Illusion {l.t}

{xviii}

*Louis' pov*

I've been getting texts for the past few weeks after zayn's call, threats, rude and harsh words and many more, by a suspicious anon who might i add is probably zayn but i doubt it a bit, because i have zayn's number and this anonymous person's typing way isn't near zayns spelling and typing way. Im pretty fuckin sure however he or she is though is working with zayn. That son of a..

Fuck. I cant get it out of my head, i cant sleep, i keep thinking, what happens if she finds out..?

She'll be crushed...I will too..

I have to tell her, for her sake, and mine.

But everything has changed.. Im not the man i used to be, im not. I have changed, for her, i used to fight with people, do drugs, drink, have one night stands with every girl, this time is different. I havent slept with any girl other than christina, for the past 6 months, i havent looked at another girl, i havent touched another girl, i havent lust for another girl. Only Christina.

And now, zayn and whoever that dick is working with him, are gonna ruin everything. Ruin me, and her, mostly her, but still its going to ruin me too, again.

"Louis?" Her angelic voice dragged me out of my thoughts.

I looked at her, and noticed, i haven't looked at her for the past few weeks, i haven't heard her voice for weeks, i haven't looked at her beautiful green eyes for days, and i haven't noticed how much I've missed her beautiful eyes, her angelic voice, her pretty face, i've missed her touch, her laugh, her smile. And i noticed i haven't replied to her yet. She sighs and her glossy eyes look away from mine, she turns her body to the other side of the couch, her back facing me as i hear her faint sobs.

What have i done?

These few weeks, i don't know what i have been doing, but I've probably haven't acknowledged her presence which is probably hurting her.

I want to go and comfort her, i want to hold her in my arms, safe and sound, but i cant seem to be able to move, nor speak.

Whats happening to me? To us?

*Christina's pov*

5 weeks, 3 days

38 days

Thirty-eight days.

Its been 5 weeks, louis has been ignoring my presence.

It hurts, i keep calling his name, he doesn't bulge, he doesn't acknowledge it, he doesn't even look at me.

I don't know whats been going through his head, nor do i know what he's going through, but i want to know, i really want to. Because its hurting me, its hurting me so deep, knowing that, he is going through something so bad that it has effected his behaviour. I want to at least try and help him, try and fix him. I want us back, i want him back, i want the old, fun, crazy, funny, careless louis back, the annoying yet lovely louis back. I miss him, all of him, i miss hearing his voice, after that phone call, he started acting strange and then eventually went mute, he stopped communicating in any way. He keeps looking up at the sealing, sometimes at empty spaces. His head is clearly full, but with what? What has been bothering him?

I cant take this, i need to know, i cant bare all this. I miss Louis.

"Louis?" I asked, my voice turned out so gentle, and cracked a bit, because when louis went mute, not literally but, temporarily, i hope, i have given up on talking to, but i keep calling his name everyday, once in a while, but when he doesn't reply, i give up, and not try again that day.

He's been in like a dream lately, and he doesn't seem to want to wake up.

He looked at me, his blue eyes pierced into my green ones, gosh how I've missed his eyes locking with mine, how I've missed him, looking at me. Right when i thought he was gonna reply, he didn't, he just kept locking our eyes. My eyes teared up, and i broke the lock and turned around, my back facing his as i laid on the couch.

His mood, and behaviour has effected on me more than it should, im going through depression and anxiety and i dont know what to do. I need him, i need him to get back to normal, i need him to wake up, i need him to smile bright again, laugh, and make silly jokes again. I need him again.

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Depressed louis! Sorry! I know its sad.

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