Love Is Love

With only the memories of when you were mine...

Stacy's POV:
I watched Lin warily as he tried to balance the plate of jelly on his nose, after a while of him successfully balancing it I purposely knocked him on the shoulder laughing as it fell all over his face. He gave me a grumpy look as I laughed
"I thought you said you liked Jelly!"
"Not on my face though!"
After a while he joined in laughing and I handed him some tissues to wipe it off.
"Look on the bright side: you smell like strawberries!"
"Strawberries? Really?"
He took a finger full of the icing off of a huge cake and wiped it across my nose, I gasped feeling the coldness as he smirked. To get him back I took some icing and swiped it across his forehead. Game on.

A few hours later we were covered in cake and our clothes were successfully ruined. Lin took me to a nearby shop grabbing a t-shirt and shorts for him and a cute summer dress for me covering my ears once again when the price was read out. I decided not to question him since it took too much bother to persuade him to tell me. He noticed this of course and smiled commending me. I smirked seeing a tiny bit of the icing left on his forehead but, as he is observant as hell, he followed my eyeline and wiped it off.
"Mmm should be a tad more discreet next time Hun."
I stuck my tongue out as he did too while we walked out of the shop holding hands like always. In the walk home he seemed to get more nervous on each step, his hand gripped mine tighter and then I knew something was up. I sped up standing directly in front of him and turned around to face him.
"Okay. What's going on?"
He took a long sigh looking down at the floor.
"It's just. I don't think I'm ready to be a father Hun."
I backed away, it felt like a punch to the stomach. He's going to leave me? Watching my face he quickly understood, seating me on a nearby bench.
"Y-You're giving u-up on our child?"
I took shaky breaths to calm my sobs.
"It's just, I don't think I'm capable for that much responsibility."
"Lin we're getting married! Tomorrow! You can't just do this! To me! To our child!"
"I-I'm sorry."
With that he turned and walked away. I fell to the floor crying, the man I loved with all my heart broke mine in a matter of a few words. I turned to look at his figure walking away in the distance.
"FUCK YOU! I LOVED YOU!"
He slowed as if to turn around but quickly sped up again shaking the thought out of his head. I felt weak, stupid, for so easily letting him control my heart. I can do without him. Can I? Can I really? I love him too much to leave him. I looked again as his figure was now just a speck in the distance.
"Oh Lin, what have you done?"
I slowly picked myself up walking to his parents house, I knocked on the door and didn't bother to look at their faces when they saw me.
"Stacy? What happened?!"
"Y-Your son i-is a coward."
I gathered my stuff and left without saying a word more. I went back to my old apartment, Lin warned me about going back but so what? Back then I didn't know it was a death trap. But now I do want to die. I bought a one-way train ticket and sat down to wait the thirty minutes till the next train.

Lin's POV:
Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit. Fuck. I ruined everything, I don't know what came over me I just... freaked out about being a dad. And now I've god damn lost her. With no where else to go I left for my parents house, hopefully they can help. I knocked on the door as they opened it quickly, their expressions morphing into sadness but mainly disappointment. I looked up at them, a tear threatening to fall in my eye.
"H-Has she-?"
"She came. She took her stuff and left around fifteen minutes ago."
"Son, she called you a coward. Don't let me think that you-?"
"-I did. I told her I wasn't ready for a child."
"You go find her. This is your problem son. Only you can fix it."
I nodded turning to leave, wait. If she took her stuff where would she go? She moved into my place, unless she went... Fuck. I started to sprint, ignoring my parents calls behind me. If she's gone where I think she has, this may be the end of me. My thoughts chastised me as I sprinted across the roads dodging between the cars. Lin for gods sake how stupid are you? You let her go? You're a terrible fiancé. Leave her be, she doesn't want to see you again. I ignored my thoughts running to the train station and buying a ticket from the tillman, watching the train doors begin to close, the next train will come in about thirty minutes. I can't miss this one. I saw a face in one of the windows as a tear fell from the person's eye. Stacy.
"I NEED TO GET ON THAT TRAIN!"
"The train is leaving in one minute sir."
"HURRY UP! I NEED TO GET ON THE TRAIN!"
"I can only go as fast as the machine -"
"- WRITE A FUCKING PASS! I NEED TO GET ON THE TRAIN!"
Just then the ticket printed and I ran up the stairs to cross to the other platform, as I was running down on the opposite side the train started to move.
"NO!"
I chased the train watching Stacy as she wrote three words on the steamed window:
I loved you.

AN: SORRY! SORRY! SORRY! SORRY! SORRY! SORRY! SORRY! SORRY!
See ya in the next chapter!