Roses ➳ Shawn Mendes [2] ✓

Chapter 17

| Signe |

Scotland was breathtaking, gorgeous and the girl had to admit it. It was constantly raining, the skies were gray, either way, that did not erase the beauty of the place. She was right now standing at the edge of a cliff, staring at the gray ocean underneath, its waves crashing violently against the rocks nothing she would see back in Toronto. Although at first, she didn't enjoy the idea of traveling to a new country when her mother had just died and Daniel might be needing her help, she ended up consenting after noticing how worried Blake was over her. Perhaps it had been a good idea, perhaps it was a waste of time and money, it was still too early to tell.

The wind blew Signe's hair across her face as she stared at the waves moving nonstop and thought about how her life turned upside down in a blink of an eye, the girl not being able to hold on to nothing as she fell into the cold, strong and violent dark sea underneath her, crashing against the rocks, causing her to go numb from all cold temperatures embracing her fragile figure. Her mind wondered dangerously through such dark thoughts she never thought she would ever get at, yet there she was. She wondered what happened if she jumped. That would probably destroy Blake and fill him with guilt as he was the one suggesting the trip, Daniel would probably never recover and Maddie would freak out. How would Shawn react? Would he regret everything and carry guilt for the rest of his life? Would he just pretend he had never known her? The ginger believed the third question would never happen. He could not just brush off someone who was so important. Could he? The idea of Shawn to do something as awful as that made her sob, it was as if all of the sudden then numbness revesting her feelings disappeared, vanished, replaced with all the emotions she was trying to not feel. Heartbroken, anger, sadness, frustration, everything came crashing down on her. Signe bit her lip trying to stop the tears from falling down. She was tired of feeling down - or nothing at all -, she was tired of losing the happiness she achieved with a lot of work after a while. All she wanted was to be the bright girl she used to be. The light to the darkness, not the other way around.

"I hope you're not thinking about jumping." A male voice sounded behind her causing her to almost jump in her place. She turned around to see a tall boy behind her, a worried expression that resembled Blake, his eyes were light blue, his hair was brown, a few strands escaping his grey beanie.

"I'm n-not... I'm wasn't going to jump." She told him without looking at the boy. Instead, she looked at her boots as she cleaned the tears falling embarrassedly.

"Are you sure? By the looks of it." The boy commented.

"I wasn't. But if you don't believe then don't. I couldn't care less." Signe retorted as she began walking towards the bus which was still stopped on the dirt road as the tourists took their time to stretch their legs, take photos of the view and eat. The idea of going back to sitting down next to the lady who wouldn't shut up during the whole trip making her no go back at all.

"Wait! I didn't mean to upset you!" The boy exclaimed which caused her to stop on her track and look back at him. His expression of worry being replaced by a serious one. "I'm Alex Williams by the way."

He stretched his hand, a smile on his face as he expected the girl to say her name. Signe just stared at the hand and then at Alex before turning on her heels again.

"Look, I'm sorry. Okay?" Alex apologized, his voice filled with regret and guilt. Why was he trying so hard? Why did he care about her when he didn't know her? Unless he knew her from YouTube and the old and gone Vine app.

"Why do you care though, Alex?" Signe inquired as she tilted her head slightly to the side.

"Well, I know you. You're Signe Wilson. You seemed so sad and for a moment I got worried, you know, you would -"