Illusion {l.t}

{xxx}

*christina's pov*

For the past few months, lets just say, i haven't been quite happy, or anything in general. Im nothing, just nothing.

I haven't left my bed, haven't eaten, haven't done much. after louis left 100 days later, the guilt inside me grew, and grew by each day passing.

A week has passed since the day Stan came and took Louis home, and in this 7 days, the depression was eating me, the guilt ruining me, and my broken heart crushing me to pieces sending shockingly painful waves to my heart every now and again.

The sound of my ringtone filled my room for the third time in ten minutes, i lazily left my bed groaning and took my phone from the ground. I tried reading the caller's ID through my broken screen, yet it was an unknown number. I tapped on the green answer button and held my phone against my ear. "Hello?" My voice cracked.

"Hi, i uh it's Stan.."

I gulped and nodded even though he couldn't see me.

"hi.." I mumbled

"Louis hasn't been okay lately, he needs you" he paused, then continued "he's been going through a lot Chris, please just come over, and talk to him. He needs your acceptance for his apology.." Sounds of glasses being crashed were audible from the other line. "Louis, please, stop" Stan's voice was far yet i could hear it.

"Please, Christina, just.." He was cut iff by probably louis "kill me! Kill me! I hate myself. Stop! Ahhhhh let me die" Was all i could hear, followed by sobs.

I wasn't sure if this was a suck joke, but i was worried right now, the guilt killing me more i pulled a jacket over me, slipping on my converse on quickly, i grabbed my keys and got in my car. I was going to drive the 5 hours drive, i couldn't bear this. I made it in 3 and a half hours, standing in front of Stan's door i hesitated as i heard their muffled voices from inside.

"Louis please calm down!"

"She hates me! I ruined her, i ruined it, i ruined everything. i deserve to die! Kill me! Kill me!"

"Louis! Put that knife down!"

"I'm gonna kill myself!" Then he started laughing in a scary psychopathic way.

I quickly and loudly knocked on the door, nonstop.

A few seconds later, Stan stood in front of me, his hair a big mess, his eyes tired and puffy, below his eyes were black.

"You came!" He embraced me in a hug. "Thank you so much" he mumbled ob the verge of crying.

I just nodded and stepped inside. Stan ran to the living room and i followed behind.

Louis' sobs were loud and messy, i couldn't bear hearing it, let alone seeing it.

I entered the living room and i saw him, i never wanted to see anyone in that position. I felt like crying, i caused him to be like that, i ruined him..

His hair was now long, his eyes were bloodshot, red, puffy, and just like Stan's the below his eyes were black, all black. His beard had grown long, his cheeks were tear stained and in between his mouth and nose, there were bugger stains. His clothes were the same ones as the ones he had worn the entire 100 days at my door, yet there were a bit ripped now. I wouldn't know i was crying until i felt a hot heavy tear roll down my cheeks, as i hitched on my breath. I caused him to be like this.

Stan left the room, leaving me and Louis alone.

A lump formed in my throat and i felt like sobbing my heart out. I felt like dying. I was hurting so much at that moment. I came here to accept louis' apology but in reality, he shouldn't be the one apologising, yet i am.

He stood up, sniffing and walked over to me. I couldn't move, i was unable to.

He touched my face and a tear rolled his eyes, chocking on his own breath, he trailed my bottom lip.

My breath got caught in my throat as i stopped breathing. His touch brought feels and nervousness over me as i couldn't. breath anymore.

"You're here .." He mumbled

"I'm sorry"

"No, no, i am sorry, please, please Chrissy" he sobbed falling to his knees. "Forgive me" he begged.

I felt hurt.

"STOP" he screamed pulling his hair, pulling his legs against his chest, he rocked back and forth, his gaze on the floor

"I forgive you, Louis. If you forgive me" i chocked, a sob falling from my lips.

He didn't acknowledge me.

I put my hand on his shoulder. he looked at me, and tried to move away.

"I forgive you" i said again

He laughed at my face "liAR"

"I swear. Louis, i.. I'm sorry. i forgive you, forgive me" i said

He wouldn't budge, he wouldn't react. So i did one thing that i had missed this entire months. I pressed my lips against his red plump ones. His breath smelt like alcohol but i kissed him.

"I love you, Christina"

(aaaahhhh. Do u guys think they,ll get back or..? Comment what you think will happen! Anyways thank you for 10K overall reads! Aahh.

I would've updated yesterday but i couldn't write because i went to a LAST MINUTE CONCERT and i was so tired today but i wrote it anyways. im still not over the concert though! Lawson were amazing!! And Naughty Boy omg!! Aaaaahhh. The lead singer from Lawson was right in front of me!! I died okayyy! Anyways

Please vote! Thank you reading. Y'all are amazome!!)