Illusion {l.t}

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*Louis' pov*

I don't know what I'm gonna say and how. Like what if she doesn't open the door? What if she doesn't forgive me? Of coarse she's not gonna forgive you, you ass! My subconscious adds.

All i know is I'm shaking and I'm nervous as hell.

"Chill act bro" Stan said

I looked at him and nodded, even though i couldn't "chill act". I couldn't stop myself from getting angry at myself, nor could i help myself calm down.

It's complicated.

After losing her, i felt empty, i still feel empty. I feel like an empty box thrown in the corner of the street, and while everyone passes, they throw shit inside me. Thats exactly how i feel...

Me and Stan have been in the car for an hour, parked a bit far from her house. Just sat there, neither of us saying anything.

I took a deep breath and exhaled.

I'm ready.

I looked at Stan and nodded. He patted my back and i opened the passenger door looking at Stan and giving him a look that holds loads of meanings that involve uncertainty.

He nodded.

I got out of the car, Stan following behind. I started walking and i felt my palms sweating.

I was standing in the front porch of the house and looked at it. Just stared for a couple of minutes.

Stan pushed me from behind lightly and i stumbled a bit but regained my balance and slowly walked to the door.

Knocking lightly, i took a step back and waited.

The sunset going down, and the sky started getting slightly darker than a minute before, i waited.

A woman opened the door, she was medium hight, medium weight, mid-hight auburn hair, dark green eyes that looked exactly like Christina's eyes. Christina..

"Hello, can i help you, son?" Th woman asked.

"Um, yes, I'm looking for Christina.." I said in a barely audible voice.

"Just a second, but may i ask, how do you know my daughter?" She asked then said Christina's name in a loud tone so she'd hear.

"Um long story.." I forced a smile.

She nodded and Christina came to view.

"There's a guy who's looking for you, love" Christina's mother tells her.

The woman leaves the room and Christina just stares at me.

"How'd you find me?" She asked harshly

"Look, Christy just listen to me okay?" By now, Stan was sitting on the bench in the garden in front of the house and looking at us.

"Ive got noting to hear.." She turned her head, about to leave.

"I know i made a mistake! I know i fucked up, big time! but i love you. I truly, honestly do. I know you won't believe me, i know you won't believe me but i really do love you. I'm nothing without you." I begged

She shook her head.

"I will do anything, i mean anything, Christina. Anything. I mean it. Ive fallen for you, hard, i know we've only known each other for 6 months, but you mean a lot to me. You are a big piece of my heart. You are my heart. Please, forgive me" i was almost on my knees.

"I cant live without you" i whispered

She shook her head once again and shut the door in my face.

Fuck

I slid down and sat in front of her door, my back against the wood.

"I will stay here, forever, until you forgive me."

"Don't, Louis just go" she said. Her faint sobs being audible from the other room.

"I love you, Christina" i hit my head against the door

I felt her sit against the door as well.

"I will stay here for months, Chris i will, i don't care. I need you, i need you to forgive me."

"Go home" she said

"Home is where my loved ones are. Home is with you"

She didn't say anything.

"I will be here, i will stay for 50 days! Even 100, doesn't matter. I will say here for 100 days and wait. Wait till you come out and forgive me." I said putting my mind to staying here for 100 days. Waiting for her

"Go, louis"

"if you don't forgive me after 100 days, i will go"

Stan was looking at me like I'm stupid, like I've lost my mind.

I nodded though.

(I know its short, sorry.

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