I KNOW. I KNOW. IM NOT DEAD (I am inside but still) THINGS WASN'T GOING SO WELL
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We arrived in front of my house and he dropped me of. After i thanked him and i got out of the car and closed the door, and was right about to turn around i heard the cars door open.
"Y/N, wait" Jeff said walking towards me as i stopped. He stopped in front of me looked at me first, and i looked at him. After some seconds he broke the silence.
"I'm so sorry..." and there was it. The silence. I looked down. Sorry for what Jeff? Knowing you were a huge part in my life i never wanted to lose, and then hurt me, more than once. Is that what you're sorry for?...
"I know you hate me, and i understand, i swear i do. I'm a jerk, i don't deserve a fucking shit. But please let me explain.. please baby..." and i gave up. I really did. I didn't have the strength anymore...
"Fine" i breath out, trying not to cry and look awkwardly dumb.
"Explain. Explain why. Why you ever did it. What i ever do to you. Explain. Did you know i really loved you, and that i would will everything for you, so you broke my heart over and over again? You really-"
"I was a fucking coward. I was scared, okay? I really was. From life, from everyone, especially from myself. I didn't know what else to do, alright, I never meant to hurt you. I never meant to do any of this. I'm a fucking idiot cause I can't face the truth, I'm a fucking coward, and I did all these to... be happy. Now i realize the only happiness i had was you, and I lost you too because of me..." I didn't had to believe him.. but i could defently tell that his tears was real.
I couldn't take it anymore. I coulnd't control it.. I threw myself into him. Into his arms. "I love you" that's all i could hear until i felt two pairs of arms sneaked around my waist to pull me closer. He hid his face on the crock of my face. I just felt my tears keep rolling at the sent i mist. At the touch. All i could ever remember was the pain.. nothing else.
"I love you" I heard him say
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THE ENDING WAS HELL BUT IM ALIVE HOEX. IM ALIVE, I SWEAR TO GOD.
