Everything She Was (Sequel to After everything We've Been Through )

I Need Her To Stay

"Are you coming back ?" She asked me , I don't know what to say, at first I didn't but that was before Bailey knew I was alive now. She knows it changes everything. I dont want to let her down more then I have, but I did what I did for a reason, if I go back it would have been for nothing, not completely for nothing, I got Blue and I couldn't be happier to have him as my son . If I walk away leaving them all disappointed I'll regret it and never forgive myself, but I keep thinking nothing will be the same, things will be awkward, I know I'm not making any sense but this is what's going on in my head.

"How about we all go home and talk there it's getting late" jack's says as we start walking , when we enter the house, I remember first moving here from Sydney and hating it, but as time went by, I loved it here and the people who surrounded me.

"Can you sit with me in the studio?" Bailey askes me and we walk in there and sit down.

"I can't believe your here"

"I'm sorry for having to put you through everything and missing out on so much, you should be yelling at me saying you hate me"

"It doesn't matter to me that you missed so much because your here now that's all that matters, but if you decide to go, I won't be disappointed. Yeah I'll be sad but I know that you did it because it's what's best for you at the moment of time in your life."

"I don't want you to think that I left again because I didn't love you or I don't want you, cause that's not the case. When I was in that state of mind, all I ever thought about was you and how much I love you and how much I will miss out on. "

"I know"

I can feel that her heart is shattering slowly, mine also and I don't want to be the person to break them. The more I talk to Bailey the more it makes me stay. When she was  little she looked nothing like me but now she's grown up, she's like my younger self reflection if it makes any sense.

"Even though you weren't here, I always felt like I had a piece of you with me, where ever I went, dad gave me everything of yours and I keep it in my room."

"Which room are you in?"

"I was in the room across the bathroom but moved into the one with balcony."

"My old room, jack and I would climb over each others balcony to see each other cause we were to lazy to go through the front door like normal people . "

She starts walking up out of the room and going upstairs and I follow walking into her room. Nothing much has changed besides furniture and the wall colour is a light grey. I see my mums  guitar hanging on the wall , I run my hand over the old thing and admire the roses. I can still remember hearing my mum playing can't help but falling in love in my head, to this day it's still my favourite song."

"A lot of stuff in here is yours, as I said before he surrounded me with everything that was yours but I never needed it. You where always with me, because the gift of my voice was enough to feel you with me. He told me about what happened after New York and after everything you've been through. All he talked about was everything she was, anglic , kind, a beautiful soul and the never ending love he had for you.  You guys weren't the perfect love story but I can't help but fall in love with your story. "

"All that just makes it hard to walk away "

Baileys pov

"All this just makes it hard to walk away"

I'll be sad if she chooses to leave but I won't be mad or have any hate towards her, I just can't hate her, she's my mum.

"Why don't you stay for couple of days and see how it goes" jack walks through the door.

When they leave, I want to scream not because, I'm mad but because I just spent time with my mum. Who I believed was dead for over ten years and for anyone else they take there time with there parents for granted. I'm not going to, every second with her I'll treasure even if she leaves me. But I like to think she'll stay and love me, I'll wake up in the morning and see her, see her in life not just my dreams and nightmares. Emma will be wrong and she'll leave me alone, I can fill in the pieces of myself that we're missing and know more about myself. But in all, I'll just have her in my life again and this time I will know her.

I really want her to stay,

I need her to stay