Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter twenty-three

"I'm back" I hear Jimin shout.
It's really loud here, I guess that's what I should expect, I mean I'm staying in a house with 7 men.
I close my eyes and think. I start work in about a week.
I have enough time to familiarise myself with the area, maybe even look at some houses for rent.

Knock knock

"Come in" I say sitting up.
Jimin enters with a smile on his face.
"I got the food" he says coming to sit on the bed.
He puts the bag down and pulls out everything inside.
"This is kimbap" he says showing me the food.
"I know what it is, I have been to Korea before" I say pulling his arm down.
"Just let me talk" he says smiling cutely.
I listen as he explains how to open it and eat it. He's being too cute.
"This is banana milk, I'll assume you know how to drink stuff" he says taking one and placing it next to him.
"Thank you for bringing me some food" I say grabbing the kimbap and opening it effortlessly.
I look at him smugly and take a bite.
"Show off" he scoffs.
We finish the food and I put my wrappers in the bag.
I notice something in the bottom and open the bag slightly.
"What's this Jimin? You got some plans or something?" I say sarcastically.
He laughs nervously and grabs them before throwing them across the room.
"There not mine" he says laughing.

I widen my eyes and look at him seriously.
"That's a shame" I say pretending to be disappointed.
He looks at me and sighs.
"I really can't figure you out, you seem offended when you see the condoms but then you get upset when I say there not mine" he says whining.
"Oh I'm sorry, I didn't realise I was sharing a bed with a massive child" I say smugly.
"I'm massive that's correct, but I'm not a child" he snickering.
I look at him deadpan.
"Just let me sleep" I say lying back down.
"I'm tired too, it's like 6pm" he says pushing me over to the other side of the bed.
"There is hardly any room" I say rolling my eyes.
"It means we'll have to get closer then" he whispers.
He lies down and puts his arms and one of his legs around me.
"I told you, you're acting like a child" I whisper back.
"You hug me then, or I'll have to stay like this"
I sigh and push him off me before putting my head on his chest and my arms around him.
"This is nice" he whispers putting his arm around me.
"Yeah" I say relaxing.

I close my eyes for a while until I feel Jimin move slightly.
I open my eyes and see Jimins hand reaching over my head. I feel it place on my hair gently, before stroking it repeatedly.
"What are you doing" I whisper.
"Your hair looks cute" he says giggling.
"We should get up" I say sitting up slightly.
"No," he says pulling me back down, "I'm comfortable like this"
I sigh and relax again.
This is really nice.
"I still have your jumper" I whisper.
"You can have it" he says back quickly, "That's why I left it"
"Oh"
We sit for a while in silence before Jimin starts talking.
"Come on then, lets go and see what the others are up too" he says sitting up.
"Ok, I'm just going to get dressed into something more comfortable" I say as he gets off the bed.
"Go on then, you'll have to get used with us getting changed in here every so often anyway" he says shrugging.
"I know, but I don't think I'll be getting changed in here when Hoseok and you are in here" I say quietly.
"Definitely not, Hoseok is creepy so don't even think about it" he says pointing at me.
I nod and look at him patiently.
"Well?" I saw annoyed.
"Well what?" He says sitting down on Hoseoks bed.
"I'm going to get dressed, you can go now"
"No I'm going to stay, just get changed" he says smiling.
"No, you'll go and I'll be out in a second"
"How did your day with Namjoon go yesterday?" He says changing the subject.
"It went well, he packed my clothes for me and then we played some games before we went to bed" I sag shrugging.
"Games? What games?" He says curiously.
"We played a few rounds of truth or dare before Namjoon made me take my clothes off, and then we ended up talking for a while"
"What?" He says practically shouting
.
"What?" I say quietly.
"You took your clothes off?" He says
shouting.
"Yeah but it's not like it's a random stranger" I say raising my voice slightly.
"Still, you shouldn't fucking do that" he says annoyed.
"Stop being a dick" I mutter.
"Me? A dick? It was Namjoon who asked someone who's dating to strip"
"I didn't totally strip, I was still wearing my underwear"
"That still doesn't make a difference" he says shouting again.
"Stop shouting" I say shouting back.
"You honestly, do you even want to date? It seems like you want other people not me, you won't even get changed around me but you strip for Namjoon when he asks" he shouts.
"Can you not shout it to the whole neighbourhood" I whisper.
"You've only just got here and we're already fucking arguing" he shouts at me standing up.
"We don't need to though" I say upset.
"Just fuck off, go stay in Namjoons bed, you'd rather be there anyway" he spits.
I sigh and look at him. He doesn't even look at me.
"Jimin I'm so-"
"Just fuck off" he says pushing past me and sitting on his bed.
I walk out of his room and sit on the floor outside the door.
How have I managed to fuck this up already.
I can't stay here right now.
I stand up and walk to the front door.
I'll only go for a little while.
I put my coat and shoes on and walk out, closing the door quietly behind me.
I'm upset but I don't want to make a big deal out of this argument.
I walk down the stairs and onto the street.

Where too now?
"Who are you?" I hear a girl say behind me.
I spin around and look at the girl infront of me.
She's wearing merchandise.
Fuck, she's one of those crazy fans.
I should of expected this, but what do I do now.
"I'm no one" I say bluntly before walking off.
"No who are you?" She says running next to me.
"I'm no one" I say speeding up.
I can't be asked to deal with these people right now.
"Why are you crying? Why are you in BTS house?"  She says grabbing my arm.
"Get the fuck off me" I say in English.
She pauses and looks at me.
"What? You're foreign aren't you? Keep away from BTS, you're dirty" she says back in English.
"I don't know who you think you are, but I swear get the fuck away from me before I beat you" I say in Korean again.
I start walking again and she doesn't follow me.
I walk for a while until I find a park. I walk through it looking at the trees.
This is more peaceful than at home.
I walk over to a lonesome bench and sit down.
This is more relaxing than at the dorm.
I honestly don't know how I've managed to fuck it up so badly already.

Ding

I hope that's not one of the boys.
I pick up my phone and look at the caller ID.
Holly
Fuck, I didn't see her before I left.

Holly 😘
- I just went to your flat and the land lady was there? She said you moved

Y/N 😍
- Namjoon took me with him, I'll be back soon. I'll be back within the month.

I turn my phone off. I can't believe I forgot to tell her.
I can't actually tell her I'm not coming back.

I should go back.
I've been gone for a hour now, I doubt they've noticed.
No ones texted or called me, I'm not surprised. I'm not a child, they know this.
I've really don't know what to do. I've upset Jimin and he's the only one I should be worrying about right now.
I've hurt him and by consequence I've got upset.

"Y/N do you want to come and help me coo- where's Y/N" Jin says walking into the room.
I ignore him and continue to play on my phone.
"Jimin are you listening?"
"Fuck off" I mutter.
"I will once you tell me where she is"
I sigh and look at him.
"Ask Namjoon" I say sarcastically.
"Ok I will" he says before leaving the room.