Everything She Was (Sequel to After everything We've Been Through )

Wreacking Ball

I made it through bootcamp, and judges houses gladly, Simon still believes I'm not ready and I shouldn't have made it. Eli had a hard time but he made it also, I ended up in Bea's group which I couldn't be happier about, cause I love her music. Bea has girls,  Harry has groups ironically, Simon under 25's and Sabrina Boys. I'm packing my bag to move into the hotel, my new roommate while I'm here is a girl named Hope. I meet her today and mum couldn't be more nervous even though. I'm going through this process, not her, she's just worried about me living in a hotel for more then two months on my own. Even though she can visit whenever she wants, I keep telling her I'll be fine, she's still a nervous wreck. Something I never imagined her to be, maybe it's the pregnany, i place the last item into my bag zipping it up and placing it near my door, ready to be taken, down stairs. When I do walk down stairs, Blue jumps into my arms , hugging me tightly kissing my cheek.

"You come back yeah" he mumbled into my shoulder cutely.

"Of Course, you can even visit me." I tickle his tummy, causing him to giggle.

"Don't forget me when, your all famous and stuff,Blue Remember that name"

"I can't forget a smile and giggle like yours Blue." It's my turn to hug him and kiss his cheek. He thinks it's the last time he'll ever see me, which I find adorable just like how the rest of him is. When dad walks through the door blue releases me from his grip and runs to Jack. Screaming Daddy, daddy airplane.

"Ready to go B, your uber is here "

"K, I'm just waiting on Taylor, his in the bathroom." As I said that, he walks out holding my hands in his and like that we're out the door. Eli left an hour ago, he wanted to get there sooner then later. Since we kissed it's been weird, Tay doesn't know and it's going to stay that way. It was a simple kiss that meant nothing, maybe not completely nothing, I love Taylor, even though we haven't said I love you yet. but I loved Eli and look we're that got me. No I love Taylor, I love him so much that it hurts when his not here. He feels the void of being broken. So yes I love him, you shouldn't be questioning me, but then again I shouldn't be questioning myself, you know what never mind forget I said or read any of this.

We get the uber and I'm on my way, there's a week before live shows start, to settle in and get to know everyone. Taylor's going to stay with me for the first week and then he'll go back home.

"Nervous?"

"Kinda, more excited, I think when show starts, I'll get nervous"

"Your gonna kill it "

"Hopefully, I'm just afraid I'll crash and burn, like how Eli does "

"Bailey Lawson, I refuse to let you think, that you'll crash and burn. When you won't, you have so many people who are at home supporting you, don't let them down. But more importantly don't let yourself down, cause when you start saying those things, you'll start believing them and that's when you'll crash and burn. None of us will let you."

"His's a keeper, don't let him get away" the uber driver says looking at me.

"I know " or Do I ?.

When we arrive  after the rest of the car ride was silence, I can't believe the beautiful building that's ahead of me. We check in and get settled in my room, intill a red head walks through the door, who I'm guessing is Hope.

Bella's POV

"WHEN WERE YOU GOING TO TELL ME JACK!!"

"Later this week"

"Yeah after you go a few more rounds in yeah"

Just like old times, jack goes and does something stupid causing us to fight.

"Maybe it was a bad idea to come back and be with you, I should just leave" I say in a quiet but yet it sounds harsh.

"it was a mistake "

"YOU always say it's a mistake, but you keep on doing it. So is it really  a mistake?"

"Don't leave when Bailey is away, it will hurt her even more. Just don't leave at all, CAUSE THAT SEEMS TO BE WHAT YOUR GOOD AT!"

"Your right, but I've had my reasons to walk away. But what you don't understand is how hard it was to leave my family, friends and my whole life. I had to start over from nothing, with my head filled with demons and memories of you, Bailey, the boys. I came back because I couldn't take it anymore and I thought things would be better. But here you are becoming the wreacking ball I was trying  to run away from." I say yet again, softly but harsh.

That fucking bitch, never knows when to leave well enough alone. I thought shit with that asswhole was done with, when jack broke up with her. But no I find him walking through the house at 8:00 this morning, shrit half done up, hair a mess more then usua. But what gave him away was the hickeys traveling down his body. There sure as hell not from me, I thought he changed but even now it's the same old games.

"I kind wish people hated me for coming back, then I wouldn't have to decide between staying and going right now. Thanks for being a Wreacking ball."