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Hella gay

So I went to the doctor last month and she diagnosed me with depression and generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder and I've been taking a medication. It seems to be working but I'm unsure if it's making a real difference. I think I'm okay about the whole molestation thing now and I don't cry about it or panic about it much.

Also, I got a toad yesterday. I named him Pippin, pip for short. His other name is Toadrick since Teddy's nickname is Tedrick.

Here's pip the night I found him:

This is teddy:

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Anyway, I've been thinking lately and I think I might be lesbian. I feel like it would make the most sense. I've said I'm bi but the boys I've dated were just pretty much friends and when they tried to hold my hand or hug me I would feel very uncomfortable and when Wesley kissed me it was disgusting and the most uncomfortable sensation in the world, even though I thought I liked him. When I think of getting married it's always to a woman and I feel repulsed by the thought of being with a guy. Idk, my dude.

I have a crush on someone now. I won't say her name because she has a Wattpad account and if she ever found my books it would be embarrassing but yee. She's real pretty and funny and idk I like her a lot. I don't know her well but she seems real sweet. So yeah.

My dad found texts from me to Jazzmine a few years ago where I was talking to her about me being bi and liking girls and so he brought it up to my mom when they were on the phone last week and asked her if I still thought I was a lesbian. My mom wouldn't care if I was or if I wasn't, I think she might actually be relieved that I'm gay and won't get pregnant or something like that. Idk how I would tell her thought. If anyone has an idea of how to casually bring it up that'd be great. I'll leave y'all with a cute pic of matrix