Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter twelve

After I get back to the flat I fall on my couch.
This place is such a shit tip.
Bottles scatter the floor and empty pizza boxes dot across the furniture.
I start to clean up the bottles and pizza boxes until a sudden dread fills my body.
Did he use a condom?

I quickly rush into my room and pull the messy covers from my bed and start frantically searching.

Why can't I find it? Not even the wrapper? What the fuck.

I rush back into the other room and grab my phone.
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Y/N 🍂
- hey Jimin, I know I just stormed off but I need to ask you something personal.

I wait patiently until my phone buzzes.

Jimin 🤙🏻
- what's wrong? Did you get back ok?

Y/N 🍂
- I'm fine, I just was thinking about last night, we used protection right?

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I stop and stare at my phone smiling.
"What's up" Jungkook says looking at me.
"Nothing, just eat your food" I say putting my phone down and smiling at him.
My phone buzzes again and Jungkook grabs it.
"Stop being a idiot" I say reaching for my phone.
Jungkook pulls his hand back and I fail to get it.
"Let me see what's making you smile so much"
"You really are being a pain in the ass, especially considering you're the youngest" Namjoon says grabbing the phone, "what is it though?" He says unlocking my phone.
His eyes widen and he looks at me.
"It's probably best you answer this text" he says sighing and handing it back to me.
I stand up to get it from him silently and sit back down.
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Y/n 🍂
- It's ok if you didn't, we were drunk anyway, it's not like it meant anything. If your not going to reply I'll assume you didn't and go to get some morning after pills.
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I sigh and quickly reply. This isn't my fault.
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Jimin
- No I did, I got rid of it when I got up this morning, don't worry I'm not that irresponsible.
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I do feel bad about this. I know it wasn't planned but it wasn't just like a night I'd forget.

"Jungkook you're on your last warning" Namjoon says in between eating,  "I swear you cause any more trouble you'll be in big trouble"
"Yes sir" Jungkook mumbles.
"What was that?" Namjoon says looking at him sternly.
Jungkook smiles sweetly at Namjoon before continuing eating.
"You too Jimin, you've really been pissing me off" Namjoon says not even bothering to look at me.
"I've got to go somewhere" I say grabbing my phone and standing up.
"Remember, last warning. Don't do anything stupid" he says finally looking at me.

I walk out of the cafe and call Y/N.

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Stupid boy, stupid group. There all like each other. When it comes down to it they'd choose there own dignity over helping someone.

~Jiming is ringing~

I'm not answering that. I'm not answering it.

It might be important though. I'm not like him, I'll answer and I'll be nice and caring.

I click answer and hold it to my ear.
"Hello? Wait no don't talk let me" Jimin says calmly.
"I'm sorry, I really am, can I come over and see you. I can't stay here knowing I've upset yo-"
"Come over" I say quietly.
"Are you sure?" Jimin says sounding surprised.
"We need to sort this out, I can't avoid you forever" I say rubbing my head.
"I'll be over in a few minutes"
He puts the phone down and I stand there still.
Why did I do that. I mean I had a point we need to sort this. But now? Really?

Ding
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Joonie 💖
- I think jimins coming to your house, if you need me just text me and I'll be straight over. I'm looking forward to tomorrow still. I'm thinking about staying tonight after dinner as well.
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I smile at my phone like a high schooler. He always makes me happy, even when I'm crying. I wonder why he cares sometimes.

Knock knock.

I look over to the door in supprise, that was fast.
Walking over to the door I think about what to say.
It doesn't matter either way.
I open the door and see Jimin standing there solemnly.
"Come in" I say moving out the way.
He walks in and I close the door and join him on the sofa.
"Let me talk now" I say looking at him.
"Go ahead" he says looking at me.
I can't even look him in the eye. I shouldn't be this embarrassed of something he doesn't care about.
"I'm should of just faced it earlier rather than running away, I was just embarrassed that you thought it meant nothing, I know we were both drunk and that had some big input into why it happened, I just don't like being treated as if I'm some sort of object who doesn't have feelings."
"I didn't mean it like that" he says running his hand thru his hair.
"I know, it's just it did have some meaning to me" I say looking at the floor.

"I would of still kissed you if I was sober" he say laughing slightly.
"You wouldn't of Jimin" I say before checking the time. 14:45, I've still got 3 and a bit hours until I meet Yoongi.
"I would of, you seem really different to other girls I've met" he say looking at me.
"You sound like a teenage fuckboy" I say looking back at him.
"Let me prove to you it wasn't because I  was drunk" he says leaning closer to me.
I pause for a second. It's tempting, he's really hot and I've got nothing better to do.
"I don't know Jimin, I feel like I'm going to regret it" I say playing with my hands.
"You won't, I won't let you" he says moving closer.

She won't regret it, maybe I will. I'm supposed to be sorting this out. She's too cute though, it's like she's a magnet.
I lean in and kiss her lips softly before pulling away and looking at her.
"I won't do anything if you think you'll regret it" I whisper in her ear.
"I don't think I'll regret it" she whisper back.
I smile and place my hand on her thigh before starting to kiss her neck. I probably shouldn't leave any marks, she's got a job and the boys will notice.
But, I can if I want. I smile and start to suck on her neck, purposefully leaving purple marks across it.
"We shouldn't do it here"  I whisper into her ear before standing up and leading her into the bedroom.