Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter fourty eight

I grab a packet of paracetamol and pour some water into a glass before walking back into the lounge.
The boys sit awkwardly on my couch, looking around my front room closely.

"Take these" I say walking up to Yoongi and passing him the water and painkillers.
"Thank you" He says quietly, avoiding my eye contact.

I look around the room and sigh.
"I thought that buying a large sofa would sort this problem- yet here I am, without a seat to sit on" I say scratching my head.
Namjoon and Jimin both stand up and look at eachother weirdly.
"You can sit here" they say at the same time, causing Hobi and Jungkook to laugh.
"I'll just go get a beanbag from my room" I say sighing tiredly.
I walk out of the front room and drag a beanbag back towards the boys, positioning next to Jin at the end of the sofa.
I fall into it and rest my head on the sofa arm before sighing loudly.

"We heard about Hollie"
"I can't believe she's gone"
"It seems like only yesterday we saw her at the meet and greet"
"I remember that she was really funny"
"She had good fashion taste"
"She was really pretty"
"I know- she didn't speak much Korean though"
"If she did I would've totally asked her ou-"

"Not appropriate Hoseok" Jin says interrupting him.
Taehyung, Jungkook and Hoseok stop there conversation and look at the ground remorsefully.

"She always knew how to cheer you up Y/N"
"If she was here right now she'd tell you that you were doing really well- I know she would" Jimin says finally saying something.
"She'd probably be arguing with Jin about something dumb" Namjoon says laughing slightly.
"Or just being annoying in general" Jin says rolling his eyes.

"She'd day that she was proud of you" Yoongi says looking at me, "She'd say that it's going to get harder before it gets better, She'd day that you need to cheer up because you're an ugly crier. She'd say to make sure you don't get depressed again, and that you need to focus on your job rather than being gloomy about her," he pauses again and looks at Namjoon and then to Jimin, "She'd also tell you that you made the right decision, and to make sure you keep him for as long as you can- no offence Jimin but she was a massive advocate for Namjoon and Y/N being together" Yoongi days finally cracking a weak smile.

I close my eyes and take a shaky breath.
"Were here for you Y/N, we can be your Hollie"
"We might not be girls and we might not really understand anything you say but we're here"
"We might be lacking in the physical features of being a girl, but we make up for it with enthu-

"You three need to stop" Jin says sternly.
"I have a job for you guys" Namjoon says taking a deep breath.
"What now?"
"Can you five go shopping, Y/N apparently doesn't buy food in anymore" Namjoon says looking at the boys.
"Even me?" Jimin says slowly.
"Just because you and Y/- Yes Jimin, you aren't in our circle, go shopping" Yoongi says pushing the boy.
Jins hand strokes my hair and I close my eyes.

The 5 boys leave the house and I open my eyes again before standing up and sitting on the sofa besides Yoongi.

"How are you feeling?" I say keeping a distance between us.
"I'm ok, I have a hangover but I'm ok" He says softly.
"I missed you" I whine quietly.
"I- I didn't miss you" He says looking at the ground.
"Good" I say sighing. He looks at me and I lean on him, pushing my arm behind his back and hugging him tightly. He moves his arm and puts it around me.

"So are you too a thing now?" Jin says looking at Namjoon. I sit up properly and Namjoon nods and a smile appears on Jins face.
"I'm so glad you two finally sorted this out" Jin says smiling widely.

"Our little Y/N has finally grown into a woman" Yoongi says in his squeaky voice.
Namjoon and Jin laugh and him and I stare at him confused.

"She's finally grown into a woman? Yoongi have you met her" Jin says scoffing.
"Apparently not- I thought that Jimin was the first time she had, y'know" he says supprised.
"Oh my god are you still drunk?" Namjoon says laughing obnoxiously
"Yoongi She was 22 when that happened" Jin says looking at him weirdly.
"Everyone knew that Yoongi" Namjoon says laughing at the boy. I cross my arms and bite my lip.
"You're making me sound like a- like someone who sleeps around"
"I need a second opinion on this" He says pulling out his phone.

He presses something and the ringer plays on loudspeakers
"What's wrong?" Hoseok says down the phone.
"Put this on loud speaker so the others can hear- it's important" Yoongi says seriously.
"What's up Yoongi?" Taehyung says down the phone.

"Ok So you've got to listen to this very carefully" he says sternly.
"Just say it, we're having to hide in a weird alley way right now" Jimin says laughing slightly.
My heart warms a little at the sound of his laugh and I smile.

"What age do you think Y/N lost her virginity?" Yoongi says deadly seriously.
"Yah Yoongi I didn't think you'd ask that" Namjoon says pointing at him.

The boys laugh a little on the other end of the phone and Yoongi smiles at me stupidly.

"I'm going to say 16" Jungkook says first.
"16? Have you seen her? I'm saying 15" Hoseok says laughing slightly.
"She's not a slut it wouldn't of been 15" Jungkook says laughing at Hoseok.
"Ok 16 then, what do you think Taehyung?" Hoseok says changing his answer.
"I think she was 18, she doesn't look like the type to rush in a relationship" he explains.
"Jimin you'd know- how good was she in bed? Was she experienced or not?" Hoseok says to Jimin.

"Do they know their on loudspeaker?" Jin whispers to me.
"I don't care that much" I whisper back shrugging.

"All I can say is I think Namjoons a lucky man in that aspect- is going to go with 17" Jimin says cheerily.
"Ok Yoongi we have 2 saying 16, 1 saying 17 and the other saying 18- What's the answer?" Jungkook says curiously down the phone.

"Y/N how old were you when you gave away your girlhood?"
"Don't word it like that Yoongi- it's weird enough we're having this conversation" I say shaking my head.
"How old were you when you lost your virginity?" he says rephrasing.
"I was 15, it was the day before my 16th birthday" I say sheepishly.
I feel my cheeks start to redden and I cover them with my hands.

"I was right, she was a slut" Hoseok says laughing loudly.
"Yah you idiot- you're on loudspeaker" Yoongi shouts down the phone at them.
"I mean that's not necessarily a bad thing is it?" Hobi says trying to cover for himsel.
"Just hurry up and go to the shops" Yoongi says sighing annoyingly before putting the phone down.