Everything She Was (Sequel to After everything We've Been Through )

Don't Let Him Get Away

It's been two weeks and I can't get the lady at the mall out of my head, singing, but it's finally summer holidays so no more school for awhile. I'm going back to mall again to see if she's there but eli is coming with me. After our conversation on the phone we made up, the date with Emma didn't go well, he said he didn't like her the way he liked me. I blushed at his compliment, but nothing else had changed between us, I'm still not ready. When we arrive at the mall, she's singing again, but a different song, still one of my mum's songs though, they never released any of her songs, everyone lied to me about it. Unless she found one of Bella's journals or learned it from YouTube, then if not, it's my mum and she's alive. She gets up from the piano and I wasn't paying any attention and she walks stright into me, I look into her eyes and I feel myself  get butterflies in the pit.  of my stomach.

"Um, I'm sorry" I look down to her.

"You look down a lot"

"What?" I remember dad said that to my mum when they met at the park.

"I'm sorry I bumped into you" she looks down to my hand at my ring and her faces softens and looks sad.

"I have to go" I run away from her and back to Eli and he just hugs me.

"It's just my imagination, it's just my imagination" I keep telling myself, it isn't real, she's not here, she's dead. It isn't real.

"It's okay" he hugs me tightly.

"Can we just go"

"Yeah, come on" he intertwines our hands and we start walking away and walk home, but we stop at the park. I sit in the tunnel with Eli beside me. I just rest my head in his shoulder and he rest his head on top of mine.

"You alright ?"

"No, but I'm glad your here" I say quitely.

"Me too" he whispers.

"I'm sorry for rejecting you, again"

"We've Been though this, it's okay, I'll wait as long as I need to"

"Can you wait till we're 18 ?"

"As long as I need to Lawson"

"Thank you" I kiss his cheek.

"I'll do anything for you"

We might only be 14 and have no idea about relationships, and that we might seem neive, that we have no idea what we're talking about , we won't last. But seeing how Uncle been and Christina's relationship has been through the years and hearing my mum and dads relationship, even though they had there ups and downs, I still believe that Eli and I can be alright even if we're young. I might hold him to his word, if he'll wait till we're 18 to be with me.

"We should get home"

"We live next to each other Eli"

"I'll just clim through your balcony door"

"We're not doing that, we aren't my parents" I say looking at him.

"Don't you think it will be fun ?"

"If you think falling to your death is fun, then"

"Your no fun "

"Let's just go home" I clim out if the tunnel, go down the slide and starts  walking while eli runs to catch up with me. We walk through my door and sit in the lounge room and we see that everyone is here and the dinning room table has been extended out. Mckenzie is talking to Hannah and the twins are missing around, running around screaming, while Victoria plays, well more like just puts them in her mouth, well laying on the floor.

"Family dinner" Mckenzie says to us when she sees, we're home. I walk into the kitchen to see everyone helping with dinner, we do this once  a week to see everyone and to catch up. Even if my week had been terrible, I always look forward to having everyone over cause they make me feel better. Plus there always asking how I am and if I need to talk, there here. I guess they don't want me to go down the same road as my mum did. She kept a lot it to herself, it was when she was comfortable that she'll let people in and know how she felt.  I kind of don't have that option, I have to be open cause I get ask these questions consistently, if it's by, eli, my dad, Christina or Jonah, basically anyone of them. When they see me, Ella and Sydney hug me, Christina screams when she sees me and says she missed me, but I saw her yesterday. But Sophia and Autumn are out buying something that they forgot earlier.

"I'm just going to get changed, then lol come back down" I say and go upstairs into my room. I just put on a pair of leggings and an over sized band tee,so I'm comfortable and I just tie my hair in a messy bun and walk down stairs to see if they need my help. They don't so I go back into the lounge and see everyone sitting on the couch now watching a movie.  I sit next to Eli and Hannah and watch it with them. I ended up falling asleep against Eli, cause when I woke up for dinner I had my head on his shoulder, we all sit at the dinner twb l and start eating. I'm sitting between Christina and Ella, then everyone else is sitting wherever, it's to much work to explain, there's to many of us.

"So you and Eli"

"What about us ?"

"You like him and he likes you, it's obvious b"

"We're just friends Christina" I take a bite of my food

"I might be his mum  Bailey but if you really like him, don't let him get away"

She's right, I know my parents ended up together but my mum let my dad get away and he ended u Perth autumn after he went home. But is it any different from that because my mum was ready to be with my dad. But I'm not ready for a relationship, so it seems completely different, doesn't it ?