Being aware of my early ness, I let myself in. I get myself a glass of water and sit on the couch. I occupy myself with my phone for a while. When ten minutes past, the knob on the door starts to jiggle from the other side. I put my phone away and get ready. The door swings open and hits the wall.
"Shit. Caly? What are you doing here?"
"We need to talk, Louis. I said looking straight into his eyes. We sighed and nodded while walking over to sit on the couch next to me. He fiddled with his fingers for a moment before I broke the silence.
"Louis, you do know that I love Harry, right?" I ask looking down at the floor. I hear Louis hum an mhm lowly.
"You know that I want to be with Harry?" Louis looks up at me and puts his head back down.
"What is it, Louis?" I ask with a little bit of aggravation in my voice.
"He's not good for you! He hasn't changed! When he leaves, I'm going to be the one to fix you! You need to break away from him before he hurts you. I'm better for you," He stands up and waves his arms around. He mutters the last part and I don't think I was supposed to hear it.
"Do you know what love is?" I ask wanting to know what his answer is.
"Yes, I know what love is," he said with sarcasm.
"I didn't always know what it was or felt like. But in the few days that I have been loving someone, I've learned that love isn't supposed to feel comfortable. Love isn't something that keeps you grounded and safe. Love is dangerous. It is a different adventure every day and you have no clue what is to come. Love makes you go crazy, but at the end of the day, love is what gets you up in the morning. And, Louis, I feel that for Harry."
"But-" Louis starts.
"No," I cut him off, "Harry might leave me. He might just walk out of my life and never turn back around. But you know what? I don't care what the risk is. That's what love is. Love is a risk, and I'm willing to take it. Even if Harry does leave, I won't regret anything because all I know right now is that I want to be with Harry more than anything. When I look back on us, I will remember that Harry was my everything and I was his," I conclude my rambling. Everything that I just said is entirely true. I love Harry with everything I have.
"I didn't know he meant that much to you," Louis said looking at his feet.
"He does. Just because I'm dating Harry does not mean that we can't be friends."
"But, Caly, we can't be friends! Whenever I look at you, I get sad that I'm not holding your hand. I get mad that Harry is with you and I'm not. I feel all of those emotions every time I look at you. I can't be around you," Louis says stepping closer to me.
"I didn't know-"
"Of course you didn't know! You wouldn't realize anything if someone didn't scream it in your face all the time! I don't know how you do it, Caly. You're so naive. I can't-"
Louis stops when he sees tears streaming down my cheeks.
Louis immediately takes a step towards me and puts his hand on my shoulder, "Hey, I didn't mean to make you cry. I'm sorry I didn't mean any of that. I was just angry and my emotions got the best of me."
Louis hugs me and I hug him back. I begin to feel like I've messed everything up. My best friend and I's relationship is falling apart. I hated that. I needed all the friends I could get. I can't afford to lose any of them.
"Can we please be friends?" I cry into his shoulder. I'm mentally praying he will say yes.
"I would do anything for you. I'll try my hardest," Louis says still hugging me.
After we broke the hug, I asked where Hope was since they were apparently dating.
"Hope was just somebody to help get my mind off of you. It didn't work, obviously," he replied looking embarrassed.
I didn't want to press any further because he looked so uncomfortable as it is.
After a while, it was time for me to go. The awkward tension started to grow and I needed to leave the house. I hug Louis goodbye and I make him promise that we will go back to the way we were before all of this. I also make him swear that he will try his best with Harry. I want for them to be friends again so badly.
I drive back to my apartment and let myself think for once. I didn't turn the radio up and I let my thoughts consume me.
Gosh, I've never loved anyone nearly as much as I love Harry, I thought. My heart is practically bursting with love, which I didn't even know could happen. I guess you can learn a lot from love. I know I have. I never knew that love, out of all the emotions, would be so pure. I barely know to use it.
I pull up to my apartment and walk inside. I'm super tired from all of the events today. I put on some comfortable clothes and hop in bed. My dreams are filled with two dark-haired boys, one with ocean blue eyes and the other forest green.
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**i kinda like them as friends i don't want them to stooooppp. ANOTHER TITLE REFERENCE AH I LOVE THOSE .
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