Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter fourty two

Omg were nearly at the end~
I mean kinda? I haven't actually planned how it's gonna end yet so I could be wrong?
I mean I did say I'd finish at chapter thirty and here we are
Welp

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"I'm sorry"
"I just- why did you leave? You knew i didn't mean it"
"Didn't you? Are you sure you didn't mean it?"
"No"

"Thats why Namjoon, thats why I left" I say loudly.

"You shouldn't of left just because of what I said, you of all people know what I say is hardly what i mean" I says sadly, but quite loud.

"If you weren't such of a massive baby this wouldn't of happened- I only left because you were being such a massive fucking jerk" I say shout, tears start to well up in my eyes and bite my lip nervously, "I knew that me comming back was a bad idea, you haven't changed at all you're still a massive dick" I say before turning and walking to the door.

Please stop me, please for the love of god stop me from going again.

"Y/N, wait" I hear him say as I turn the door handle, "I'm not letting you go this time" He says grabbing my shoulder and turning me around harshley.

"Y/N, don't go yet- I paid way too much on the taxi for you to leave straight away, if not for Namjoon stay for the rest of us" Jungkook shouts from the sofa.

"I'm being stupid again, aren't I?" I say quietly to Namjoon.
He sighs and pulls me into another hug, this time ending with him hysterically crying.

I guess I'm not the emotional one.

I walk back to the sofa and fall into the same seat I sat in about a year ago. Namjoon sits next to me and leans on me, putting his arm around me protectively.

"So are you two a couple now?" Jungkook says raising his eyebrow.
Namjoon scoffs and hits Jungkooks leg.

"Stop it" He says plainly.
I look down the hallway at Jimins door, I feel so bad about this.

"Hobi" I say sweetly, He looks up at me and smiles, "Can you go check on Jimin, I'd go but i think right now im the last person he'd want to see"
Hoseok nods and quickly hurries to Jimins room. He opens the door and slips inside closing the door behind him.

"Don't worry about Jimin, he's a tough cookie" Taehyung says solemly.
"I should feel bad though, it would be weird for me not too" I say clearly.

"You shouldn't, not anymore" Namjoon says softly.
"No- I was the one who lead Jimin on even though i knew I didn't like him, I should heel terrible about this. Theres no point me deneying i didn't like him, I feel crap about this whole thing too but im totally justified for feeling guilty" I say quietly.

"It was better to tell him now, rather than later don't you think?" Jungkook says extendning his legs and resting them on Namjoons lap.
"That's true, don't worry about it babe" Namjoon says leaning his head on my shoulder.

Babe?

"Did you just call me fucking babe?" I say sitting up, causing Namjoons head to fall a little.
"I-uh- Yeah?" He says nervously.

"Why? What the actual fuck?" I say disgustedly.
"What? god you are so confusing" He says rubbing his head, "You keep confusing me with your weird girl emotions" He whines annoyingly.

"My weird girl emotions? You need to look at youself before you tell me bout my weird girl emotions" I say scoffing.
"You literally just let me couple hug you and now you're telling me not to call you babe- for christ sakes Jungkook your feet stink, get them off me" He says pushing Jungkooks legs off of him.

"Sorry"  Jingkook says sheepishly.

"What the fuck is a couple hug? Did you just make that up?" I say laughing at him.

"No- it's a real thing" He says confidenty, "No it is- I mean you- I mean I think it is?" He says stuttering as if he's arguing with himself.

I close my eyes and lean on his shoulder.

"I'm glad you're back"