Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter five

"Holly" I say poking her to wake up, "Holly I need to talk to you"

She lifts her head and looks as me, her eyes still puffy and half closed.

"Is it time to go in?" She says sleepily.
"No" I pause taking a breath, "I'm not going tonight, I don't want to see Namjoon or any of them" I say trying to look as serious as possible.
She looks at me angrily, before calming down.

"It's ok I'll go by myself" she says calmly.She's acting weirdly. This isn't like her at all.
"Aren't you mad?"
"No, it must be for some good reason, so I'm ok"
"I love you by the way" I say gripping her leg.
"Love you too you daft idiot" she says swatting me off.

I sit back and lean on her shoulder. A few people pass the queue, some looking like average people and the rest wearing work clothes. I guess this is the average midday civilian.

A man catches my eye as passes on the opposite side, he's wearing a dark black jacket, which is strange for this time of year, and a dust mask.

That's weird, you wouldn't think you'd need to wear one here. His hat pretty much covers his face but you can still see his eyes.
He's obviously looking for someone. He looks like a lost sheep almost. We lock eyes and he crosses the street towards me.
I hit Holly on the arm trying to get her attention. She looks quickly at the man and pinchhes my side.

"It's Yoongi" she whispers excitedly .
I look back at the man and quickly recognise him. I jump up and walk over to him.

"Hey" I say pulling him into a hug.

"What are you doing I bought you were mad" he whispers into my shoulder, his arms wrapping around me in an instant.

"Those girls are being overly nosy I don't want you to get noticed" I whisper gripping onto him.

He hugs me tighter and securely as to cover his face as much as possible. I try to pull back but he pulls me back into him.

I lean into him because quite frankly he's warm as heck and he smells nice.
"Come back stage with us" he says finally pulling his arms back and pulling his mask down slightly.
"That wouldn't be fair on everyone else, I've told you before I'm not going to use your position to my advantage" I say crossing my arms.

I look as him. He looks as if he's been practicing, he's still shiny from sweating. It's a cute look on him. His hair pokes out slightly from under his cap. It's cute, it's a bit lighter than it was last night but that's just probably my eyes.
"Please come tonight" he says looking at me hopefully.
"I really rather not" I say quietly, I can see he's upset with me not going. I know he's going to sulk now, that's gonna effect the preformance.

Namjoon told me they plan on doing a few special things in this performance which Yoongi is apart of. I don't want him to not do well because of my decisions. But then again, if I go tonight and Namjoon and Jin argue then it'll effect the whole group.

I don't know why their  arguing anyway. This isn't something that needs to be argued about.
"Ok" I say weakly, "I'll go- I'll go to the meet but you better put an amazing show tonight" I say smiling.
It's obviously fake, I'm not happy about this.

I know it's just going to see my friends but it's infront of all of these people who have no idea what's going on behind the surface. I just want to live a normal life, I had been. It's these stupid arguments I'm getting myself involved in.
I'm not going to get involved again, I don't have to anyway it's their problem.

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A/N
b bb b boi if your reading this now then you're reading the edited version so well done bc it was so much cringier before lmao.

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