Illusion {l.t}

{xxxxiv}

*Christina's pov*

It's been a year since i last saw louis, he seemed broken when i left him like that, but he was probably just acting, like our entire relationship was just an act, you know..

It was hard, the first 5 months, i couldn't stop thinking about him, i still do, i will always do, but he probably moved on, wait, he never loved me to move on, he had an eye outside always.

I was really stupid to fall for my sex buddy, really, i was stupid to get involved with him the first place anyway, it was a joke from the start, im stupid to even think a joke would turn to a serious thing in the end, we fucked to pleasure each other without feelings in the way, but then my heart just had to interfere.

It was hard though, i cried, all day, for the first 5 months, everyday i would just lye in bed, eating cookie dough and watch cliché chick flicks and cry into my pillow.

I went through depression, the anti-depressants not doing a full job on taking my depression away.

but after the 5 months, i realized i was being stupid, and pathetic, i thought about louis and how he's probably living his life, not caring what I'm going through, so i decided that day to clean myself up, take a long bath, dress in a different style and go out that night.

I decided to change, to the better.

So that night, i met an amazing guy who i love dearly with all my heart now, Max, he asked me to be his girlfriend a month after and we've been together for almost half a year now.

I'm really nervous, because it's our 6 month anniversary today and i'm going to meet his parents!

And now that i think about it, i've never done this before, i never met louis' parents even though we were together for more than a year.

It really bugs me though, the fact that me and Max don't have anything in common at all, while me and Louis had everything in common, like we'd talk for hours about the things we both loved, and we'd discuss our favorite books, we'd just talk and laugh for hours that felt like minutes, but it's different with Max, maybe it's because he doesn't like reading books which i adore to do, like if you give me a small room with thousands of books, id just sit there and read happily for the rest of my life, or maybe because he likes those stupid trance music, that just don't make sense, and im more of a The Frey and The 1975 or Ed Sheeran kind of person. or its the the fact that he likes those trace dances and hip hop and im more of a slow dance and ballet kinds, or it's maybe because he likes action movies and i like comedy, or maybe it's because he hates romance and i love romantic guys, or maybe it's because he doesn't like to take his girlfriend out on a date, and i'm one of those who'd die to go out with my boyfriend on a date, and maybe, just maybe it's because we don't have the same taste in coffee or tea, and maybe it's because he likes meat and i like chicken, or maybe because he's the serious kind of guys with no sense of humor what so ever and id die for guys with a sense of humor or maybe it's because he's tall and i always had a thing for not tall one's like short one's like louis or maybe, just maybe it's because im comparing him to louis thats why he seems so opposite of me.

But you know what they say, that opposites attract, maybe it's true what they say or maybe it's not, but i convince myself that it's true and that surely, opposites really do attract and thats why I'm attracted to Lou-i mean Max for all those months.

But i also believe that two persons who have so many things in common attract more, or maybe those beliefs actually depend on the person and what they believe, and maybe I'm one of those who believe that opposite surely do not attract and people who have many things in common, do attract.