There She Goes - The La's
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"I've got to go, guys. I'll see you tomorrow though!" I called to my friends as I started to walk home.
I had denied Freddie's offer to give me a ride yet again. I would rather talk to my friends for a couple extra minutes, even if it meant walking home in the bitter cold.
I heard footsteps approaching behind me.
"Brandy! Wait up!"
I turned to see Eddie jogging to catch up with me. I sent him a soft smile.
"Hey."
He walked in pace with me.
"Hey."
"Did you watch the new episode of Full
House?" he asked me.
I laughed at him, "you watch Full House?"
He nodded, "of course I watch Full House! You don't watch Full House?"
"Of course I watch Full House. You just don't seem like a Full House kind of guy."
Eddie raised an eyebrow, "oh? What kind of guy do I seem like."
"I don't know! Not a Full House guy?" I responded, flustered by my inability to answer his question.
"I can't wait for Spring," Eddie said with a sigh.
"I can't either. It's my second favorite season."
"What's first?" Eddie asked, cocking his head to the side.
"Summer of course. No school!"
Eddie smiled down at me, an unrecognizable emotion in his eyes. Nobody had ever looked at me the way Eddie did. It was really fucking hot. I wanted to drag him to my bedroom right then and there.
"When don't you want to just drag him to your bedroom, Brandy?"
Intrusive thoughts entered my mind, and I tried my best to push them out by changing my train of thought.
I thought back to a few hours before.
Lucas was in my 7th period english class and sat next to me. He made small talk for most of the class, but one thing he said stuck out to me.
"So, Brandy. Are you and Eddie dating?"
I was shocked by the question. Where had he gotten that idea? Had he seen us holding hands during lunch? Eddie had held my hand so close to his area, my fingers shook with nerves because of the almost-contact.
"W-what?" I asked Lucas, confused.
"Are you. Dating Eddie." He broke the sentence down as if I hadn't heard his words the first time.
"Well I heard the words the first time. That was just an expression of confusion."
Lucas furrowed his eyebrows, a small smile on his confused lips, "What's there to be confused about?"
I shook my head, "n-nothing. Eddie and I aren't dating."
His eyes boggled, "really??"
I nodded, "yeah. Where did you get that idea from?"
"Eddie."
My heart had skipped a beat, "Eddie said we were dating?"
Lucas nodded, "hmh. That's odd. Why would he say that if you aren't?"
I shrugged.
I snapped back out of the memory and back into reality.
Eddie was still gazing at me with his drop dead gorgeous eyes.
He was so fucking cute. And he had said I was his girlfriend, even though I wasn't. I wondered why he would tell Lucas that.
My cheeks heated up at the thought of what it could have meant. But I knew he was probably pulling a Freddie move to try and protect me from douchie guys.
"Hey Eddie?" I asked, looking up into his big brown eyes.
I bit my lip, having second thoughts of confronting him about it.
"Yeah?" he asked, his breath slightly shaky.
"Why'd you tell Lucas we were dating?"
Eddie froze, "you were talking to Lucas?"
I nodded, "he sits next to me in seventh period."
He sighed looking at the ground.
I thought maybe I'd get the response I craved. I thought maybe he'd confess to liking me.
But I shouldn't confuse dreams with reality.
"Uh- I don't know. I was kind of tuning him out and just nodded to all of his questions. I didn't realize he'd asked me-"
Eddie was avoiding eye contact.
"Don't fucking lie to me, Hoe." I scoffed.
He tried his hardest to look me in the eye, but he was having difficulty. If only he knew how much those eyes tripped me up. They tripped me up almost as much as his freckles. His freckles tripped me up almost as much as the gorgeousness that wasn't located on his face.
I pushed the intrusive thoughts out of my mind once more, focusing on the situation.
"I don't know. He was bothering me and asked if we were dating and I said yeah to piss him off, I guess."
My heart sunk. Of course he was being petty. Why else would he have said that?
I gulped back a lump in my throat, nodding.
"We're almost at my house. Thanks for walking me home, Eds." I smiled up at him.
He smiled back down at me, "you're welcome, B."
Fuck he was so sweet. Fuck why didn't I just kiss him or something? Why couldn't I muster up a bit of courage? I had never had any trouble confronting any of the other guys I had liked. But Eddie seemed different than any guy I'd like before.
More whole. Less cocky.
His snarky sense of humor drew me in on a whole different level than any other guy I had dated.
I wanted him on a new spectrum. A spectrum of lifelong love and support, not just a teenage fling.
I stood on my driveway as he briskly walked away.
When he turned the corner, I walked in my front door, taking off my shoes and walking to the kitchen.
"Hi Mom," I kissed my mother on the cheek, "Hi Dad," I walked over to my Dad's lazy boy and kissed him on the forehead.
Dad's eyes opened as he smiled sleepily up at me, "hello Pumpkin." To no surprise, he had been taking a nap.
I smiled down at him once more before walking up to my room.
I flipped through a mixtape, craving a different kind of music than I usually listened to.
I found the perfect one, walking over to my boom box and pressing play.
I sighed as the melody washed over me.
I sat on my bed, staring at the ceiling. The blades of my fan coiled around and around, making a comforting hum.
Fuck this.
I got up to my window. It was 5:30 and the sun was already setting.
"The night it still young," I sighed, hopping out my window.
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A/N:
Y'all are gonna hate me I'm sorry.
