Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter thirtyfive

I call you her, her,
Cause your my tear, tear

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I sit sobbing for a while longer before I hear someone open the door. I quickly wipe my eyes before turning my head to face the person.

"What's wrong with you" Jin says standing at the door.
I sigh in relief, at least its not Namjoon or Jimin, I don't think I can bare seeing them right now. Jin couches down next to me and tried to console me, he's always been the one to try and make everything better.

"Whats happened now" He says after I calm down.
"Namjoon wants me to go and live somewhere else, after he brought me here" I say quietly to Jin. I know it looks like I'm utterly overreacting to him.
He doesn't speak for a while, almost like hes curious about I say next.

"Do you think I should go?" I say finally, breaking the  silence between us.
Once again, no answer. I look at him before crossing my legs and facing him.
"I- I think that's probally a good idea at the moment," I drop my jaw slightly, he looks at me before taking a sharp breath, "I mean I don't want you to go, I want to be able to see you everyday like it is at the moment, but there's so much conflict between you three now"
"So what should I do? if I leave I'll be causing so many more problems for myself, but if I stay I'll be putting the whole group in jeopardy" I pause and close my eyes, "Where am I supposed to go? I can't go back home, I've got nothing there now, I can't stay here though because- because no one wants me here" I open my eyes and hang my head in dispare.

"You can always go back to the ho-"
"I'm not going back to the hotel, its way too depressing on my own" I say cutting off Jins idea.
"I don't think we have a choice tonight, I can't do anything about getting you a flat tonight, that'll take a week at most" He says solemnly, he is right, I know their really famous but they can't work miracles, "Do you really not know anyone in Korea apart from us? No one you can stay with for tonight at least, that way we can sort things out in the morning."
"No I don't, everyone I know in korea is through you guys, and I don't really think your stylist wants me rocking up at her house" I say sarcastically.
Wait who was that guy who texted me earlier, "Do we know a Minhyun from anywhere?" I say curiously.

"Minhyun? Isn't that the guy from that group that nearly got disbanded? Y'know that group" He says obviously trying to remember something.
"That really doesn't narrow it down" I say sarcastically.
"We went drinking with them after the Melon awards in 2015, there was the guy with long hair" He say excitedly.
"Oh!" I say in realisation, "What was that groups name?" I says hitting my leg in frustration.
"I remember" Jin says excitedly, "It was Nu'est, they were on that show recently" He says smiling.

I nod my head in agreence before remembering what I was saying.
"He wanted to meet with me, I wonder if I'll be able to stay at his" I say pulling out my phone.
Jins eyes widen and he starts to make shocked noises.
"Last time we saw him he was all over you, I'm not letting you go on your own" Jin says annoyed.
I laugh slightly at Jins overprotectiveness, "Come with us then, it'll be more believable if we both go anyway- I mean it'll be nice to see how he's doing, I want to get hammered anyway" I say smugly.
"I can't believe you're this sly" He says as I pull out my phone.
I smile and call Minhyun, it rings a few times before he answers.

"Hello?" He says loudly, the sounds of club music erupt from the phone causing me to jump.
"Hey! Its Y/N" I say sweetly, I look up at Jin and smile, he rolls his eyes and pulls out his phone.
"Oh hi! It's been so long I didn't recognise your voice" He says again loudly, "We need to catch up over some drinks soon, when are you free?" He says as the music quietens.
"Are you busy tonight? I'm just hanging out with a friend in Seoul at the moment" I say hitting Jins leg for attention.
"I'm just at a club with some friends, you and your friend are welcome to come along and drink with us, I'm living in Seoul right now too so it shouldn't be far"  My face drops slightly at the thought of going to an overcrowded club, I smile again knowing that'll mean that I have a viable excuse to go out.
"Oh that sounds great, if you text me the address we'll be there soon" I say smiling at Jin enthusiastically, he smiles back sarcastically before looking back at his phone.
"I'll text you it now, see you soon" He says cheerily down the phone before hanging up.
I put my phone down and squeal excitedly, "I wasn't actually expecting that to work" I say laughing.
"If we're going to a club you'll need to change into something a little more appropriate, I don't think they'll let you in if you wear that" He says pointing at my shorts and Jimins tshirt.

I get the text from Minhyun and send it to Jin, hoping he will recognise the place.
"You too Mr sweatpants" I say poking out my tongue.
He laughs stiffly before getting up and leaving the room. I walk over to the closet and pull out a nice black dress, to be honest this isn't something I'd usually go for but i think that it'll be appropriate for going to a club which is obviously good enough for idols
I wipe my face with a wetwipe before slipping on the dress and looking at my reflection in the door-mirror next to me. The dress is pretty figure hugging and short to say the least, but damn, the weird side exposing holes makes me look great. I laugh slightly and walk over to the shoes I've laided out neatly next to Jimins. I pick up a pair of black heels, with weird lace bits to match the weird design of the dress.

I play with my hair a bit until it looks sutible for a night out before grabbing my clutch bag with my money inside, not that I expect I'll be using all of it, and open the door into the hall way. I step out and into the front room where Jungkook is sitting with Hoseok, Yoongi and now Jimin. The boys all eyes me up and down making me a little self-conscious.

"Is Jin still getting ready" I mutter to myself. I walk over and sit at the end of one of the sofas and look at all the boys, who are all still looking at me confused.

"Where are you going?" Hoseok says smiling suspiciously.
"I'm going to a club to meet a friend" I say smiling back innocently.
"You look really nice" He says doing fingerguns at me.
I laugh slightly before looking down the hallway. After a while Jin finally comes out wearing a smart suit-like outfit. I stand up too quickly and end up falling back down onto the sofa.

"This is a bad idea" Jin says walking over to me and helping me up.
"When will you be back?" Jimin says sternly. I look at the gound, trying to avoid eye cntact with him, things still haven't been sorted.
"In the morning, we're going to stay at Minhyuns house" Jin says smiling sweetly, "It's really cold outside, go and get a coat" Jin says nagging me.
I roll my eyes and start walking towards the hallway and into Jimins room. I pick up the jumper Jimin gave me and slip it on. It works well with the dress, the bomber jacket style makes it look like im not trying too hard.
i walk back out into the lounge and walk to Jin, linking arms with him as I stop. "If you need anything, call Jin because I'm going to turn my phone off" I say sweetly.
Jimin stares at the jacket and smiles slightly. I look at him and smile back, I hope he knows I don't hate him.
Jin laughs slightly and we leave the dorm but stops abruptly before we get to the main flat door and takes my arm away from his.

"We already know whats happening with the fans and you, just me and you going out together is one thing, let alone linking arms" He says sighing.
I nod agreeing, he is right to an extent I guess.