Illusion {l.t}

{xxxxvii}

"Im so glad you're here.." I say in between sobs

His hands run through my hair softly as he comforts me

"Shhush baby" he whispers and i snuggle my head more into his chest as my sobs get louder, my eyes burn from all the tears and i cant stop myself from crying harder

"Hey, hey, hey look at me" he tries to lift my chin but i wont budge, "look at me baby" i shake my head and sniff

"Look at me mucus master" he tries to joke but i wont smile

He holds my face in his palms and comes to eye level with me, i look down because if i look at his eyes i will not be able to look away as id be captivated by them so i just keep my head down instead and i know hes staring but i wont move

"Why are you crying? Please stop" he whips the tear that rolled down my left eye away, and continues to stroke my cheek, i lean towards his touch, my eyes close shut savouring the moment before i get him to lose him again

I honestly don't know why I'm crying, probably because of max or maybe because of louis? I honestly don't know.

"At least let's go home, love" oh how i missed and loved it when he called my that

I get off the ground wiping my tears but they kept flowing, he stands up and wipes his bum to get the dust and floor dirt off his bum, then i feel a hand on my bum and realise he's wiping the dirt off my back as well.

I thank him softly, his hand slipping in mine he starts walking over to his car.

"Chrissy?" My tears come down faster after he calls me by his nickname for me which I've missed hearing it from him, i freeze for a moment "hm?" I mumble silently not moving, he turns to me and a small smile creeps onto his lips as his hand leaves mine and cups my face with both hands instead, his hand runs through my hair, then goes back and strokes my cheek, smiling down at me, his smile is a sad smile, his eyes full of longing, "i missed you so much" he sighs

I smile, a real smile again, another tear runs down my cheek quickly as i nod quickly, a hurt chuckle leaving my lips

"I missed you" i cry

"Yeah?" He makes sure "Yeah" i nod again fast, he searches my face for a sign of negativity and my eyes for signs of regrets but he finds none

He leans down , he runs his fingers through my hair, his forehead against mine, "can i kiss you?" He mumbles, his eyes close and slowly open

I honestly dont know what to say, i want him to kiss me, i want him to hold me in his arms and tell me he still loves me but i don't know.. i feel like it's too early i just broke up with max..

I hold his hands on my face and put them down taking a step back while shaking my head, my tears coming back

"I..i i" my tongue gets tied and i cant continue

"I get it, chrissy, its alright, sorry for asking..i just.." He trails off

I dont question it and get in the car

Few moments later he gets in the car not saying a word and i don really want to start a conversation i really don't know what to do right now i just want my mom, she'd know what to do. She always used to tell me "break guys hearts, don't let them break yours", look at me now mom, I'm doing both and it hurts like a fucking bitch.

The uncomfortable silence in the car is too much, i wait for him to turn on the radio or talk or do something really, anything, but he doesn't.

"Lou?" I mumble, he doesn't answer though so i continue, "where are you taking me?" I really don't care where he's taking me, i just want this awkward silence to disappear, he doesn't answer again so i nudge him

Louis' pov

I knew she'd turn down my kiss, i was prepared for it, but i didn't know it'd break my heart more than it's already broken.

I can't stop repeating that scene in my head, i know i should clear my head while driving but i'm too hurt, i don't even know where i'm going or how long I've been driving, i wanted to introduce her to my family, i don't really think she would want that..

I come back to reality when i feel someone nudge me causing me to swerve the car, and all i can feel now is a pain in my back, head and ribs, oh and my heart and everything goes black with christina last on my mind.

Christina's pov

The car swerves, i lean in to turn the wheel to save us but it's too late, i'm always too late.. the car rolls down the cliff, causing the glasses to break, i can't really see what's going on, i can only hear my piercing scream as the car continues to roll, my head hurts as the car finally comes to a halt, my neck hurts, my arm hurts as well but its nothing compared to the pain i feel in my ribs and legs.. I'm glad louis had his seatbelt on.. I just feel so tired, all my energy has been drained, i really hope louis would make it..

i am sO FUCKING SORRY, I KNOW IT'S BEEN LIKE A MONTH SINCE I LAST UPDATED, IDK WHY I HAVENT UPDATED TBH I WASNT EVEN BUSY, i JUST DONT HAVE MOTIVATION TO WRITE ANYMORE I AM SORRY FOR THE ONES WHOVE BEEN WAITING! I LOVE YALL SO MUCH OKAY IM SORRY AGAIN.

SHOULD I SAY SORRY FOR THE LAST PART AS WELL?? OMG BYE BEFORE YALL KILL ME

How many times have y'all killed me in your heads? I love you gUYS!!! Okay im going bye