Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter twenty-seven

Ding

"Your popular today?" I say smiling.
"It's probably nothing" she says taking another bite of her food.

Ding

"Just see who it is" I say laughing.
She nods and looks at her phone.
"It's just Namjoon, I don't need to look at the message" she says putting her phone on the table.

Ding

"Maybe you do" I say laughing a little more.
She sighs and picks up her phone.
"I think I need to go" she says furrowing her eyebrows.
"Why?" I say curiously.
"Something's come up, I'll see you back at the house, or even better go to a club or something and treat yourself" she says smiling.
I watch as she stands up and practically runs out of the cafe.
I wonder what on earth has happened.

It's down the road and then to the left right? Or is it right?
I swear it's left.
I run down the street towards the office and see Namjoon sitting on a wall outside.
"Hey" I say running up to him.
"You ok?" He says smiling at me, "Whats the rush?"
"You said you were waiting for me" I say breathless.
"I didn't say you had to run" he says laughing.
"But you did" I say standing up straight.
"I didn't, anyway come on" he says walking towards his car.
I walk around to the passengers side and try and open the door.
"The door isn't open yet" he says laughing
He unlocks the door and I get inside.
"Why did you want me too meet you?" I say finally composed.
"We're going to the park" he says starting the car and driving away.
"You're kidding right? I was in the middle of something, I thought you were there to talk about the job"
"No, you told me you were coming with Jimin so I drove up and now we're going to the park"
"Oh ok" I say calmly
"Yeah"
"You're such an idiot" I say hitting his arm.
"Oh there you are, I thought I'd picked up the wrong girl" he says laughing.

We drive for a while until we arrive at a small park.
"Come on then" he says grabbing his wallet and getting out the car.
I follow him out and into the park, it's actually quite nice here. It's small but not too cramped.
"Do you want something to eat?" Namjoon says locking the car.
"No, I just ate" I say walking to the park gate.
"Well, I am so you can eat as well" he says pulling his sunglasses onto his head.
He opens the gate and walks towards a small vintage looking food truck parked near the entrance.
I follow him and wait on a bench opposite it.
"Come on, lets go find somewhere to sit" he says walking past me.
I run up to him and look at what he's got.
"A corn dog? Really?" I say rolling my eyes.
"You can half, I'll have half" he says holding it up.
"Or not" I say pushing him slightly.

We walk for some time until we see a break in two trees.
I start heading over and Namjoon follows me closely.
"How about here?"
"Looks good" Namjoon says sitting down.
I sit down close to him and sigh.
"So what's going on with you and Jimin?" Namjoon says curiously.
I look at him and grab the corn dog.
"Nothing" I say taking a large bite.
"Nothing? That's not what I heard"
"You heard wrong" I say passing the corn dog back to him.
"Do you like him?"
"Of course I like him, he's nice and he's kind and he's hot, but" I pause and look at him.
"But what?"
"But I just can't see any future with him, it hurts to say but I really don't" I say sighing.
"You can't lead him on" Namjoon says looking at me.
"I'm not leading him on, we're only dating"
"People who date don't usually sleep in the same bed together every night" he says raising his eyebrows.
"That's not by choice, he's taking everything so fast, he keeps making these decisions which are going to come and bit him and me in the arse"
"Why don't you tell him then? It's only going to get worse"
"I do have feeling for him, I'm just not sure if I want a future with him, but he is making seem that that's how he feels"
"Has he actually told you that though"
I look at him and sigh. Is this really the person to tell.
"That's the thing, last night I swear I heard him mutter something"
Namjoon looks up at me suddenly.
"What? What did he mutter?"
"I think he said he was falling for me, he must of thought I was asleep but I heard him say something" I say cautiously.
"It's been like 3 days now and he already loves you? Is this boy delusional?" He says harshly.
"The thing is though, I definitely don't feel the same way. I wouldn't be able to say I love you to someone who only took interest in me 3 days ago" I say honestly.
"Y/N you need to tell him" he says sighing.
"I'm still caught up in the fact I have to share a bed with him, it's really not that easy. As well as the fact I'm in a situation any girl would die for" I say sighing and rubbing my face.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean I'm not only sharing a house with you guys, I'm dating one of you as well, I'm not sure to understand how crazy that could sound to a normal fan"
"It's not a big deal, were only humans" he shrugging.
"Your only humans who have crazy sex appeal, as well as being world wide stars" I say laughing nervously.
"Crazy sex appeal? I haven't heard that one yet," he says smirking, "Even me?"
"Even you Namjoon, I don't see why though" I say scoffing.
"That's rude"
"I am rude" I say smiling.

"You know if it becomes a problem I could rent you a hotel room" he says after a while of silence.
"I don't like hotels, it's fine anyway I'm sure it won't be too bad"
"Are you sure?" He says looking at me sweetly.
"Yeah, I'm just hoping he won't turn all Save me style and start singing depressing songs, you've told me what he's been like with past breakups"
"Believe it or not but he helped a lot with those lyrics, it was just after his breakup with his last girlfriend from Busan" he says smiling.
"What about you? You haven't been in a serious relationship since I met you, but you write love songs"
I look at him and he sighs.
"Would it be outrageous for me to say I write them about you?"
I stop and look at him. He's kidding right.
"I'm not sure, it depends if you're joking or not" I say confused.