Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter thirtyfour

I wrote this chapter whilst very emotional and listening to blackbear so this is full of angst and emotion.

also to anyone whos gotten to this point and is still reading, congrats to you, i feel like tis has been a mental patience test on us all.
I've been pushing myself to see how far the extent of my motivation can go, and i seems much further than i expected.
and who evers still reading has literally been reading 40 chapter almost of long borning crap that hasn't even gotten to the part where the reader gets with nam-
I mean imma not sugar coat it, who knows how long im gonna take to be able to finish this story without regrets.

also guys don't fuck your friends around, there your friends for a reason.

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Why did he kick me out?
I don't even have any shoes on.
I sigh and lean against the door.
Should I try and get back in?
I can't just stay out here forever.
I turn around and knock on the door.
I doubt anyone's going to answer.
The door opens slightly, I look at Jungkook who's poking his head from inside.
"Hi, do you want to come back in now?" He says smiling.
"That would be nice" I say sighing.
He opens the door more and I step in.
"Where's Namjoon, I swear I'm going to kill him" I say frustratedly.
Jungkooks eyes widen and he pulls a nervous smile.
"Jimin and Namjoon had a fight" he whispers covering his mouth slightly.
A fight? What the fuck happened?
I look at him shocked before walking into the lounge.
I look at the boys who are watching TV.
"Where's Jimin?" I say looking at Jin.
"He's locked himself in the bathroom" he says annoyed.
"What the fuck happened with those two" I say rubbing my forehead.
"Jimin didn't even get hurt" Hoseok says shaking his head.
I look at him confused before looking down the hallway.
"Namjoon didn't punch him?" I say quietly.
"No, not at all, Jimin hit him straight in the mouth though" Jungkook says sitting on the sofa.
I take a deep breath and look at Yoongi.
"Is Taehyung with him?" I say quietly.
He nods and I sigh.

I walk down the hallway and stop outside the bathroom door.
I knock on the door gently but he doesn't answer.
"Jimin it's me" I say putting my head against the door.
No answer.
I knock again and I hear the door unlock.
I open the door and step inside.
"What happen" I say looking at Jimin who's sitting on the edge of the bath.
"He's going to hate me" Jimin says quietly.
I look at him and sit down next to him.
"Jiminie," I say resting my head on his shoulder, "I'm not that important, you didn't need to hit him"
We sit for a while, Jimin doesn't say anything. I know he probably feels ashamed. I feel bad for him, but he didn't need to hit him.
"You should go to him" he whispers.
"I know, but he's got Tae with him, when I leave you'll be on your own" I say sighing.
"I'm ok, I don't deserve to have anyone with me" he says nudging me off his shoulder.
I sit up straight and look at him.
"We really do have to talk about this" I say looking at him.
"About what" he says looking at the floor.
"About us, what should I do?" I say looking at him.
"I don't want to think about that right now" he whispers.
"You keep putting it off, it's not doing anyone any good" I say putting my hand on his.
"Y/N you're the one being difficult, you were telling that you didn't like me" he says brushing my hand off of his.
"That was after all of this, I know this isn't doing the group any good" I say looking at him.
He sighs again before looking in my eyes.
"Well then, be my girlfriend" he says raising his eyebrows, but still looking very emotional.
I cough slightly and widen my eyes.
"Your gir- girlfriend?" I say in shock.
"You said you weren't going to be difficult" he says whining quietly.
"This is- I need to go see Namjoon" I say standing up and walking to the door.
"Y/N, wait" Jimin says as I open the door and exit into the hall way.

Why does this happen to me? I'm sure theres many other well adapted girls in the area that could deal with being approached by 2 members of Bangta- I mean two nice guys. I can only just barely wrap my head around one of them liking me. I'm not even that special, there's thousands of girls just like me, probally at least 100 in the area around me right now.