Illusion {l.t}

{xxxviii}

Christina's pov

I open my eyes, the whiteness of the walls blinded my eyes.

My back hurts, this bed is so uncomfortable and not mine, then i noticed I'm not in my room, nor am i in my house. I remember staying awake till 1:30 am yesterday. I was in my bed. How did i end up in this bright room? I couldn't seem to remember why i was here. I looked around this bright room and saw louis asleep on the seat.

Louis?

I looked at the clock on the wall, it read 6pm. I furrowed my eyebrows, what was louis doing here? He would never be home at 6pm, he'd always be out at 6pm, he'd never be there from 7am till 2pm and then from 4pm till what? 2am.

I don't know if i should be annoyed or happy about his appearance in the hospital and the fact that he's asleep means that he's been here for a while now but all i really want to know is to why i am in the hospital?

Then it hit me, i lost my baby, i lost my and louis' baby.

I put my hand on my bump that was now getting smaller, i felt empty inside, like a piece of me was now taken away.

A tear rolled down my cheek, as a sob escaped my eyes.

I closed my eyes, trying to calm myself.

"Chrissy?" His angelic morning voice called

I opened my eyes and a hiccup left my lips.

I looked at him, he furiously walked over to me. Holding my hand, he rubbed circles on the back of my palm. "it's alright babe, it's gonna be alright" he shushed me.

Neither of us said a word, he caressed my cheek, and i just looked down almost closed my eyes.

"Louis?" I broke the silence and looked up at his eyes, his eyes moved from my lips, to my eyes and he hummed asking me to continue, he kept caressing my cheek.

"I miss you" i looked down at my fingers, fiddling with them.

He stopped caressing my cheek and looked at my eyes as i didn't lift my eyes to look at him.

And right then the door flung open and Rose walked in, behind her, Eleanor.

I moss Rose so much, i haven't seen her in what feels like ages, and Eleanor is a really sweet girl, i only have talked to her twice but she seems really nice and friendly and loyal.

I looked at Rose, a smile spread on my face, louis let go of me and stood up.

Rose walked over me, a faint smile on her face.

"Babe!" She cried hurrying towards me.

"Im so sorry for the loss, i was gonna be an aunty"

She hugged me as i stayed lying on the bed, not being able to move because of the pain in my stomach.

I heard Eleanor mumble something but couldn't really make it out.

"Sorry for your loss" Eleanor said, giving me a small hug, as well.

"How are you feeling, babe?" Rose asked

"Empty" i mumbled

"Aw babe" rose cried

I looked down, biting my lip, preventing myself from crying, but tears rolled down my eyes against my will.

"I wanted to see the combination of you and louis, your baby would've been hot, breaking hearts of millions" rose said, despite my sadness, i half smiled at how she put that in words

"Oh Rose!" Eleanor said all of a sudden

Rose snapped her head towards her

"Don't worry, you'll see the combination of me and louis in nine months!" Eleanor continued.

I looked up at Eleanor, furrowing my eyebrows, Rose looked at her, confusion spread on her face

"Oh didn't i tell you? I'm pregnant" she smirked, "oh and Louis' the father.." Right when louis' name fell from her lips, my world stopped spinning. I felt sick to my stomach and i just wanted to hide in a dark room, in the corner and die.

Louis and eleanor

Eleanor is pregnant

Louis' the father

Louis cheated

Louis got eleanor pregnant

Louis and eleanor

Louis

Eleanor

I couldn't see what was going on around me, all i knew was that i was feeling betrayed and used right now that id rather die than live like this.

And just like louis had gotten into a depression mode months ago, i felt myself hiding my soul in a dark shadow and blocking myself from the world and going into a dark, sad place.

And that's when everything went black. Not that i fainted or died or anything, even though i really wished i had, but my soul went black, my brain shut down everything else, only thinking about the sad things that depressed me even more, all i could think about was negative things, that hurt my heart and brain but i couldn't stop, i was going into deep, by each second, but i couldn't stop it, i didn't want to stop it. Because i would rather be depressed than live reality.

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