Meeting Austin Mahone [Editing]

Chapter 37- Mending A Relationship

Chapter 37- Mending A Relationship

It wasn’t until the second day of senior year, when I saw Austin and he smiled at me, that I realized his intentions were never to give up on me after the fight. He left that day to let me think and rethinking my decisions.

He gave me an ultimatum, but at the same time he knew my now ex-boyfriend was going to leave me. Even from the very beginning, he had doubts about our relationship and that was why he didn’t try to break us up earlier. He knew eventually we would break up. And him interfering at the end only prepared me to what was to come.

In a way, his fallout with me was like a protective shield to my break-up with Austin. Even though I was hurt that he broke-up with me, I was devastated from losing my best friend. Even as Austin Mahone said his goodbyes, a deeper part of my heart was lingering from what happened hours before.

How does this make me look to Austin Mahone? Not only did I not truly love him, I couldn't be sincere when he broke up with me either. Yes, I was sorry that it all happened to us, but I was no where near hurt as him. Sometimes I think deep down he already knew that we weren't going to make it either, but saying it out loud, hearing it in our ears, made it hurt more.

I cannot say I regret going out with Austin because that will be a lie. Going out with him was the best decision of my life. Our failed relationship taught me how not to love someone and what not to do in my next relationship. They always said the first relationship will never last, but it's not a bad thing because you get so many life lesson from it.

Austin loved me, but I didn't love him. I now know what it feels like to have superficial love for someone and I won't make that mistake again. I know know that love comes with time, there is no such thing as love at first sight, but there is attraction at first sight, aka crush. But love at first sight doesn't exist.

Falling for someone's exterior is not a good idea either, you will come to realize that you never loved them and they will get hurt from it.

 Now you're thinking, wow Tammy, did you really come up with that all by yourself? My ego and pride will tell you yes, my genius mind did come up with it, but, my more conservative side will tell you no, Taylor and Josh fed me the information about Austin and the rest I patched together like a quilt.

So after I did all my thinking, I decided it was my turn to swallow my pride and ego and apologize to the one person that matters to me the most. It's funny how I always complain about his "inability" to swallow his ego and pride when all along I'm the biggest hypocrite in the world. Austin swallowed his ego and pride the moment we stepped off the plane from New York. I, on the other hand, held on to it strong.

 I guess that's why we make such great friends, we have huge egos.

 I knocked on his door after school, I made sure I left my pride and ego at my house so this doesn't end up as a disaster, because when two egos clash there is a lot of damage done.

 He opened the door and looked down at me, "Hey."

"Hi." I replied slowly, this felt oddly like what happened in the summer except our roles are reversed and he was not nearly as stubborn as I was.

"Do you want to come in or are you going to stand outside all day?" he asks and opens the door wide for me after I just stared at my feet for a while.

 I gave him a grateful smile and entered his house and looked around. Everything was the same as I remembered, leather sofas, coffee table, and a porcelain vase passed down the family on top. His house had a cinnamon smell to it due to his sister's, Andrea, love for french toast. A short girl, with blonde hair down her back, in sweat pants and a tank top was in the kitchen when we entered. Andrea gave me a smile and took her plate of french toast to the living room giving us privacy to talk. "Nice to see you come around again."