Up here in the clouds I feel the pain of loneliness
I sit so far above all those that could love meUp here I'm not in reach of your warmth
I can't feel your gazeI'm unaware of your praying
I can't hear what you're sayingOn the top of this mountain not even the breeze is swaying
The world spread about below is something I don't knowMy voice can reach far in the open air
But not far enough to make it to youI can't reach those that are gone
No matter how close to the top I getI can't feel your presence yet
But your essence is always with me
Even though your body has leftI've tried to reach you with words
I've tried with thought and voice
I've reached with spirit and hopeI've grasped at the distance with an open heart
And I've leaned out with an open handYou never spoke back
I couldn't feel your ghostMy heart hasn't healed
And I never felt your hand in mineSo my mountain is quiet
My clouds are motionlessMy breath is slow
And my heart is soreMy voice reaches out into the open
Hoping to someday find you thereMy hand grasps at atmosphere
Holding hope you'll be nearMy soul stays warm with memories of your life
My heart has unhardened at the thought of your ended painThe air up here is so thin
I can barely breathe to begin
Some battles are fought with one side knowing they cannot winYou'll never return to me
I'll never find you
Its okay though as long as my life holds some semblance of happiness
I know you don't expect me to wait forever for your return
I know that reality is real and fantasy is fake
I've no questions about how long it will take for my thin ice to breakMy life on the top of emotional mountains next to clouds made of denial can't sustain me forever
Someday someone will bring me down to earthUntil that day I will reach for you with all my strength
I'll cast my hands high to the sky in hopes that sometime you'll clasp my wrists and pull me into your worldI'll reach skyward in the hopes that my love for you is not just memories and dreams
I'll reach knowing somewhere deep inside me that you'll be together with me once more
The world we live in has so much more in storeWere you stand today you'll stand tomorrow
Where you stood last month you still stand today
I move but you're there
The place you stand is in my heart
No matter where I move you stand stillI'll always reach for you with all of my will
YOU ARE READING
My Heart To Yours
Puisi~My heart burns on heavy with nothing and no one to call my own~ I had fun with these. That you probably knew, but also I hope you will too! With Love, David Yager