One with spirits

Blame

I felt something soft like fur touch me the. I felt as if I was flying. After awhile I opened my eyes to see I was leaning against a rock and I looked around and I saw Gethan. He looked at me and I could tell he wasn't impressed.

"I told you to be careful." He growled.

"I was!" I snapped.

"Sure that's why you're in the condition you are in. You would be dead if it wasn't for Rico's healing abilities." He growled.

"What do you know. Me being born caused so much death. The least I could do is save one person!" I shouted.

"You don't need to carry every death on your shoulders. For once in your life kid, don't blame yourself for everything!" Gethan yelled.

I froze and just looked at him. Why did he even care. As if realising what he did he looked away from me.

"All I mean is it must hurt Rico to always hear you hating yourself." He mumbled.

I sighed and stood up preparing to leave however Gethan grabbed my sleeve and pulled me back. I looked at him and he held sadness in his eyes.

"Your birth didn't make people do what they did. They chose to do it theirselves." He said.

I simply sighed. Rico told me this a thousand times and I still couldn't believe it. So I'm not going to be convinced by Gethan. I simply rolled my eyes and went to walk away again but Gethan pulled on my sleeve again.

"What? I've heard it before from Rico but I still blame myself." I said tears filling my eyes.

"Listen here kid. I know better than everyone not to blame yourself. When I first came into the world my whole reason for living was death for I am the spirit of death. For a long time I blamed myself for all the deaths that happened." He said.

"But why it's not your fault." I asked.

"That sounds familiar. I blamed myself for I am the embodiment of death itself and if I didn't exist no one would die. But after the guidance of Kiyoshi the very first person to have the title one with spirits. He taught me so much. He taught me to love myself for there must be death to be life and if I didn't exist someone else would to represent death." He said looking at the sky.

"Yes but you have no reason to blame yourself you didn't kill anyone." I said looking down.

"Neither did you. Did you physically kill them. No! You blame yourself for something you can't control. All you could do was your best and that's what you did. So stop blaming yourself or more people will die while you're busy drowning is meaningless blame." He said firmly.

I stared wide eyed. He was being harsh  and what he said was true. While I was here mopping I could be doing something. Fuck I should have explained to the hokage what was happening so she doesn't send Asuma on that mission. I quickly began to run towards the village praying that I would make it on time.