Everything She Was (Sequel to After everything We've Been Through )

Why Is Goodbye Diffcult

Why has saying goodbye never been easy, it should be as easy as saying hello. This isn't goodbye forever but it feels as if it is, as time will go on will grow our separate ways and be different people then who we knew before. I need time to grow up, figure out who I want to be, if that's a singer, a dancer or pick a new path and follow it to where ever it leads me. Taylor has to do the same, he may not be my always, he may only be my now and not forever. Our futures  are so uncertain, it's a game of chance, at our own cost. We're I'll be in the next ten years, I don't know where I'll be next week let alone ten years. If I could give you an answer I would but I can't, soon enough I'll have to unwrap my arms around Taylor and let him go, and let my happiness and smile board the plane with him. Reece came with us for support, Not wanting to be lift alone on the long car ride  back, he waits near the front of the airport as were further into the airport. I've haven't cried yet I've been holding it back but the tears will fall soon enough and I'll lose it completely. But I haven't yet so time will tell.

" look at me"

"If I look up from you, then I would have to losen my arms around your waist  and if I let go you'll be gone before I know it "

"But if you don't look up I can't kiss you goodbye" I look up running my hand through his hair before pressing my lips to his, taking in everything before placing my head back onto his chest as he pulls away from me. When he hears there boarding his flight, kissing me one more time and a long hug, he lets go of my hand and starts walking away. I could already feel as if I've losted something

Goodbye, A word with seven letters and the meaning that could hurt so much, one vow and six other letters. When I've said goodbye it never meant anything to me as it does today. I'm making a big deal over nothing but there are no happy endings, but if you give me a happy start and a happy middle I'll be okay. But it doesn't make saying goodbye any easier. When I'm near Reece he just wraps me in his arms as I sob in his chest.

"Hey it's not goodbye forever, you'll see him again B"

"I know, we have to get back so you can get to prom."

"I know you probably don't want to but will you go to prom with me, as my friend of course "

"Don't have  anyone to go with you"

"With the competition I haven't had time to ask anyone and i don't want you to be sad in your hotel room. So wanna come "

"I don't have anything to wear and I don't know. "

"Taylor would want you to have fun, and plus you'll see Eli "

"I always forget we went to the same school, but never came across eachother"

"So your coming, I got Jamie from hair and make up, to yours and he picked out a dress"

"I guess I'm going then, thank you " We getting into our Uber and head back to the hotel.

I guess I'm going to prom, Taylor would want me to go and have fun, with my friends. Wouldn't he or am I just a bad person  for going. I don't know but all I know is that I said yes so I can't back out now.

Another update for all you amazing  people out there, have a good day or night, whenever your reading this. Love you all❤️

-paige