Jeff Atkins x Reader

"Something special" Jeff Atkins x Reader

I'm not crying. You are :')
This is a Turkish song and I feel like it seriously fits the mood for this imagine
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"Jeff, man where are you going, you just arrived. Where's your hot chick?" Monty said. He just sighed cause he didn't have time for him nor anyone else. "To get something special" he said continuing

He looked everywhere but couldn't find you.

Y/N POV:
My face was ruined. I had mascara all over my cheeks, and under my eyes for crying. While I was crying I bit my lips, and now my lips are chapped and has little teeth marks on it. My hair was messy cause I mostly held my head between my hands, and my nose was pink from all the crying.

An old friend? Girlfriend? The words Jeff said earlier was just running inside my head. I felt like I was gonna lose my mind. "Girlfriend?.. An old friend?..." I whispered. I kept repeating Jeff's words and felt my tears coming back from my red, puffy eyes. "When did you stop loving me Jeff?..." i whispered letting my tears once again fall. "I love you Jeff..." My voice was shacking while I was whispering.

"Oh baby..." I hear a voice whisper. I turn back shocked to see who it was. I saw Jeff with tears in his eyes.

After embarrassing myself in front him, I didn't want him to see me like this, so I decided to leave, but Jeff already had a grip on my arm and looked deep into my eyes. "Don't leave..." he whispered. "Let go of me Jeff" I said, trying not to sound broken. He just kept looking into my eyes. Instead of answering, he just smashed his lips against mine, but I immediately pushed him away. "WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" "Baby I'm sorry..." "SORRY FOR WHAT, JEFF? SORRY FOR WHAT! FOR EVERY TIME MAKING ME FEEL LIKE SHIT WHEN I JUST WANTED TO MAKE EVERYTHING BETWEEN US GOOD AGAIN!" I screamed my emotions out. More and more tears streamed down my face, as I just felt my heart ache. "What do you want me to say..." he whispered and and worked his hand up and down my arms comfortably. I just looked into his eyes which had tears falling from them. "What happened to us?.. Jeff.. I tried to stop thinking about if.. but I can't.. I can't stop.. I can't stop and it kills me.. That I just watch losing you kills me. I don't want to lose you Jeffrey...". His the tears falling down from his blue eyes killed me more than everything of this could. I just wanted it to stop. "Y/N don't leave..." "You shouldn't be saying this to me Jeff. I should" i said, trying to smile, but couldn't. Jeff's hands traveled down to my hands and grabbed them. "I love you" he says. God. I felt like I would never hear those words from him again. It felt so amazing.

I didn't know what to say at all so I just looked down my at my feet.

Jeff POV:

"I love you" I said. She didn't seem to wanting to answer me. She just kept looking at her feet. "I.. I.."

Y/N POV:

"I.. I..." I didn't know what to say so I struggled talking. "I'm scared..." she whispered. "I'm scared to get disappointed and abounded again.. I'm scared to me left alone once again..." I said feeling my warm tear falling down my face. He just pulled me from my waist and hugged me. I just cried more and more. "I'm scared to get hurt again..." "I'm sorry I hurt you.. I didn't mean too..." Jeff whispers. I pulled away from the hug and said "You did." And turned my back to him to leave. He grabbed my arm again. "You wanted this right? You're not leaving until I explain you everything" he said. His face was close to mine that I felt his breath against my face. He backed away. "Baby.. you misunderstood me..." he said in a low voice.

"That day when we fought at my place. I didn't meant any of those things I said. Not even one of them. I was mad because Monty kept saying stuff about you that I couldn't resist. I was about to hurt him but didn't want to. He's my friend but I just couldn't resist hearing him saying those things about my girl. I didn't wanted to tell you because i knew that it would you uncomfortable. I was so mad, so mad that I said those bad things to you-" "stop babbling and just tell me what you were doing with that girl Jeff. You don't have a explanation to that so stop bother" I said trying to walk but he grabbed my arm, again. "I do, I swear I do. That girl you saw, we had nothing going on between. Nothing at all-" "so what was that Jeff?! You clearly kissed her!" "I didn't kiss her, she kissed me! She was broken over her break up with her boyfriend and wanted to make him jealous with me! I told her I had a girlfriend but she didn't listen! I was shocked, I didn't know what to do. Baby I'm sorry I didn't mean any of it!" I just looked into his eyes when, focusing on his voice. I love this guy so much. ".. but you took her the winter formal date..-" "To be honest I was planning to ask you. Riley isn't my type at all. But since you always pushed me away I couldn't ask you" I just nodded looking down.

"But she said she's your girlfriend..." "Baby she isn't my girlfriend. You are. Riley aren't my type at all, and to be honest. She's a bitch. Sorry" "that doesn't explain why she said she's your girlfriend." "I don't know either. I wanted to tell you that it wasn't true. I told her many times that I wasn't her boyfriend and that I only love you. I always will. I told her and I always will. I love you Y/N, and only you. You are the only one that has my heart" I just looked down trying to find an answer.

"Baby please believe me.. I didn't mean any of that. I love you. I truly do. More than anything" he said hugging me and kissing my head. My head resting on his chest. We could hear the song from the gymnasium. It was a slow dance cause Perfect by Ed Sheeran was playing.

Normal POV:
Jeff slowly started slowly to slow dance to the song, allowing Y/N to dance with him. Her hands had grabbed Jeff's back from his Jacket. She just realized that she didn't know how to live without him.

"Y/N" "Yeah" she mumbles. "I can't live without you". She just responded with a huge smile on her face. "I love you Jeff. I can't live without you either". Jeff bows down to kiss her. "Are you crazy, my lips are drier than a desert" "I don't care, just let me kiss you". She allowed him to kiss her. After all that's what she wanted the most. It was so amazing to feel his lips against hers. He tightened the hug and held her close by her waist.
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Boggie, woggie, woggie. I'm finally done. I'm sorry if it's shitty 😂 I somehow got inspired by my classmate to write this. Shoutout to him. LMAO

Thank you for reading ❤️ - Achy