Illusion {l.t}

{xxix}

*Louis' pov*

I said i was gonna wait for 100 days and thats what I'm doing. Im waiting, 100 days, in front of her house, for her to come out and forgive me.

*Christina's pov*

Day 1.

I sat against the door, waiting for him to leave, but he didn't, he sat there, staring at my door, frowning.

Day 5.

I thought he'd leave, but he didn't. I keep looking at him from my peephole, he keeps looking at the door or the window. He doesn't move.

Day 8.

I looked outside, Louis was staring at my door again, but he started pulling his hair, his face, slapping his own cheeks.

I couldn't bare watching him that way. So i moved away from the door and walked to my room.

*louis' pov*

Day 10.

The voices inside my head, getting louder by the second. I couldn't make them stop, so i pulled my hair, maybe the pain of my hair being pulled would make the voices barely audible. But it didn't. It got louder.

Day 15.

Silence. That was all i could hear.

Stan came over, kept talking to me, but i could hear nothing. I could see him talking to me as his lips moved and his eyebrows formed a frown but i couldn't hear him.

Day 20

I waited for her to come out of the house and forgive me. I had 80 days left, so if she didn't come out today, maybe tomorrow and if not tomorrow, then 80 days later. But i waited.

Day 23

The weather was cold and i was wearing a shirt. Stan came over again, talked to me, tried to convince me to leave. But i wasn't going to move. He got me food and clothes but i didn't eat nor did i cover myself well.

Day 28

The voices in my head got back and started talking shit to me again. I pulled at my hair.

Day 36

"Heartless"

"Careless"

"Selfish"

"You deserve to die"

"Kill yourself"

"Do it, cut yourself"

"Deep, do it deep"

My eyes fluttered to the shinning broken glass on the floor. Without noticing what i was doing, my hands reached to the glass.

"Yes. Now do it, don't forget to do it deep, deep enough to kill you"

"Kill yourself" the voices multiplied.

My hand holding the glass involuntarily reached for my other wrist. The sharp object slitting my skin. My eyes locked on the door, i slit my wrist, sometimes going deeper. But i didn't know what i was doing. I wasn't doing it. It wasn't me.

Day 45

Stan saw me that day, made me go to the hospital. But i didn't go, so he wrapped my arm with a bandage and he cleaned the floor from any other glass or anything sharp that i could harm myself with.

My eyes hurt, my head hurt, my stomach growled so bad, my mouth dry, i probably smelled horrible. But i waited.

When will she come out?

"Never"

Day 52

That day was full of pain and my mind playing games against me. Ruining me, but i deserved it.

Day 63

Her friend, Rose i think, i saw her coming over to her door. I clenched onto her legs, begging her to talk to chrissy, ask her to come out, to forgive me, i told her i was desperate. I made a fool out of myself. She slapped me and shook her head walking in the house.

Day 76

The voices in my head were now taking over me. My wrist was aching, missing the sweet sensation and pleasure that the sharp glass brought to me the other time. But i couldn't find anything, Stan cleared the place out from anything sharp.

Day 86

I was losing weight, loads of them. I was now a stick, even more thinner than a stick. I hadn't eaten anything since day 1, and i wasn't even feeling hungry, even though my body worked against me, drying my mouth, growling my stomach but i wasn't hungry. I just stared at the door.

Day 94

She hadn't come out, she hadn't forgiven me yet and i was getting scared.

Day 97

Three days left, three days, i wasn't ready to leave, i won't be ready until she comes out.

Day 98

I still waited. The voices in my head coming back, i moaned rocking back and forth, holding my legs against my chest, saying "no no no" but they wouldn't stop.

Day 99

I was staring at her window, for the first time in 99 days she opened the curtains, then closed right when she saw me staring at her.

She looked beautiful, i hadn't known how much i had missed her until i saw her beautiful face.

The voices returned.

Day 100

Stan came over with his car, told me the 100 days were over and she didn't come out, he told me to go home, but i couldn't move. I didn't want to move.

He had to carry me to his car, i kept shaking my head, refusing to go. I wanted to wait until she forgave me.

The 100 days passed so painfully quick.

*christina's pov*

The 100 days went painfully slow, i kept looking and checking on him from the peephole, he'd either have his head in his hand, rocking back and forth, or just staring at my door or window.

I felt bad for him. He had to sit in the cold for 100 days, wait for me. At day 99, i looked at him from my window, i couldn't help but feel guilty, he had lost loads of weight, he looked sad, he looked in pain, he looked fragile. All because of me. But he hurt me, he hurt me so badly and i shouldn't feel this way about him. I should be happy, but how can i when i still love him?

I would hear him scream some days, screaming "no" over and over again and "I'm sorry". There was something, something inside him. I could feel it. It wasn't good.

It was day 100 when i looked out my window, seeing Stan coming over to Louis, carrying him to his car. Louis' eyes still were focused on the door.

How could i do this to him?

Rose came over one day, i cant forget it, he held onto her legs. Begging to ask me to come out, to forgive him. He seemed desperate. It made me sad, but Rose told me not to pity him, he ruined me. How can i trust him anymore?

Everything was just one big lie.

He's probably doing this so he'd laugh at me again, so he'd play me again.

I couldn't let that happen again.

(Ahhhh you guys! I got loads of feels.

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