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Yeah so idk. I have a lot of feelings about things and I'm going to talk about them in this book because a bunch of people I don't really know at all are reading falling now???

Yuck that's pretty scary, huh?

Will people following me get a notification about this new book being published? Who knows. I'm almost out of chapters on falling anyway so I'll just fill them up with less personal stuff and then yeah we'll see what happens from there cause idk what I'm doing with my life and I have no organization whatsoever. It's pretty nice writing books like these because it's a way to talk to myself without it seeming as crazy.

Anyway, I have a crap ton of feelings up in this little chest of mine so let me open it up and let you see a little.

I have no clue where to start tbh.

Highschool is...pretty stressful as expected. All that homework and band practice is really relaxing and a great form of meditation I highly recommend 👌🏼

New friendships and stuff is pretty cool, I'm getting closer to people I wasn't that close to before, too. Wesley and I are a lot closer than last year and that's pretty great. Demonati and I are friends, too. Cynthia and I are planning to move into a mansion and have our families grow up together so I guess that explains itself pretty well lol. I'm close to josh I guess? Sometimes he doesn't talk to Cynthia or me for a few days and I get him mad at me a lot so idk where I stand with him.

Yeah, things are alright friend-wise.

I'm passing all my classes and I have a freaking ninety in algebra which is a miracle. I fucked up bad on my reading check for Of Mice and Men in english so that pulled me down to an 88 but that isn't too bad. I didn't turn in two assignments in AP human so I have a 75 but I can get it up hopefully with these notes I'm doing, plus the test. I'm trying to get all A's and keep my grades up but I keep feeling like I'm falling way behind. I have a 103 in Spanish tho lol.

I feel like I'm not amounting to anything, I feel like I'm wasting myself somehow.

I don't know.

My plants are all dead except for my two parsley plants. I grew a basil plant for Jazzmine but I don't know when I'll give it to her.

Wesley says he'll work in my cafe with me when we're older. That would be pretty nice. I like to think about my cafe when I feel hopeless. If Wesley worked there with me I would be 10 times happier.