Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter thirtythree

"You're kidding right?" He says laughing.
I close my eyes and take a deep breath, "You're incredibly cute and kind but I really don't know, like I said I barely know you, I'm not going to change how I plan on living because of you" I say quietly.
"You must be kidding" he says seriously.
"I'm not" I say sighing, "I don't want to start an argument with you, but the fact is I don't know if I could handle being criticised by your fans every time I leave the house"
"Is that really the reason? Because of my fans? I don't know why my fans should dictate what you do" he says raising his voice.
"Their not, I'd just prefer not to get involved in that sort of life" I say quietly.
"You like Namjoon, that's why you're saying this" he says practically shouting.
"Jimin calm down" I say looking at him.
"This is a mess, this is mess" he repeats running his hand thru his hair, "I'd do anything, I will do anything, why are you being like this?" He shouts.
I sigh and close my eyes again. Maybe he is right? Maybe I shouldn't be saying this.
"I don't want to talk right now" I say looking at him sternly.
He looks at me and scoffs.
"You don't want to be talking about this right now? Neither do I, it's stressful for me as well" he says still shouting, but softer and less harshly.
"That's another reason we shouldn't be talking about this" I shout back.

'Knock knock'

"You two ok in there?" Jin says behind the door.
"We'll be out in a minute" Jimin says looking at me.
"Don't be too long" he says knocking on the door.
I look at Jimin and bite my lip. I feel bad about being so straight with him.
-

Why is she being like this? Why is she being so difficult?
"I'm not leaving it like this," I say quietly, "You were the one in the first place getting pissed about everything that happened" I say looking at her sadly.
She sighs and moves closer to me and the edge of the bed.
"I don't know what to say" she says looking at the floor.
"Neither do I" I whisper, "Is this it for whatever that was"
She looks at me and sighs.
"Maybe you're right, maybe I do like Namjoon, I don't even know myself" she says rubbing her face, "But that's not the reason I don't want to date you, this is one of the biggest messes relationship wise I've ever had" she says laughing nervously.
"I don't want it to be the end" I whisper.
I look at her for a while. She doesn't look as upset as I am.
"Come here" I say opening my arms for her to hug me.
She stands up but hesitates before finally stepping forward.
I grab her hand and pull her so she's sitting down on my lap, I pull her into me and hug her.
She doesn't hug me back and I let go.
"You're supposed to hug me back" I say laughing.
She laughs slightly and looks at me shyly.
Should I kiss her?
"You really are a tease" I whisper to her.
I lean in closer and kiss her lips softly. She pushes me off and looks at me confused.
"What was that for?" She says shocked.
I laugh and look at her seriously.
"Don't act like you don't like me kissing you" I say sarcastically.
"Jim-"
I interrupt her and kiss her again. She stays still for a while before wrapping her arms around my neck.
I smile and put my hands on her waist and move her leg so she's sitting facing me, she's so weak at this.
"I promised myself I wouldn't do this again" she says shaking her head.
I laugh and start to kiss her neck, slowly making my way down to her collar bone.
"Tell me if you want me to stop and I will" I say slyly.
"We've got to be quiet, the boys are just outside in the lounge" she whispers to me.
I smirk and almost throw her on the bed before climbing on top of her.
"I know I can do quiet, but I don't think I can let you" I say before kissing her again.
-

"I thought you said they weren't together anymore" Hoseok says pacing the front room floor.
"Jimin said he wouldn't do anything, but I guess he lied" Jin says shrugging.
"I left my phone in there" Hoseok says whining. I look at him and laugh slightly.
"At least you don't have to go in" I say pointing at him, "I was forced to go in by you guys"
"I should stop them, I said to Jimin I didnt want any girs in that room when we moved in" He says whining again.
"She will murder you" I say simply.
"Just watch TV and ignore it" Taehyung says picking up the controller.

"I'm going to go and nap" Jungkook says standing up abruptly.
"Yeah, like we believe you're going to nap" Taehyung says laughing.
Jungkook smiles innocenty before leaving the room.
"Sit down" I say to hoseok whos still pacing. He stops and finally sits down but continues to huff every 2 seconds.
"Can't they keep it down, its like their trying to make everyone feel uncomfortable" Hoseok says annoyed.
"You are the ony one making a fuss" Taehyung says laughing.
Hoseok pulls a face at him and then calms down.

We watch TV for a while longer until the noises stop, which makes Hoseok more agitated.
"Can I go in yet?" he repeats under his breath.
"Just be quiet, im trying to watch this show" Jin says pointing at the TV, I laugh slightly and sigh. Namjoons not going to be happy about this.
Suddenly the front door unlocks and Namjoon walks into the lounge.
"Hey" Taehyung says waving at him. Namjoon shoots him a smile before pulling out his phone.
"Namjoon, can you go and get Y/N, she's in my room and I want to go get my phone but itll be awkward if i go in" Hoseok says whining at Namjoon. Namjoon looks at him confused before straightening his face.
"I can't believe this" he says walking off.
-

'Bang bang'
I open my eyes slightly and look at the door.
"Jimin get off me" I say hitting his arm slightly.
"I'm comfortable" he says tightening his arm around me.
"I swear to god let go of me, someone's at the door" I say whining.
He sighs before laughing slightly.
"Come in" Jimin says shouting.
The door opens slightly and I throw the blanket over my head.
"What the fuck is this?" Namjoon says annoyed.
"What do you mean?" Jimin says innocently.
I pull the blanket from my head and try to move Jimins arm but he doesn't budge.
"We agreed not to do any of this anymore" Namjoon says loudly.
I look at him and cringe. This so embarrassing.
"Get up" he says looking at me.
"She doesn't have too" Jimin says sitting up.
"Get up" he shouts looking at me.
I flinch and sit up whilst still clutching the blanket.
Namjoon reaches down and grabs a tshirt before throwing it at me.
"Put it on, I'll be outside the door" he says before storming out.
Jimin lays back down and sighs.

"You don't have to go" he says looking at the ceiling.
"Did you just see him? I don't think I have a choice" I say putting on the tshirt.
"Do you want me to come with you" he says glancing over at me.
"I don't think that's a good idea either" I say standing up and walking over to the draws. I pull out a pair of shorts and put them on quickly before glancing to the door.
"Be back soon" he says cutely.
"I'll try" I say opening the door.

I look at Namjoon who's leaning against the opposite wall.
"Come with me" he says before reaching and grabbing my wrist.
He drags me through the house and into the front room.
"What's going on?" Yoongi says looking at me.
I try to pull my hand away from him but he holds it tighter.
"Namjoon let go you're hurting me" I say trying to get him release my wrist.
He ignores me and continues walking towards the door.
He opens the door and almost pushes me out before slamming the door in my face.
Did he just kick me out?
I stand in shock staring at the door.
Are you serious?

"What just happened?" I hear Yoongi say to Namjoon.
I walk into the front room and stretch my arms.
Namjoon looks at me and starts walking towards me.
"I told you not to mess with her, we agreed" he says shoving me.
I stand and look at him before smiling.
"Are you really going to start a fight with me? Aren't you supposed to be the leader?" I say pushing him back.
"You're right I'm the leader, which means you're supposed to fucking listen to me" he shouts shoving me again.
I stumble slightly and fall over.
"Ok, this isn't happening" Yoongi says standing up and walking over to me.
I stand up and look at Namjoon.
"I know you like her but you don't have to be a dick about it" I say sweetly.
"I wouldn't be such a dick if you weren't being such a fucking baby about all of this" he says glaring at me.
I laugh slightly and look at him.
"You're a arsehole" I say swinging to punch him. I hit him in his mouth and he falls back on the ground.
"For fuck sakes" Yoongi says looking at me.
Namjoon gets up and wipes his mouth. What an idiot.
He looks at me and shakes his head.
"You always were so childish" he says before walking off behind me towards the door.
I laugh and turn around, this barstard.
"You're a terrible leader, so selfish" I say glaring at him.
He turns around and sighs before storming off to his room.
"What the fuck was that" Taehyung says walking up to me.
"Where's Y/N?" I say looking at him.
"Why did you hit him" Taehyung says grabbing my shoulder.
"Where's Y/N?" I repeat looking at him seriously.
"Namjoon kicked her out before you beat him up, stop thinking about your love life and focus a little on your friends" He says shaking his head. He quickly walks out of the room after Namjoon.
I look over at the rest of the boys who are staring at me shocked.
What did I just do?