Love Is Love

You are not alone...

Lin's POV:
Tears fell as I just realised that I wasn't at all as alone as I thought I was, comments of support flooded through my phone on all social media and many had made videos telling me that they will help me through it.

Gorgeous_ash:
Lin, I've never met you but I'd
like you to know that you will
get through this. It may not
seem like it ...

AdeleBxox:
Omg Lin! I am so sorry for your
loss! She was such a beautiful
lady and will be ...

Dani_cutie:
Oh no! Lin I hope you read this
because the paragraph is going
to be a long one! I know you are
a brave ...

I tapped onto the Twitter icon watching an ever climbing number above my notifications. This many people? I decided to read my friends messages and, over time, I would read the ones from the fans. Jon might have been right about the worldly support but it still would take a while. Of course, the hurtful ones hit harder than the support but I guess that's what should happen right? After a while I put my phone down and decided I needed to spend a day with the kids, I haven't fully bonded with them yet and it's one of my many guilts. After texting Jonathan that I saw the support I tried to find a way of distracting the twins from the toys, and, my dorky self decided to do the weirdest stuff to make them laugh getting to a point where I fell and my bottom hit the TV remote. Both twins looked up to see Sesame Street and, judging by their faces, they were spellbound. I watched it for a while with them until I shortly realised this was the episode I was in. Six words were all I needed to hear before I ran out of the room:
"Freddie Flapman of Flychard Real Estate"
After a few minutes I re-entered the room watching the kids look at me and back at Freddie Flapman finally putting two and two together, their little mouths forming the letter 'O'. It was cute to watch as I smiled at them and did a little Ta Da gesture with my hands before picking them up and dressing them for a walk. However one of the major things I've disliked about being famous is the disruptions when on a family hike. I like my fans, of course, but today of all days all of my fans were constantly reassuring me and stopping me to tell me I've got their support. It was nice, but it reminded me too much of Stacy. The one person I wanted to forget. With Ariella on my shoulders and Isaac holding my hand, I decided to go into a nearby forest so they could endure the nature around them. We walked for hours, occasionally stopping for me to lay them down to play in the leaves and at one point to buy lunch, until I came across a small wooden shaped object. After closer examination I saw it was a spear head and reasonably sharp. Spear heads shouldn't be made of wood though. Ariella's cries interrupted my thoughts as I shoved the mysterious object into my pocket to assist her, rolling my eyes seeing it was Isaac bothering her. Twins. I lifted them both in my arms and continued to walk until I saw the one place I was trying to avoid. Why did I end up here? I had no idea where I was going but it must have been my sub-conscience leading me. I turned away from the scene for the children's sake. They didn't need to see what I did to their mother. Quickly walking away from the car crash I walked back into the forest noticing how both of the twins were looking over my shoulder anyway. I didn't intend to go there and it worsened the day but I will not let the little ones realise that. Not yet anyway. As soon as we left the forest more fans were saying how they shared my grief but I didn't want my kids to hear it, I walked past them mumbling my thankyou's and half-walked and half-ran back home letting out a deep breath once the door was shut. The kids were asleep in my arms and, instead of placing them in their cribs as always, I simply sat on the sofa with them in my arms. They were physically drained, I was emotionally drained, we both needed rest and there was no point in furthering it anymore than we needed to. I lay my head back onto the comfort of the sofa and began to catch up on the sleep I'd lost over the past few days.
"Lin?"
"Lin!"
"LIN!"
My eyes drifted open to see the unforgettable face of Groffsauce in the window, I waved him off continuing to go to sleep until I heard the window lock click and he began to climb through. My initial reaction was to stand up but, with two twins on my lap it was impossible. Instead I looked at him with my most unwilling face ever and he lifted both kids off my lap and carried them upstairs to their bedroom, shortly returning downstairs to close the window he climbed through and lead me outside through the back door. My mouth instantly crept into a smile seeing the whole Hamilcast and In the Heights cast on my driveway with the additional Ben Platt in front of them all.
"Guys! You shouldn't have!"
"Nope. This is about you now."
I smiled at Karen motioning that I was okay with whatever they were about to do. After many telepathic nods in each other's directions they led me to a field of some sort with a stage set up with lighting and all. I was lucky I fell asleep without changing into my pyjamas to be honest. There was one seat for the audience which Jon set me down in whilst he quickly ran backstage, the lights went up and Ben walked to the microphone with everyone behind him. Before hearing him sing a tear fell as I recognised the chord structure instantly. You will be Found.

"Have you ever felt like nobody was there?
Have you ever felt forgotten in the middle of nowhere?
Have you ever felt like you could disappear?
Like you could fall, and no one would hear?"
Jon moved to another microphone I hadn't seen yet and a spotlight fell on him, I held my breath at the words he then said:
"But see the thing is when I looked up you were always there
That was the gift you gave us, to show us that we weren't alone
To show us that we mattered Everybody does
That's the gift that Lin gave all of us
I'm just glad, I'm glad I now have given that to him..."
Karen then walked up to join Ben, my breath hitches when they held hands and looked at me it felt as if my tears were a waterfall. Karen then sung in her beautiful voice:
"Well, let that lonely feeling wash away
Maybe there's a reason to believe you'll be okay
'Cause when you don't feel strong enough to stand
You can reach, reach out your hand"
Being an actor I realised how much work had been put in for this to be rehearsed and it made it all the more emotional on my part. All three of them then sung the next line before the everyone joined in.
"And oh, someone will coming running
And I know, they'll take you home."
"You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not
You are not alone"
I lifted a hand to wipe my tears away but more ran down my face as they all sang the chorus.
"Even when the dark comes crashin' through
When you need someone to carry you
When you're broken on the ground
You will be found!
So when the sun comes streaming in
'Cause you'll reach up and you'll rise again
If you only look around
You will be found"
Everyone moved out of the way then for Jon to go up to the microphone with a spotlight on him as he sang me the last few lines.
"Even when the dark comes crashin' through
When you need someone to carry you
You will be found."
The whole lot of them ran down the steps for a group hug as I thanked them repeatedly hurriedly wiping away my tears. I hugged Jon separately as he seemed to hug tightest, once everyone had gone I quietly asked Jon what I had been meaning to ask the moment he sung.
"Did you arrange all of that Jon?"
"Well, without everyone agreeing and the staging people...-"
"- did you arrange it?"
"Yeah."
He squinted his eyes expecting an explosion but I hugged him tightly.
"Y-You're okay with it?"
"Okay? I'm over the moon! I hardly deserved it but going to all of that trouble just for me! You really shouldn't of."
He smiled, hugging me lightly back.
"You know you needed it Lin. You're closing yourself up again so I needed to remind you that we've got your back. Siempre y para siempre."
I raised an eyebrow.
"In the Heights lot. They taught me the meaning."
I chuckled lightly leaning my head on Jon's shoulder.
"Your laugh."
"What about it?"
"Nothing, I just haven't heard you laugh in so long. Forgot how nice it sounds."
"Stop it!"
We laughed again as Jon smiled at me.
"Lin. There's one tiny weeny problem."
"¿Qué?"
"It's 11pm and your kids are asleep and we're comfortable and don't wanna get up when we're in the middle of a field."
"Sleep round mine."
Jon thought on it for a moment before nodding his head and we picked ourselves up to go back home.

AN: I missed Wattpad. See ya in the next chapter!