Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter twenty-four

The longer you don't tell me what I should do with the story the longer I'll carry on the Namjoon being a twonk and Jimin being the beloved

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I stand up and follow him.
"Where's Y/N?" I hear him say to Namjoon.
I stand just outside the door behind Jin.
"Why would I know?" He says lying down, "I've been in here the whole time" he says laughing.
"Jimin said you'd know"
"I have no idea" he says sitting up.
"I'm surprised you don't know" I say scoffing.
"Why?" Namjoon says rubbing his eyes.
"You know why" I say annoyed.
"What is wrong with you" Jin says looking at me.
"Last night, it's because what he did last night"
Namjoon looks at me and frowns.
"She told you? Is that why you're all moody"
"I just wanted to know where she was, I'm just going to go and cook" Jin says pushing past me and leaving.
"You knew that me and her were trying to date, you knew I liked her"
"Jimin for fuck sakes, it was a blatant joke" he says standing up.
"Namjoon, I'm saying this as a friend, I really don't understand why you thought that was a fucking good idea"
"It was a joke, we were playing truth or dare"
"Why are you being such an idiot" I say rubbing my head.
"She didn't have to fucking do it, she knew she was dating you but she still fucking did it" he says raising his voice.
"If this happens again I swear I'll kill you" I say calmly.
I walk out and back into my room.
What do I do now.
Should I find her?

I pull out my phone and call her.
No answer.
What is she doing? She doesn't even know this area well.
I need to find her then.

This is shit, I can't stay here forever.
I stand up and walk back to the path.
What am I supposed to say to him.
I keep walking until I get to a patch of flowers.
I look at the plants, I know I can only see them dimly in the street light but there still beautiful.
I wish life was a simple as a flowers, bathing in the sun light all day without a care.
"Y/N?" I hear Jimin say behind me.
I turn around slowly and look at him.
He's not even wearing a mask.
We stare at each other for a while before one of us talks.
"Do you want to go and talk?" He says quietly.
He starts walking so I follow closely behind as he walks off the pathway.
He stops and sits on a patch of grass.
I sit down next to him and he sighs.
"I'm sorry" I say quietly.
"I'm sorry too, we aren't a couple I shouldn't of gotten pissed"
"I know we aren't a couple, but still it's not like we aren't close to being at that point" I say honestly.
That's the most honest thing I've said this year.
"There'd be a trust if we were close, I don't think we're there right now" he says looking at me.
I stop for a second in shock.
"I understand I'm sorry, I can sleep on the sofa, or I can stay at a hotel" I say quietly.
"Y/N it's nearly 9pm, it's your first day here I'm not letting you sleep at a hotel, or a sofa"
"I don't want to sleep with you if it'll make you uncomfortable"
"It depends, we can just forget what's happened today and move on, or we can just stop being interested in each other"
I pause and look at him.
"What do you want to do?"
"I want to be able to date you, but only you"
"I guess I feel the same, I'm not interested in anyone as much as I am you" I say quietly.
That's not true.
"But for now, until I can trust you I can't call you anything more than who I'm dating" he says bluntly.
I look at him and sigh. I can barely see him, I can only see half of his face. He looks quite solemn. So am I to be honest.
"We only got close 3 days ago" I say smiling.
"You know, your the only girl I feel confident and comfortable around" he says smiling.
"That's not true" I say smiling back at him.
"It is, the other girls only ever want to talk to me because I'm from Bangtan, but you just treat me like a normal person"
"Jimin, you don't need to say any of this, if I was you I'd still be pissed"
"Y/N, I'd like to go back home now, I want to go to sleep with you next to me and just forget about everything else"
I look at Jimin who's looking at me.
I feel so bad, I've fucked him over because I'm selfish, not because he deserved it.
"We'll go to sleep and when we wake up this'll be forgotten" He says quietly.
I nod and we start to head back to the dorm.
"You go once I go in" He says pausing near the house.
I nod and watch as he starts to head down the small road. A few girls and boys start speed walking towards him. Eventually he manages to get into the house, leaving me outside.
I casually walk up to the door and enter without many people caring.
"Lets go to sleep then" he says once I get inside.
I follow him in and watch as he gets into the bed.
I turn off the light and walk over to the bed.
I pause before getting in.
Do I really want to do this, if I do this it'll mean I accept the fact he's just going to forgive me.
"Just get in before Hoseok decides it's early enough for him to turn in"
I get into the bed and face him.
"Can I hug you?" He whispers.
"Please" I whisper back.
He wraps his arms around me and pulls me right into him.
"I don't like arguing, not just with you, with everyone" he says hugging me tightly.
"I'm sorry" I repeat.
"No talk, just sleep" he whispers.
I close my eyes and try to sleep.
"I think I'm falling for you" I hear Jimin mutter under his breath.
I go to say something but hold my tongue.
I don't feel like talking love at the moment.