't tell you to stay away for a year" I say calmly.
"I didn't think me staying here would be good for anyone" She says even quieter.
I laugh a little and look at the ground, "After you left, everything started to get worse- not better" I say sighing.

"I'm sorry" She says hugging me again.
We sit in silence for a while longer before I  decide to say something.

"That note you left, I know it was a year ago but do you remember?" I say curiously.
She looks at me supprised before sighing.

"Why?"
"It wasn't for me was it"
"No" She says quietly.

It all makes sense now.

"Was it for Namjoon?"
"Yes"
"You remember what you wrote don't you?" I say reluctantly.

"Yeah, I- did you ever give it to him?" She says looking at me hopefully.
I shake my head and sigh.

"I kept it for a while- I knew it was for him, I just didn't know the right time"
She takes a deep breath and sniffs loudly.

"You stupid idiot, I honestly loved you.
I'm going now because of you, the same reason I even came here. I don't know how long for, I don't know if I'll ever come back actually. I might just leave forever just to spite you.

I won't ever forget the nights we used to talk to each other, or the times we used to spend just hanging out. You were honestly my first and last love, but you didn't trust me I guess"
She recites clearly.

"You really remembered?" I say shocked.

She nods slowly and wipes her eyes.

"It's him isn't it" I say quietly, "You chose him"
She hesitates but nods again, this time wiping her whole face with her hand.

My heart shoots up into my throat and I bite my lip.
"Is that why you left? You couldn't bare to admit to it?" I manage to choke out.
She sniffs again before nodding one last time.

"I'm sorry Jimin" She says looking at the floor.

I'm sorry? Is that the best she can come up with?

"I'm sorry Y/N, I need to be alone" I say quickly before walking out of the bathroom.

After all of this time you've been gone, I still like you Y/N