15 Shades of Grey

Chapter 32

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"Why don't you have a seat." Offer ni Grey sa'ken at itinuro ang isang upuan sa likuran ko.

"Umm, o-okay." Sagot ko as I head to the chair.

Naupo ako at naupo rin siya sa harap ko after niyang kumuha ng isa pang upuan. For a moment there, we stare at each other's faces.

"So..." sabi naming dalawa.

"Umm, ikaw na mauna." Sabi ulet naming sabay.

"H-Hindi, ikaw na mauna." Sabi ni Grey.

"O-Oh sige." Sabi ko as I start off.

"K-Kumusta ka na? Bigla ka na lang kaseng umalis, nauna ka sa'min sa pag-uwi." Sabi ko.

"I-I can't say that I'm fine." Sagot ni Grey.

"I still can't get over wat I found out back in Seoul." Dagdag pa niya.

He's opening up.

"After I found out about the truth—I realized how messed up my life is. Isang malaking kasinungalingan ang buong buhay ko. Better yet, I lived a life believing in lies." Sabi niya.

Nakikita ko ang expression sa mukha ni Grey. Halatang-halata na nasasaktan parin siya and he's trying to have courage.

"Galit ka ba sa papa mo?" tanong ko.

"Yes, of course I'm mad at him. He caused all this pain." Sagot ni Grey.

"Which is why I decided na ituloy ang race." Habol niya.

"Huh? Anong ibig mong sabihin?" tanong ko.

"Dad is watching so I'm gonna win the race—but this time for myself at hindi para sa kompanya niya. After this race, I'll be retiring and I'll live with my mom." Sabi niya.

WHOA!

Nagulat ako sa desisyon niya, sigurado ba siya sa gagawin niya?

"Pero pano kung ayaw ng papa mo?" tanong ko.

"He can't force me to stay anymore. I don't care kung itakwil niya ako." Sabi niya.

"I've made up my mind na." dagdag pa niya.

"Hindi man lang niya ako binate in personal or tawag. What kind of dad is he?" pahabol pa niya.

I can see the hatred behind Grey's eyes.

"Pero, akala ko ba mahal mo ang racing?" tanong ko.

"Akala ko ba mali sina Owen nung sinabi nila dati sa'ken na you hate racing." Dagdag ko pa.

"Yes, I know. But How can I enjoy doing the thing I love if it will only bring and remind me of pain, right? Hindi ako masochist." Sabi niya sa'ken.

I see—naiintindihan ko si Grey... Except yung word na masochist.

"A-Alam na ba 'to nina Janus?" tanong ko.

"Oo. I talked to them earlier, humingi kase ako ng sorry after what I did to you guys back in Korea—speaking of, I'd like to say sorry to you, Charmaine." Sabi niya.

"Sorry para saan?" tanong ko.

"For leaving you without permission. I know how much you've worried, sinabi sa'ken nina Rhena ang lahat." Sabi niya.

Ano?!? Ang LAHAT!

"K-Kung ganun..." dahan-dahan kong sabi. A nervous look forms in my face.

"Yes, I know the truth." Sabi niya.