Everything She Was (Sequel to After everything We've Been Through )

Title Waves

The title wave starts slowly and then it hits you like a ton of bricks crashing down upon you. Leaving you without air to breathe, the one thing that keeps you alive and lets you go through everyday life. Without it you start dying slowly, becoming weaker by the second intill your chest tightens and throat becomes dry and you die. Either alone or with love ones, but that's a story for later because today's Christmas it's all about family and having fun. I'm wishing for no drama just for one day. Ashley, Jordan, Ava, Isla, Sydney, Tylar, Anna, basically everyone is here from all family's. we're eating outside of our backyard, lucky it's huge cause our table is like five meters long filled with food. But I don't think none of us would have it any other way, I'm glad I came back and to be apart of this family again. It's the only place I belong, this is my home and forever will be, till the day I die, for real this time. Bailey got news about her xfactor audition tape, she got in for round two of auditions getting to actually perform for people and the judges. I'm proud of her and all she's accomplished in her short life, she's done so much more then what I could have. When times got tuff, she took it like a champ and doubt with it. Instead of finding the easy way out, the way I took. It's Blues first Christmas with everyone and he loves meeting new people, he loves Ashley and the twins Noah and Mason, they run around like mad men and Victoria just giggles at Blue playing pick a boo with her.

It's still so hard to believe Zach got married and had his first child. I still imagine him as the 15 year old kid I meet the first day walking through the doors of the why don't we House, it feels like yesterday that our journey began but I know it didn't, because we're no longer 18 and don't have a care in the world. We're in our 30's late 30's I'll. Everyday I look at jack, I still see the curly haired boy with noodles on top of his head, that stole my heart at the park that day. I still see him in his cheacker vans and black Hoodie and jeans, it's weird but I don't see any of us as we are today, I see us as we were in the past. I still see Danny as the loveable guy, with amazing blue eyes and brilliant facial expressions. Corbyn as a bean and princess with an amazing eye for something beautiful. He still believes everything has a deeper meaning and I love that about him. Jonah as the teddy bear he once was, the tall giant with a kind soul and incredibly good at sports and it's so not far. Zach as yet again the 15 year old kid, with a loud mouth and who loved to be apart of every moment even if he did ruin it. What I'm saying is, it's good to be back with my family.

Bailey's POV

Merry Christmas everyone, I have good news but also bad, Eli and I both got another audition for xfactor, I'm glad I have a chance to go on this journey but I don't want to go on it with Eli. Dad invited Taylor to celebrate Christmas with us, his mum is on a dance tour and his dad went with her. So he was going to be alone but dad was kind enough to invite him along, as everyone started walking though the door, the atmisfear changed from being quiet and dull, to uplifted and full of life. Everyone's family coming along and when I say everyone from both sides of the family, I mean everyone.

"Hey Mckenzie " she runs in and hugs me tightly, I haven't spoken to her for awhile but it's good to know she's still my friend and that I can talk to her. After everyone arrives we sit down at the long dinning room table and injoy the food, everyone has made, Ella, Mum, Sophia, Sydney and Christina with the help of Daniel and Jonah spent four days making this food for everyone. But Sydney did kick Daniel out because he didn't help as much as he thought he was. It was funny, she goes to him dani you know I love you, but  your hopeless in the kitchen please leave. It doesn't sound that funny, but Daniel looked genuinely hurt by the words shared between him and his wife. He was shocked it was plastered on his face, the thing is Daniel always thought he was a good cook. But he wasn't, we just acted like he was, we didn't want to break his heart with the truth. That's why it was so funny.

"Can we talk B?"

"What on a table filled with people "

"I just want to apologise for everything "

"I'm over it, I have Taylor, but it's to late for sorry, all I wanted was my best friend back but how can I when I don't even know who that is anymore. "

"Going to Emma was wrong but at school I was alone, it was my only choice"

"You didn't have to change and that's not an excuse for cheating on me with your current girlfriend!" I raise my voice a little  from the quite whisper.

" I should have just broken up with you, then maybe we could have been friends still."

"Why would I still want to be your friend, when you would have dumped me  for another girl, we should have never got together, no matter how much I was falling in love with you."

"Don't you think I loved you to" .r e

"That's the thing, I still continue to love you and your love for me is in past tense, I tried
But you lift me broken, the fight wasn't worth it anymore Eli. I still can't be your friend Eli and you have to understand that, if we both get into xfactor pretend you don't know me." Painful to say and hear I know. But I can't deal with him anymore, I'm finally in a good smood splace I'm my life, I don't need him ruining that.

After dinner was eaten, we opened gifts, I got mostly money or room decor. But Christmas for me isn't about gifts and how much or how little you get, Christmas for me is about spending time with family and friends. Making memories that will last forever and not be broken or spent so easily, that's what people forget about Christmas.

"How was your first Christmas with your mum kid?"

"Couldn't be better Jonah, how was your Christmas?"

"Couldn't be better"

Mum walks over, plenty a kiss on my forehead, smiling down on me.

"Merry Christmas B, I'm looking forward to many more "

"Me to mum me too"

It's funny, I never thought I would have a Christmas with my mum that I would remember. Now look at me. Christmas miracles do happen.

Hey guys hoped you injoyed the chapter, um so I may have sob my way through the boys live stream. Am I the only one sad that their moving out of the compound , I mean that's where so much has happened for them , but there moving into their own house. I'm so proud of them and what they done and can't wait for everything else they have in store for everyone. I love you guys so much, have an amazing day if you were already and intill next time

Bye for now

Love you all ❤❤️

-paige