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two

I woke up to the sound of my alarm clock. I groaned in response. I absolutely did not want to wake up because I knew what today has in store. Today was Saturday, so I could stay in my cozy apartment all day. Except Madison decided to ruin that. I finally decided to get out of my bed after my thoughts left my head. I walked into my tiny kitchen and poured milk into the bowl filled with fruit loops. I ate the same cereal every morning. It was my little routine. By doing this, I felt like my life was actually put together.

After I watched three episodes of Grey's Anatomy, I decided I should get ready for this party. I straightened my curly hair and put on some light makeup. I couldn't put on anymore makeup because I did not know how to. I didn't have anyone to teach me. Right as my thoughts started to consume my mind once again, I realized I did not have any clothes to wear to a party. What do I even wear to a party?

I texted Madison and hopefully she would let me borrow some clothes.

Just realized I have nothing to wear. Can I come over and borrow something? -Calz
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I was hoping you'd text me. I already have something for you. -Madz
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She sent me her address and I immediately hopped in my car. It took 15 minutes until i finally pulled into her white, paved driveway. I didn't realize Madison had money. Why does she work at the diner?

I knocked on the door and she opened it and embraced me in a hug. She led me upstairs where I saw the outfit she had picked out for me laying on the bed.

"T-that's for me?" I stuttered.

"Yeah! Don't you like it?" she asked.

I hesitated before responding to her. Madison is the only person that cares about me and I can't let her down. She can't leave me like-

"Caly? I know you usually don't wear clothes like this but at least try it on," she interrupted my thoughts.

I huffed and took the clothes with me to the bathroom. I looked at the red, strapless, skin tight shirt in front of me. I never wore anything nearly close to this. All of my clothes were baggy and didn't fit me very well. I didn't have a problem with it though. I put on the shirt and I looked at myself for a moment. I didn't look bad. I mean my body wasn't the best but this shirt definitely complemented it. The skirt she had picked out for me was a black, leather skirt. I immediately noticed how short it was. I put it on and you could practically see my butt from the back. I'm never wearing this.

I walked out of the bathroom and Madison's eyes widened.

"Woah, Caly. You look hot."

"There's no way i'm wearing this. It's too tight and you can see everything."

"It fits you perfectly. You look absolutely amazing."

Her kind words made me feel something, but I couldn't put words to it. I smiled, but I still had doubts. Did I look good? I really didn't care anyways. I wasn't going to be seeing anyone I care about tonight besides Madison.

I finally agreed to wear the outfit she picked out. We talked for a while and then it was time to go. I got in my car and followed her to the location of the party. I could hear the music from a mile away. When we finally reached the house, she walked over to me and grabbed my hand.

"Caly, you've got this. Just be yourself. Make friends with people. I know you have it in you," she encouraged me.

"Thanks Madz, but I can't promise anything."

We walked inside and I felt like I was walking to my death. The music penetrated my ears. The smell of alcohol burned my nose. The sight of people dancing on each other and shoving their tongues down each other's throat made me want to throw up. I saw a couch and decided to sit there. I wanted to stay in the background. I do that everyday, so it wouldn't be too hard.

As I sat down on the couch, two people started making out. I felt uncomfortable sitting down, so I made my way to the middle of the room. I saw stairs that lead somewhere, and my curiosity got the best of me. I walked up the stairs and I opened the door immediately to my left. Fortunately, no one was in there. I locked the door behind me and sat on the bed, regretting my decision of coming tonight. I had no clue where Madison was and I wasn't planning on coming out of this bedroom anytime soon.

A shiny frame caught my eye as I walked around the room. My hand wiped the dust off of the frame and I saw a picture. It looked like little boy was with his mom. They both look so happy. I wonder what it was like to feel that way. I suddenly felt envy for the little boy. Happiness was a trait I was never able to grasp.

I saw another picture frame to my right. It was the same boy, but with a girl who looked a little bit older than him. Maybe his sister? They both looked so similar. They both had brown curly hair and penetrating green eyes. This room had to belong to this little boy.

After walking around the room for what seemed like forever, I decided I needed to leave. I am never going to another party ever again. I walked out of the room with my head down, hoping no one would see me. I quickly. made my way to the exit. As I was about to reach the exit, I felt a large push that made me lose my balance. I fell to the ground and looked up to see who may have bumped into me. The only thing I saw before I got up was a mop of brown hair.

I shrugged it off. He was probably just drunk and didn't know where he was going. I didn't care. I made my way to the car and drove off. I couldn't stand to be there one more second. I went back to my apartment and slammed the door shut. I could not believe I actually went to a party. I vowed to never, ever put myself in that situation again.

I heated up some leftovers from the diner and texted Madison.

I left. Thanks for inviting me. -Calz
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Thanks for coming. I'm glad you came out of your comfort zone for tonight. -Madz
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In a way, I'm thankful for Madison. She pushes and challenges me in ways I don't even think possible. The feeling from earlier comes back. I don't know what it is, but it's foreign to me. It's driving me crazy not knowing what it is, but maybe it's good?

I change into some pajamas and read until I fall asleep, dreaming of what a horrible night I had.

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**Chapter two is up!! Hopefully you liked it. I'm trying really hard to make this story the best it can be.

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