Illusion {l.t}

{xxvi}

*Louis' pov*

Walking back to my old house, it felt odd, unusual.

I haven't been at my home for like what feels like ages.

I unlocked my house door and entered it, the smell of alcohol and smoke still there.

Ever since i met her, i didn't drink nor smoke much, but now that she's gone, i don't know what to do.

I sat in the corner of the house, my legs pushed against my chest, i pulled my hair. I pulled my hair for hurting her many times, hurting her emotionally, for only caring about what my 'friends' thought, for not thinking about her feelings, for being so fuckin selfish, for not telling her the truth several months ago. I was being a pussy, afraid shed leave me. And my lies were the reason what i feared most occurred.

Honestly, i really did love and care about her. Every time i touched her, i felt this tingly thing inside me, every time i held her hand, i felt something, even though that something caused my heart to beat abnormally faster, but it was also the reason i breath.

I pulled my hair more, trying to distract myself from the breakage of my heart, man it hurts so bad. Its like its being cut and shattered into pieces.

Im hurt, emotionally, i wish i could get her to listen to me, but she wouldn't and she has the entire right to do that to me. I deserve this, this going through shit, heartbreak, i deserve it.

I have hurt her, 124789 times more than how much im hurting right now, yet she doesn't deserve any bit of it, i do.

*christina's pov*

It has been 3 weeks, I'm still in bed, sobbing, crying my heart out, whatever's left of it anyway. How can he do this to me? How can i be so stupid?

Ive been broken for 3 weeks and i cant get over this. How am i supposed to et over this? How am i supposed to clean my mess? How am i supposed to fix my, disaster? How am i supposed to mend the broken pieces? How am i supposed to trust people anymore? How am i supposed to laugh, smile, be happy?

Im broken, crushed.

He didn't even bother trying...

Ive been on this bed for 3 weeks and haven't even got off of it to go take a shower.

My phone's ringtone played as i didn't bother checking it, then my door knocked.

"No one's home" i whispered, not bothering.

"Chris! Cmon open up!" Rose's voice called

I bit my lip, she has the keys, shell get inside Fuck.

A minute later, i saw my rooms door being opened and i hid under my covers.

"Babyy" rose cried and hurried over to me.

"What did the asshole do?" She stroked my hair

"I was all just a bet" i said in between my sobs

"He didn't!" She gasped

I sniffed as i felt a ping in my heart.

"Oh my god! Babe" she hugged.

But a hug cant heal me, nothing can.

"He doesn't deserve your tears chrissy"

"Im just, i feel so betrayed" i cried, literally, an ocean.

"Lets get you cleaned up babe" she made me stand up but i wouldn't bulge.

"Leave me here to die"

And i meant it..

(Helloooo! How are yall doinggg?

Anywayss. I updated. Sad chapter, i know its okay everything will get better (i hope, i honestly don't know) buttt, vote, comment bla bla i don't wanna brag but please? )