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I am trying to be happier again. I slipped up big time recently. I've gone back on all the progress I made, and then took a few more steps back. I think I need space. I need to stop texting my friends and calling them and all that as much and focus on trying to get better and fixing my grades. I've let myself slip in math again. I was doing so well, and now I have a fifty in the class. I'm tired all the time and everything aches. I've had a headache for three days and idk how to get rid of it pls help me.

I need to push things away for a while and give myself room to breathe. I feel so overwhelmed all the time. I woke up Monday morning with a terrible headache so I stayed home from school, and my friends couldn't talk all that much and I found that I was so much more productive. I cleaned my room and decluttered the space by my window and took down the black curtains so the sunlight can come in and i felt so much better.

Lately, my friends have been the only source of my happiness and I'm finding out that that's extremely unhealthy for me and it's making me so much more sad. I'm not saying that they're not good for me, but the fact that the only thing I do is talk to them and my happiness depends on theirs is not good at all. I need to back up from everything for a bit and calm my mind.

I don't know if any of them read this, but if y'all do I hope you guys understand what's up and that I'm not mad and y'all haven't done anything wrong. I just need to give myself time to get better.