Thoughts ~ RM X Reader

Chapter twenty-eight

"Prove it"
"Ok, I helped with the chorus in run and used the phrase 'I'm alright, even if I can't have you' which is about you" he says looking at me hopefully.
"That doesn't prove anything"
"It's because I'm an idol and we were in different countries, I'm telling the truth here, there's no need for me to lie"
I look at him, he's looking at me like he's telling the truth I guess. I never realised he felt like that.
"The whole freaking song is basically about how I feel about you, I'm honestly shocked how you've never noticed"
"How I've never noticed what? I'm not admitting I know anything until you tell me what I should be noticing and getting" I say glaring at him.
"I like you Y/N, like I actually like you" he says sighing.
"Wait so what about expensive girl? Who did you write that about?"
"Are you not listening? And no I didn't know you at that point" he says shaking his head.
"What about the fools cover? Why did you do that cover, that was totally not your style"
"That was you"
I gasp in realisation.
"You like me?" I gasp again.
"Idiot" he says lying down on the ground.
"Me the idiot? You waited until I was dating someone to tell me, it's not like this happens often either" I say annoyed.
"I didn't think you'd actually end up dating him in my defence"
"But you gave such good advice just now" I say whining.
"I try to make you happy, that's why I said I you should tell him" he says not siting up.
"You made me strip" I say covering my chest.
"I didn't make you do anything, I just dared you" he says smirking.
"What about blood sweat and tears? What the fuck were those lyrics? Some shit about a devil? Did you call me a devil or something?"
He bursts out laughing and sits up.
"I was just saying you weren't an angel, because your wings are the devils."
"That's stupid, the devil doesn't even have wings" I say disagreeing with him.
"Stop analysing everything" he says laughing again
"I'm going to have too now, you shouldn't of told me" I say shaking my head.
"Fine I take it back" he says smiling.
"Goo- What do you mean you take it back?" I say defensively.
"I mean I take it back"
I sit and stare at him for a minute.
"Just let me ask some more questions" I say pleading.
"Fine" he says rolling his eyes
"What about those soppy songs like boy in luv? Who were they about?" I say hopefully.
"I had nothing to do with those songs"
"You did, Yoongi didn't write them on his own, and I know your rap isn't something the others could come up with"
"Maybe just a little then, only the part where I rap, and I helped a little on Yoongis part" he says quietly.
I look at him and smile.
"Your such a hopeless romantic, you did that without even telling me" I say snickering.
"Shut up" he says embarrassed.
"Oh! What about Just One Day? And War of Hormone?"
"War of Hormone no, it's too derogatory and I knew you wouldn't like if you found out, Just One Day, I don't think so" he says sheepishly.
"Fuck off" I say in shock.
"It wasn't about you" he says getting flustered.
"What other songs? What have you done to embarrass yourself?" I say grinning.
"That's it, the rest of them aren't cute"
"Who was danger about? We haven't been in a relationship so it couldn't of been me"
"Not all the songs have a meaning"

"When did you realise you liked me?"
"I realised I liked you about a month after I met you" he says looking at me.
"That's a long time"
"I know, I've been building up the courage to tell you this whole time"
I look at him and smile. That's all I can do right now.
"So what now? What am I supposed to do?" He says looking at me hopefully.
"Wait, wait until I can afford my own place" I pause and look into his eyes, "That'll give me time to think, as well as settle things with Jimin"
"I know I've created a problem for you" he says smiling.
"I know you know, I also know you're gonna enjoy watching me struggle"
"You know me too well" he says smiling.

"I can't believe you didn't tell me before" I say still in shock.
"Why?"
"Just because, did the boys know?"
"Yes, but not how long"
"I'm so sorry" I say face palming.
"Why? What now?"
"I can't believe I slept with your bestfriend"
"Neither can I" he says sighing.
"Talking of dating people, why did you keep going on so many dates?"
"Who told you that?"
"You kinda, as well as Yoongi and Jin" I say shrugging.
"I told them not too" he mutters under his breath.
"Well? Why?"
"I had nothing better to do, all those girls just liked me so much" he says pulling at his collar.
"That's not what you say when your trying to trick someone into dating you" I say poking him on the nose.
"I'm not trying to trick you" he says poking my nose.
I glare at him and he sticks his tongue out at me.
I lay back on the grass and stare up at the sky.

"What did Jimin say to you yesterday?"
"What do you mean?" I say shooting back up.
"I mean you left for a few hours without telling anyone, what happened?"
"We had an argument and I didn't want to stay there" I say shrugging.
"What about?"
"About truth or fucking dare"
"Ah ok"
"What do you mean ah ok" I say mimicking him.
"I'm not surprised that's all"
"I'm not surprised that's all" I say mimicking him in a weird voice, "you sound like an old man"
"If I'm an old man, that makes you an old woman" he says smiling sarcastically.

"What's the time?"
"5:47"
"We should get back" I say poking him.
"We don't have too"
"We kinda do, y'know you have a job looking after the boys and I have a job to, well see Yoongi"
"But the boys are adults, they can deal with there own life"
"They are definitely not adults, if you weren't there they'd not sleep and they'd just be eating junk" I say smiling.
"Is that a compliment or a bash on the boys"
"A bit of both" I say standing up, "Come on, lets go then"
"I don't want too, I have too many responsibilities, let's just live in this park" he says nodding.
"Get up" I say sternly.
He sighs and gets up.
I walk to the car, assuming he's behind me.
I walk to the passenger door and look at the park.
Why is he so far behind. He's like practically dragging his feet along.
"Hurry up" I say loudly.
He sighs and unlocks the car. I get in and wait for him to enter.
"I really don't want to go back" he says sitting down in a huff.
"Just drive" I say hitting his leg.
"Woah there, don't get too frisky" he says laughing.
"Shut up and drive" I say rolling my eyes.
"I like how I've just confessed that I liked you, and you're still treating me like I've not said anything" he says starting to drive.
"It's because I have no reason to treat you differently, I've always treated you as if I cared about, which don't get me wrong I have"
"So what now?"
"So you wait, I've already said I'm not making any decisions until I move out, that goes for both of you"
"Both of us?"
"I mean, I'm going to try dating with Jimin still, but I'd like to go on a few dates with you as well, I mean whoever I end up being in a relationship I've got to have some sort of background with"
"Y/N I've liked you for 3 years basically, are you sure that's not enough background" he says laughing.
"Just because you've liked me longer doesn't mean your the better option"
"Wow, you get two people taking interest in you and you turn into a professional dater" he says laughing.
"You should focus on driving rather than talking"
"Stop talking then" he says smugly.
"So petty" I mutter.
"So petty" he says copying me.
I glare at him and smiles.
I'm glad he's told me as least.