Everything She Was (Sequel to After everything We've Been Through )

11 Years Since I Looked Into Those Eyes And Saw Those Curls

I keep getting closer and closer to them, missing them more everyday and wanting to be held in jack's arms once more. But I can't go back even though I'm dying inside and it's eating me alive of how much  I miss them all. Bailey posted a music video yesterday and it's Beautiful, the way she dances and you can hear the rawness in her voice. You can also tell that she was crying and it makes the song even more beautiful. She started her own  YouTube channel that was her first video, I know  I said you wouldn't hear from me again. But for some reason it's getting harder to stay away and I don't know why, I'm sitting at the park , I almost knocked on the front door but I didn't. I'm to afraid of what they'll say, what there reaction will be, if they will hate me. So many things are running through my head and I ended up at the park.

Jack's POV

The park, I go there often but when I arrive there today I didn't expect to see her there, 

Autumn (jk🙂)

Bella, she's sitting there breathing, she's -I..I there's, I can't speak. I'm just standing there speechless and starring at her, she's still breath taking and when our eyes meet. I know I'm not mistaken her for someone else, she's as shocked as I am.

"Bella"

"Hey avery" she walks up to me hesitantly but when she's closer we just jump into eachothers arms.

"11 years since I looked into those eyes and saw those curls " she runs a hand through my hair before placing her hand on the side of my face. Speaking softly, I push the anger that's building up inside of me away and just enjoy holding her in my arms,  she looks up at me, placing her lips to mine every moment we've shared comes back to life as we reconnect. You can taste the saltie tears mixed into the passionate kiss but it doesn't stop us.

"I'm sorry Avery for doing what I did". 

"Why "

"Everything was to much, Bailey being in a coma and my mental health was all over the place. I couldn't take it anymore, I had the intention of dying that day but as I flat lined, when they were trying get a heart beat they did. But you were already gone, Daniel was still there with Christina cause they both refused to leave without actually knowing.  They came in to see me and said that they will call you to let you know.  But I told them not to  and I needed to get away, from everything making me that way, away from fame, mythoughts, you. I just needed to get away, me dying was that way, Christina planned the funeral and me doing that was the hardest thing to do. And have to put   You through  and I hate myself for it, I ruined Bailey and the rest of her life because she thought I was dead. When I saw Bailey at the mall, I had to talk to her, at first I wasn't sure but when I saw the ring she was wearing I knew it was B. "

"How did you start over?"

"After a week in the hospital, I took what I had and found an apartment in London and moved there , with the help of Christina, I started working, met someone and after being friends for five years we started dating, got married two years later after a year of being married. I had a second child. But when I was six months pregnant Damien my partner was in a car accident and he died instantly on impact. "

As she said that a little boy runs over yelling mummy.

Bella's POV

Blue runs over and jumps into my arms as I pick him up.

"This is Blue"

His face drops but he smiles at the little boy in my arms, as he walks a bit closer Blue plays with Jack's curls giggling loudly.

"We're matching " Blue says proudly pointing it his own small curls on his head and his checkered vans.
" we are to"

"When did you move back from London B"

"Two years ago, I wanted to come back but I was afraid of what everyone will say, so I didn't "

"Bailey has wanted nothing more to have her mum in her life. She's cried herself to sleep at night, she's been through so much and she needed you. "

"I hate myself, I felt so alone but I don't regret anything Jack, I'm sorry but I don't, I needed to get away and start freash where people didn't know me. I love you Jack but I'm not coming back" I say bluntly.

"Please" you can see the hurt in his eyes. I want to say yes but

"I'm sorry but no, nothing is the same I'm not, I have Blue, your not, Bailey will hate me"

"All she ever does is listen to your music, watch your old interviews and wear the ring I gave you, she can't hate you Bella" he holds both my hands.

"Blue is apart of who you are B and he will be apart of our family, I can't you lose you not again when I have you back. I've nearly lost Bailey, can't lose anymore people. I just can't". He says softly. I put a Blue down and cup jack's face with my hands looking at him, he still has my heart and I know if I walk away, I might regret it even more.

"I don't know"

"What if you talk to Daniel and Christina  can they convince you"

"If I come back, what does that mean for us "

"I never stopped loving you Lawson all I want Is you back into my life"

Christina POV

Jack's been gone for awhile we were starting to get worried so p, Bailey, Daniel and I are going to look for him and to just get out of the house. We see two figures standing at the park and we can tell one is Jack by his hair and when we get closer I see Bella and I just start running, intill I reach her hugging her tightly. When Daniel sees her there eyes meet and he looks down at the little boy who's confused. I kepted in touch with b but she told me not tell anyone that she was alive, I know the little boy is Blue and his gorgeous.

Daniel's POV

I missed her, more then you can imagine, I knew she was alive but we didn't talk, I'm the next to hug her. When bailey realise who it was she was about to drop to her knees but I stopped her.

Bailey's POV

What do you say when you find out your mums alive, how do you act , but I know there's no, hate in me to hate her. I just don't know what to say, I've only dreamed of having her in my life.

"I love you mum" I hug her as I cry

"I love you too Bailey , look at you all grown up into a beautiful young woman"

"Are you coming back?"

"I-"