Everything She Was (Sequel to After everything We've Been Through )

The So Called Quiet

"YOUR BEING UNREASONABLE "

"ME WHAT ABOUT YOU, JACK, YOU WANT TO BREAK UP WITH ME!"

" I have broken up with you Autumn."

I'm sitting on the stairs listening to the fight, it's not the first one today, it's the 100th one, the worst part is that Mckenzie has to hear it. She's not use to hearing yelling like I am, they've been fighting for awhile but never this loud or there anger over flowing with hatred, saying nasty things about one another but dad finally did it, he ended it all with her.

"What's it all about ?"

"Everything, I miss the peace and quiet, I'm sorry you have to hear it"

"It's okay it's not your fault there yelling"

'There yelling about me and the problems they've been having, dad says to Autumn she's to overprotective of me and Autumn tells him she's not tough enough  on me. " I look down to her and I can feel a single  roll down my cheek

"Come on will go to the park  " we both get up and walk down  the street, I walk into the tunnel and sit with my head in my knees with my eyes closed so my world is now gone and all I see is black, but the quiet doesn't  come, I can still hear them yelling, I might not ever hear the so called quiet ever again. That scares me, but then again a lot scares me, to many things to name, really, I wonder what scares Mckenzie or Eli, but most importantly what scares jack avery, what scares my dad. Death, heights, drowning, spiders I don't know but what scares me most is not having the so called quiet.

"I'm scared kenzie "

"of what?" She looks at me hopeful

"That my family falling apart and I can't fix it, everyone said Autumn and dad wouldn't last, I didn't want to believe them but they were right. They were crumbling but now there crashing down creating a huge hole. "

"Everything will be okay "

"How can you be so sure ?"

Jack's POV

"GET OUT JACK, GET OUT!  "

"I HATE THAT YOUR DOING THIS JUST GET OUT JACK" she keeps yelling.

"this isn't your home, it's Bella's and your standing right where she was dying, when I found her. Autumn you will never be anything to compare to Bella, you create drama and noise when all we want is the quiet to come back slowly. You should leave and don't come back, papers will be in the mail shortly. Goodbye Autumn no more ruining my life." I say a bit harshly but I'm proud, we where never suppose to be together, I realise that now, Bella was the only for me. And she's gone, and that's okay, Bella has made me the person I am today, strong, full of love and passion, have the willpower to do anything I set my mind to. Bella Lawson made me that way and I plan on being this way for a long time to come. You might be asking why do we live in a house bella tried killing herself in . We tried selling, but no one wanted to buy it, it's one of the last things I have of her also, it's hard walking around here and looking where she was laying I get flash backs all the time.

"Nooo, nooo, noooooo" I yell and bang my fist on the wall, I start running and running and running intill I'm at her house, I bust through the door and I see her, I see her, laying there, in a pool of blood.

"Bella, no, no, bella please please please be okay, I need you" I pull out my phone and dial 911. I put here head on my knee and try to find her palse, it's weak but she's still alive, I'm afraid I'll lose her, I should have been there for her, by her side not let her go through this alone. The ambulance shows up and takes her, "

When i arrive at the hospital, I wait for what seems like forever, I called everyone and they were here in five minutes, they ran through the doors and into my arms. You can tell they were crying, so have I. We just sat there in silence, no one wanted to say anything, no one wanted to move just in case something happened. They let me go in to see her, they  banged the slit in her wrist but that wasn't it, she overdosed as well. Who knows how long she was laying on the floor for.

But I keep going and this bump in the road, I will over come and  not run and hide like the coward I was. Not drowning my sorrows in hard liquor but loving my daughter unconditionally because she needs me and the quite will come when it needs to and it will come.

It has to.