Attraction | Theo Raeken

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Theo and I are on our way to my apartment. Or more like Derek's.
We decided to go to my place because Theo said that he isn't on good terms with his parents right now and would appreciate it to stay a little longer away from them. I'm kinda curious what happened between them, but I also don't want to question Theo about it any further. However, it's none of my business.

We finally arrive at my apartment and since there's still a bit daylight left, an idea builds up in my head.

"We could go to the rooftop and sit there if you liked to? It's a beautiful scenery. I do that quiet often. It helps me to clear my head. With the sunset and all, it creates sorta chill vibes. But not that you think I do that to hit on you or anything." I wig my hands in front of me to support my intention.

He starts to chuckle, which makes me feel even more embarrassed.
"Don't worry, it's fine." he says but with a laugh still present on his face. "And it sounds great to me, let's do it."

So here we are now. Sitting on some benches I have already taken up here for the second time I came back after discovering this place, eating our pizza.

Theo coughs slightly before he starts to speak again.
"I wanted to ask you that a while ago now. When I told you in the woods about how lone wolfs don't make it and I said that I can't imagine you ever had to experience such a situation, you said and I quote 'And that's exactly where you're wrong'. What did you meant by that?"

I'm a bit shocked that he introduces this topic again. I actually expected him to have forgotten it already. But I guess the truth will come out sooner or later, so why not telling it yet? I have to tell it to Scott and Stiles anyways which means that the rest of their pack will know it as well and I assume Theo will find it out in the end too.

"I think it doesn't work for me any longer not to talk about it, so..." I send him one last forced smile before starting the serious-talk. My sight focused on the view of the city ahead of us instead of looking him in the eyes. "I actually never talked about it. I don't even really know where to start." I sigh and rub my forehead with my thumb and pointer. I try to collect myself as well as my memory.
"It's eight years ago since my parents and I have lived together with my Aunt Talia -the alpha of the pack-, her family and some other relatives in the Hale House. We've lived there just like a.. pack. As one big family." I smile to myself because it's the fondest memory I have. "Derek. You probably heard of him. He's my cousin and my favorite one at that. At that time he was a teenager, no more than 16 years old but head over heels in love with a girl." And at that point my smile fades. "He had invited her quite often over to our house. Everybody liked her. Me included. She just seemed so nice and sweet. After Paige I just wanted the best for Derek. But it's especially one day which is branded deep on my mind." I pause because I can feel the rage forming inside of me.
"I was homeschooled because I couldn't control myself at that time. Even though it wasn't full moon, I just couldn't keep my shifts in check. I was sitting on the kitchen table and got teached Math by my mum when I smelled it. Smoke. It didn't take long for the house to burst into flames but it was still over and over again firebombed. I heard my mum screaming at me to get out of the house but the smoke made it impossible to see anything, so I was depended on my hearing in order to orient myself. It was really hard to focus on something else besides the screams of pain of my family. But I remember one thing I was able to hear loud and clear. A gunshot, shattering glass and then a thud. In a matter of seconds the smell of blood hit my nostrils. My mum's blood. The intention of burning us alive wasn't enough for the attackers so they started to shoot as well. My Uncle Peter came into vision and shook me by my shoulders in attempt to wake me up from my shock. He brought me to an old wooden door in the basement and told me to go straight ahead the passage behind that door. I had to promise him to run as fast as my legs could carry me and not to turn back, not on any terms. And that's what I did. I ran and ran and ran until I reached some gate made out of bars. It was locked but I was small enough to fit through. I took a breather and found myself in the middle of the woods. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know if my dad survived, I didn't if my uncle or my aunt survived." Just then I realize the tears rolling down my cheeks. "So I continued running, just like Peter ordered me to. I don't know how long or far I exactly ran till I got found by some police officers, but it didn't matter to me anymore anyways. The police found out about the fire soon and found the bodies, or at least what was left of them in the debris as well. So since I'm an orphan because both of my parents died, an orphanage in San Francisco became my new 'home'." I signify the quotation marks with my fingers. "A 10-year old girl, a werewolf who can't control its shifts on top of that in San Francisco. Believe me, it was indeed as bad as it sounds but year after year it got better. I found an anchor. I never got adopted, which I was glad about. I always had the hope that Laura or Derek would come and get me when they were old enough but it never happened. No great surprise, huh? So when I got old enough I started a research about the fire. I was pretty determined to find the ones who set the house on fire. After a long struggle, I got the name. The name of the person who was behind the incendiary." Since the whole time telling the story I never looked at Theo. I even feel a bit vulnerable to reveal my feelings to him but I bring myself to look him in the eyes. They are watery but he still doesn't say a word. "Kate Argent. The oh so nice girlfriend of my cousin. A werewolf hunter."

Tears are still present in my eyes but I try my best to blink them back.

"Alessia. I-I didn't know. I'm so so sorry for ask-"

"Stop it, Theo. I don't need your pity." I stand up and I can literally feel the temper radiating of my body.
To be honest, I'm not even angry at Theo. It's just if I allowed myself to get into Theo's comfort I would only feel even more exposed. I also don't want him to see me like that. I am strong, I have to be so I don't like to show any opposite.
Kate is the one my whole anger is based on, only thinking about her evokes an uncontrollable and boiling rage inside of me, which makes it hard to bottle my wolf side up.
"And don't need you and your attempt to console me. I need to find Kate and I need the anger in order to kill her. I don't care should my eyes turn into a piercing blue. I'm gonna revenge my family. These fools awakened the Nemeton again, but that's not the only reason I feel an attraction towards Beacon Hills. If I can feel it, Kate does too since she turned into a werejaguar. Yes Theo, I do my researches properly. She will come here sooner or later."

I don't give Theo a chance to speak before making the attempt of leaving the roof top.
"Anger is the best anchor you can have!" For a short moment my eyes begin to glow in an amber color and I take that as a hint to leave before I lose the remaining control I have.