Everything She Was (Sequel to After everything We've Been Through )

Eli Besson

It's hard to breath,

I don't need to scar my body, leaving the pain and blood to follow to hurt myself, my state of mind and thoughts hurt me enough. Without having the battle wounds, words are my battle wounds, they stick in my mind and play over and over again. Making the memories freasher then what they are. Your wondering what I'm talking about, wondering how I got to the this dark place again when I was some what okay. That's all changed now, because of the one person I wanted more then anything to get away from, but leaving school made everything worse. Online bullies are the equal to real life bullying, Emma posted a video of a girl hanging her self on Instagram saying that it should be me and she's brought the rope and step ladder, I just have to come over. Pictures and information posted about me, trying to ruin my life even more.

Eli Besson, the one person I could count on, to always be there for me and love me believed the rumours that spread around school, faster then a cold. Maybe some of the rumours were true but not every single one, the rumours that spread were that I made out with a guy I just meet and we went further then just a make out session. Which isn't true what so ever, maybe a kiss but nothing more and I pulled away, I knew the guy that kissed me also he wasn't a stranger, what hurts the most is I told Eli so he knew but he didn't stick to what he normally is like, two weeks out of school for me and his changed. Haven't talked to him and been replaced by the new girl Alya, I think we just found our Autumn in this story, I'm going to his house today to talk to him and actually am right outside his house waiting for him to open the door. When he does i'm not greeted by my boyfriend but by a girl, same age, same height but with beautiful hazelnut chocolate eyes and long brown hair, she smiles and lets me come in before asking who I am. But before I can answer her question Eli walks out saying I'm a friend, my heart skinks and I can feel anger wash over me, but I keep my cool, well at least try to. He can see the expression on my face but he doesn't care.

"Hey B, why you here?"

"To spend sometime with you and to see if you needed help with duet or if you wanted to do it with me, but your busy so I'll go"

"We could use your hel, we're stuck on the bridge, but can we go to your house cause you have a better set up"

"Sure" i say simply

We head over to my house and go stright into the studio,

"I'm Ayla, by the way"

"Bailey "

"Oh I know who you are, miss Woods talks about you all the time and I'm a fan of your mums music, she was really talented, what are you doing for your music video?"

"You don't need to tell me something I already know but thanks, no I didn't know we had to do one"

"Miss added it cause it's now a major assignment "

"um can we just start "

Once I said that there both ready Eli at the piano and Alya playing the guitar, her voice is angelic and reminds me of my mums. Once they hit the bridge they stop and ask for help cause it's were it's needed. An half hour later the bridge is fine and the Jung is basically finished and Eli wants to hear my song, I don't want to sing for him, I'm mad at him, so I say it's a surprise and I'm not going to show them. I know childish of me but I could care less in this moment  of time,  Alya said she had to go back home  so she left  but Eli stayed, even Pugh I don't want him to.

"Why are you acting like this?" He asks me as we walk into my room.

"Me, you called me your friend, do you feel ashamed calling me your girlfriend. After 6 months your afraid to call me your girlfriend , do you like the new girl or is it because of Emma"

"You kissed him Bailey "

"Like you haven't done anything wrong, oh wait you have you kissed Emma multiple times "

"You like one of them don't you ?" He stands there not denying anything, as I continue talking

"Can you go "

"B"

"Please, just go" I say softly there's no point at yelling at him. There's no point in crying either, even if I've lost my boyfriend and quite frankly my bestfriend.